Write a like or love letter to the Butch you admire.

[constantevolve]

i like this post... gives me some hope... thank you Handsome.

[izejka]

Dear Sweetheart,

I haven't met you yet, but I know you're out there. I know you long for me as much as I do you and I cannot wait for the day until we find each other. I thought I had found you at one point but I was wrong, you would have never been like hy was. You would be so caring and wonderful to me and let me be the same to you. You would do things you hated with me just because I meant that much to you, and I would do the things you liked that I didn't for the same reasons. You would compliment me even if I thought I was the ugliest girl on the planet that day, and tease me lightheartedly just because you could. You would do all those things and more, sweetheart I know you're out there. I just need to find you.

'Cause I know you're looking for me too.

All my love,
Kaye

[StarFire]

I did not mean to embarrass you. All of the butches I have met here, so far, are wonderful, adorable, kind and gentle people. I appreciate all of you. I, too, had great love in the past and I know I will again one day. It's just in my nature to know love exists and can be created and passed on.


To all of the butches, trans and FtM's on BF,

You are all beautifully made and wonderful creatures. You possess brilliant souls and beautiful hearts. In your eyes we femmes see how precious and genuine you are. Please, only ever be yourselves. It isn't up to anyone else to change you into someone better. Be your best self. We ask the same of you concerning us. Allow yourselves to love, be loved and be peace. Take the fears you have of being not enough, not measuring up, not being successful or unable and throw that away for the Universe to return to you as the opposite.

We love who you are. We love your energy, your strengths and your weaknesses. We love you exactly the way you are. We are here for you when you need us. We will give you love, care, support and yes, should someone else hurt you protection as only we can . We do not expect you to be something or someone you are not.

We want you to feel confident, loved, wanted and needed because we love you, not loved because we need you. We want you to know you are the important part of our adult lives and yes, we can share you with your family, friends and children. We want you to pursue your personal interests and we will as well. In the middle we will meet and join together for joint interests and share our individual interests if you wish. And vice versa.

We want you to take the time necessary to recharge your emotional batteries just as we need to do so as well. We want you to know when we come back together after being apart for minutes, hours, days or weeks there was no one else we wanted to see more than you. No one we wanted to share our romantic intimate selves with other than you. We want you to know when we part for however long we will return to you.

Yes, we will have hard times as well as good times. We will both work on our couples issues and our personal issues. We will speak to you in truth that is kind, true and necessary. We know you will do the same for us. We will share of ourselves, our time and our resources in an unselfish manner. We know you will also. We will support your dreams, goals and wishes because we know you give that in return.

We adore you for the bliss we find when with you. We thank the Universe for making you, exactly and perfectly you. We love you and respect your emotional, physical and sexual boundaries as you extend that to us, too. We respect you period for you give that back. We honor you and we know you return that. We have an understanding of each other that none other could ever begin to comprehend, a language all our own and yes, the dance. Always this dance.

As we grow in our love, respect and mutual adoration we will know more of the same. As we move forward on our journey, knowing one day we will part due to death, we will and do know we had the greatest love of our lives. Should one of us depart much sooner than expected, we want the one left living to do just that, live. Find another love and know we want this for you.

We want your happiness and well being for you. This includes loving another and she loving you as we did once. When you love and I mean truly love, you can and should seek it out again. It is not something to fear. Those of us who have known great love, do seek it out and not fear it. We know deep within it exists and will again. It is not you did not respect our memory or our love nor will we ever be forgotten. We simply know it is what you would want for us as well, happy, alive and free as we were when we were with you.

Thank you for simply being.

I decided to repost this post of mine to all of the Butches, FtM's and Trans Butches. Afterall, we all need reminders of how wonderful we are!

Star

[musicman]

Hi Star,

I had forgotten about this post you wrote a while back. It's still nice to go back and read it when life gets in the way. Thanks for posting it again Star.

Musicman

[ImpishPuck]

Awww this butch is feelin' the love! Thank you!

[Bootsandheels]

I decided to repost this post of mine to all of the Butches, FtM's and Trans Butches. Afterall, we all need reminders of how wonderful we are!

Star

Absolutely beautiful Star...thank you fo reposting!

[Bootsandheels]

Dear Sweetest Boi,

I like you so very much. You make me smile and laugh everyday and remind me that I'm still ok, that I'm still attractive, sexy and desireable even though I am older than you.

How incredibly sweet you are to me always...and encouraging me to just be me everyday and not think so hard about everything and not be so damn hard on myself.

Thank you for your mojo and for working it and perfecting it on this femme...you got it going on honey...keep working it...some femme is going to be so damn lucky!

Thank you for being my true friend for what I believe will be a lifetime and for seeing the same in me.

Thank you for being a more mature, honest, real, insightful, kind, intelligent, witty, incredibly funny, chilvalrous, communicative butch than most of the "mature" seasoned butches out there.

You give me hope. You give me courage. You remind me who I am.
You show me what is possible, and tell me to keep my standards high...

Thank you sweet sweet Boi...

[Shyfemmekat]

Dearest One,

Those brown eyes, glowing with amber, twin suns in a firmament of pale skin and tiny freckles..inexorably drawing in the moon of my heart to your heat...I come, I come..


~~from a longer piece I am writing to Aidan, PrimoKnight65

[musicman]

Since Star posted again her beautiful words on butches it got me thinking about a post I did a while back as well. This is was written by a femme that obviously LOVES butches with all that she has. It will boost the chest of butches everywhere to read this post again. I have no idea who the writer is, I have looked for her to thank her, for her words that certainly changed my life forever. Because of her and her words I knew that there were femmes/women out there that could love someone like me. Someone that was different then what society thought was "normal".

It is a bit long the article but trust me , it is well worth the time to read it. Hope the butches enjoy and hope the femmes that read it see themselves somewhere in the article. Let me take this opportunity to thank ALL the femmes here for being who you are and for loving whgo we are.

Is there anyone here who finds butch lesbians attractive?

Best Answer - Chosen by Asker


Yup, I'm crazy about them. Here's a summation of my feelings:

Ooh, what a delightful question. I love everything about butch women, and I always have. More feminine girls just don't do anything for me sexually- I can objectively admire their beauty and sexiness, but in the end, it's when I see a woman who is androgynous, boyish, or plain out manly, my heart starts to pitter-patter. So let me sing an ode to butches here, because far too often all I see is "Eww, yuck, I like my women to look like women!", and that's so sad.

I love butch hair. I like the way the women who wear it- whether it's short or long- use their hair in a completely different way than do feminine women- they don't flip it or toss it or curl it around their fingers, but sometimes they run their hands through it that special way. I love the way short hair looks so distinguished on a strong face that would otherwise be hidden by length, and I love the way a shaved butch head both reveals a butch's masculinity in attitude, and femininity in the face and head that emerge.

I love butch faces. I love the androgynous and tomboyish faces that are beautiful, elvish, almost- the girls who could be extraordinarily beautiful in femme drag. But more than that I love the butch faces that can't do that- that look ridiculous when painted up and framed by a wig. I love strong, square jaws that are firmly held rather than slack. I love high foreheads and thick brows that other people would probably want to pluck and shape. I love butch eyes, that are always so extraordinary. Not hidden by tons of makeup or weighted down with the way femme women often look away, it's like looking into their souls. I love the way a butch speaks with her eyes- those direct stares that say "I love you." or make you break out in a hot flush from across the room. I love butch mouths, which are the ultimate combination: soft and sensuous girl lips that don't act like girl lips- no pouting or worried thinning or other 'femme' signs.

I love butch bodies, every way they come. I like the way that the butch female form is somehow hidden in its clothing- from the T-shirt and jeans to the sharpest cut suit, you can always tell it's there, in the hips, the luscious curve of breast, but it's not on display the way femme clothing screams "boobs here! butt here!". I love muscles on a woman's body, more than the average sporty femme should have, bulging, tensing. I love butches who don't shave their legs or their armpits, who own the hair on their body, and how though it's long, most people don't realize it's downy soft, too, a beautiful covering. I love butch boobs, because they are such a prize, alternatively hated and ignored by their owners. I love little butch t*ts and big butch t*ts- I love the shape they make on a boxy body and I adore the juxtaposition of hard muscle, soft breast. I love to see a butch unwind her binding and the breasts to spill out like presents, and then get wrapped up again for the world, a secret only I've had access to. I love butch legs and torsos- they are so often trunk-like, solid. Even when they're scrawny, they have a centeredness, a strength. Muscled butch legs, smooth or hairy, get me every time. I love the way so many butches adorn their bodies, bodies that aren't supposed to be, but get decorated anyways- butch piercings and tattoos- a ring around a bicep makes me melt. I love the way butches smell- not cloyingly, sickeningly sweet like femmes' perfume or other body scents, but clean, fresh, sometimes musky and sour with cologne, but always different, always, somehow, natural.

I love butch fashion- I am quite simply and utterly delighted by the way women wear what's regarded as men's clothing. For anyone who's ever thought that butches are lazy dressers, I want to point out the woman who looks so utterly dashing in her suit and tie, or just a dress shirt and slacks, the boi who is able to rock a Justin Timberlake look, right down to the fedora, who makes a wifebeater look as tasty as it can be, who make men in theirs look sallowly concave at the chest. I love the studded belts that punk butches wear, the boys jeans that fit off-kilter around their hips just enough. I cannot begin to explain the heat it generates to see a butch in boxers, or better yet, boxer-briefs or boy's underwear, those legs branching up to the three-pronged cut, the flap lying flat and empty, or maybe bulging with a packer. I love the fact that nearly every butch owns a pair of boots, solid, thundering boots that look so army powerful and commanding when they wear them. I love a woman in men's clothing.

I love the way butches act. I love the particular way a butch woman acts "like a man", but with a woman's way- gentlemanly ettiquette and all. I don't know how to describe that it's not hardly even the butch qualities (sitting wide-legged and spread out, standing tall and firm), but rather how comfortable and natural she is being that way that makes it so good. I love the way butches are playful and funny but not coy or manipulative- I love their straight-forwardness. I love that "bulldagger swagger" so full of confidence and seriousness, that peacock strut. I love the way butches feel a masculine sense of obligation and duty and protection, but it doesn't translate into male ego. My heart squeezes at the way butches deal with their emotions- sometimes hiding it, swallowing it down, and that facade of pride and bravado. I love the way butches act- so confident, so gentlemanly, so tough. I love butch voices- the ones that are pitched too low, but refuse to take on the sort of drawl that would turn it into a throaty, sultry femme voice. I love the way butches can navigate the world- not in competition with men, but buddies and friends, and yet slide into women's land and have that identity, too.

I love the way butches have sex- how they know just what to do, and want to do it so very badly. I love the way butches use their hands like sex organs for delicate handlings. I love the outline of a strap-on contained in jeans or underwear. I love butches who can orgasm by jerking off their silicone c*cks, whose metaphysical erections are so strong in their minds that the touch practically translates. I absolutely am addicted to the faces of butch pleasure- the eyes rolling back in the head, the body shudders, the complete way a feminine orgasm rolls through a butch body, made masculine by it. I love butches who top but more I love butches who bottom or do both- I am drawn to butch women who know that being touched and penetrated and pleasured doesn't invalidate her butchness, doesn't feminize her, doesn't equal submission. I love butches who are into BDSM, who look fantastic in leather and who take slow, careful deliberation in their acts, who wear that power like an easy mantle. I love butches who love other butches as well as femmes- those girls who know the true pleasures of same-sex relations, when the sameness is in two butch bodies banging together, mirror images, same intense ferocity and heat.

But perhaps most of all, I love butches for who they are in this world. My heart aches and yearns for the strength I feel from them, how every day they walk the world looking the way they do and basically inviting- and then bearing- attacks for not giving up and conforming to feminine ideals. I love them for being who they are, and not letting anyone tell them that women do not have crew cuts, or women don't wear ties, or women must be this, or must be that.

Simply put, I am in love and lust with butches, and I don't care if other people aren't (you can't control what you like), but I want them to understand that butches can be- and are- desirable. Just a few quotes to close up:

" . . . a butch is someone who has taken on the best gendered characteristics of both woman and man, left a lot of the stuff born of misogyny and heterosexism behind, and walked forward into the world without apology." - S. Bear Bergman, "Butch Is a Noun"

"I love butch girls. Girls with slick, shiny, barbershop haircuts, trimmed so short your fingertips can barely grip it. Girls with shirts that button the other way. Girls that swagger... Girls who get stared at in the ladies' room, girls who shop in the boys department, girls who live every moment looking like they weren't supposed to. Girls with hands that touch me like they have been exploring my body their entire lives... It is the girls that get called sir every day who make me catch my breath, the girls with strong jaws who buckle my knees, the girls who are a different gender who make me want to lay down for them." - Tristan Taormino

Hope that helps you understand a little about why some girls (and guys) like butches!

[Bootsandheels]

Femme Awakening...

(Back from walking/running killer dog...dripping sweat, still in work clothes (scrubs) running shoes...)

Dearest Sweet Butch…

I’m so sorry to cause you so much pain…

The keys you tried in the lock on my heart would not fit…The vault to my sacred feminine heart…body and soul remains sealed…waiting for Hym…whomever that is. I have no control over this…it’s just the way it is…

I’m so sorry it’s not you-I wanted it to be, I really did.

Thank you for teaching me to let down my guard and let go a little more… and trust…trust the process…trust in myself…trust in love once again- even if just for a few brief moments…

Thank you for your love…

I am a better person and a better femme for it…

Thank you for your love…


(Tears...while pondering running shoes and why they feel so good on right now...)

Boots

[urbanwrangler]

Thank you for posting this musicman.. amazing indeed!

[Bootsandheels]

Thank you for posting this musicman.. amazing indeed!

I loudly and affectionately second that motion!!!! Woohoo!!! Love these parts:

" a butch is someone who has taken on the best gendered characteristics of both woman and man, left a lot of the stuff born of misogyny and heterosexism behind, and walked forward into the world without apology." - S. Bear Bergman, "Butch Is a Noun"

"I love butch girls. Girls with slick, shiny, barbershop haircuts, trimmed so short your fingertips can barely grip it. Girls with shirts that button the other way. Girls that swagger... Girls who get stared at in the ladies' room, girls who shop in the boys department, girls who live every moment looking like they weren't supposed to. Girls with hands that touch me like they have been exploring my body their entire lives... It is the girls that get called sir every day who make me catch my breath, the girls with strong jaws who buckle my knees, the girls who are a different gender who make me want to lay down for them." - Tristan Taormino

Sigh...YUM...

[urbanwrangler]

Thank you so much!

[musicman]

Hi Urbanwrangler, you are welcome. Glad I put it up as well. We all need a little reminder that we are loved, desired and needed. As I said it changed my life when I read it. Still looking for the author of the article. I need to thank her for taking the time and for loving butches.

Musicman

[SweetJane]

musicman, you're right this lady is so eloquent. She's able to put into poetry what I feel. This is a gift to both femmes and butches. So, thank you for posting it.

[Onyxena]

To my butch brothers:

I love you all very much. This little sister is always getting into trouble, trusting a little to easily, giving her heart away a little too fast, and getting stuck in ruts, to often. But then you all come around me. You wipe the tears away, help heal the broken hearts, threaten to kick the shit out of anyone that hurts me, and being blunt with me when I need to give up my bs pitty pot.

You always encourage me to goof around, be light-hearted, and have fun. Even though I can take care of myself, sometimes I step back and let you be macho. It makes me smile.

I hate to see you when you are down, you are all so precious to me. You are a very important light in my life, and honestly I wouldn't know what to do without you. Us femmes have some pretty hard shells, but you manage to crack them, just like we manage to get into yours.

Please don't be so hard on yourselves. You are loved and needed. You are our yang to our yin. You all are very lovable.

Thank you again for all you do brothers.

-Ony

[SoulSearcher]

I watch you and I talk to you, and the more that I do; the more I admire you. In such a short time, I have learned so much about your personality, your character, your thoughts, your bliefs and so much more. You truly are amazing. Even more so then you may realize. There truly isn't much that I can say, but I hope that some day, I am lucky enough to have a Butch as wonderful as you. Even as a friend, You never cease to make me smile and even laugh. I just wanted to tell you how wonderful and special I think you are; and to thank you for all that you say and do. I am lucky just to even know you, and just knowing you... is a blessing in my life.

[GottaLoveMel]

Since you know who you are, I won't mention your name. I just hope you know how much it hurt when I realized that we would never work as a couple. A part of me was in love with you, and I think a part of me still is, since I keep you so close. Those nights spent lying in our beds on opposite sides of the country talking for hours are all so precious to me, and I hope that they meant something to you, too. Everytime you told me you loved me, I melted all over again. I loved hearing you tell me what you loved about me, even though you grew tired of answering that question over and over. And I love how everytime I felt ugly or was in a self-loathing mood, you insisted that I was wrong. I hate that we only talked for a month before realizing that we couldn't enter a relationship. I wish it was longer. Now I feel like there is this awkwardness when we talk to each other, and its hard for me to not be easily annoyed or aggravated by the things that you do. I wish you were more mature. I wish you wanted kids later down on the road and that our goals in life were similar. But alas, that is not the case, and in fact, things are FAR from that.

I also hope that you know that you are the first person since my fiancee died that I haven't tried to replace her with. I was excited to start a new relationship with you, and looked forward to moving on with my life. Now I feel like I've hit that brick wall again.

I know that this letter sounds sad, but in all honesty, I love you, adore you, and I am trying so hard to remain friends with you because I don't want to lose everything, and I most certainly do not want to lose you.

~*~

To my soul mate,

I hope that you are out there somewhere waiting for me. I thought that Kris was the one, and I felt it in my bones, but now I begin to wonder if its possible for someone to have more than one soulmate. So I will write this letter to you, in the hopes that you somehow can hear my words and find me.

Please be patient with me, and give me the space that I need. Don't be possessive or overprotective, it will only push me away. Please hear me out when I'm freaking out about letting my guard down. Its never been easy for me to be vulnerable or to fully trust someone. Remember that while I need my space, I also need someone to come home to.

I think about lying in your arms and about you holding me. I long for your embrace and for your comforting words to be spoken ever so softly and sweetly to me. I long to take long walks with you through the park and short ones to the convenience store at odd hours of the night to feed our sudden urges for munchies. I look forward to introducing you to my family and having them all love you the way that they loved Kris.

I hope that you want to get married, and whatever age you are, that you want to have kids with me someday. I hope that you admire my determination and goal-oriented self, and that my drive and focus makes your attraction to me stronger. I hope that you understand that Kris will always be a part of my life, and I hope that me bringing her up in conversations doesn't push you away or make you think that you are any less of a partner. I also hope that me flirting with other people doesn't make you feel that way, either. As I said before, I need my space to breathe. Just know that I'll always come back to you, even if it seems like I've strayed away.

I want you to know that I will love you passionately and indefinitely, and that no one will ever love you as much as I will. I want you to know that I will do everything I can to let you know how much I care about you, whether its making dinner on nights when you come home late from work, sore and exhausted, or if its reminding you how truly handsome or beautiful you are, whichever you prefer to hear, heheh. And I hope that you will pitch in fifty percent (sometimes more, if necessary) with the household work.

I hope that you think my rambling and rants are cute, and that you admire the fiery, burning passion I have for my beliefs and values. I hope that when I'm feeling my worse, you'll stay right by my side and do whatever I need to make myself feel better. I know that I'll do the same for you.

I don't know what else to say except that I hope you don't take too long in finding me. I don't like sleeping by myself, although my bed is rather small. And during the times when I want to give up waiting for you and searching for you, please send me some reassuring sign that you are out there.

I can't wait to meet you and spend the rest of my life with you.

Much Love,
Mel

~*~

Yeah, so I wrote two letters. Bite me. =P

[GottaLoveMel]

Okay, so I know that this might seem a bit ass backwards, but this letter was really hard for me to write tonight. I wrote this letter to my fiancee and partner of 2.5 years who passed away on July 6th of this year. On the evening of June 29th, she was hit by a pickup truck while riding her bike home from work. She spent the last week of her life in the hospital dealing with brain injuries and swelling. She made incredible and super fast progress, but had a seizure and stroke on July 5th and lapsed into a coma overnight, and somewhere along the way, she became brain dead. She had just turned 24 on June 23rd and we had been visiting her family in MN for the first time together June 20th-26th. She never got her Bachelor's degree, we never married (although we felt like we were), we didn't have kids, and we never really did any of the travelling we wanted to do together. Her life was far too short. With that said, go to the bathroom now, get a cup of coffee or tea, and settle in, because this is a long one:

Dear Kris, Kristopher, baybee, baybehcakes, lover, friend, partner, future wife and mother of my children, and so many other names and titles I called you....

You were the one. You were the one who could make me smile and could make me cry. You were the one whose inner demons could push me away and the one whose arms were stretched wide to hold me when my own demons were taunting me. You were the one who ran to me that first time we saw each other in person and held me as I weeped in your arms after six months of waiting for your embrace. You were the one who held my hand after and said, "Definitely a perfect fit." You were the one I'd talk to for hours about religion and families and marriage and hopes and dreams and values, and you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, despite the fact that towards the end of our relationship, there were times when you lost control to your demons and made me want to kill myself.

There is no perfect way to write this, so I will write things as they come, and hope that it does you justice.

You had me from the moment you defended me that night in the chat room when my world was crashing down on me and I needed to vent and no one wanted to listen to my "drama." You had me from the moment you sent me a private message to make sure I was okay. You had me from the moment I began to spill everything to you, and from the moment you decided you wanted nothing else to be with me.

You scared me. You scared me when you said you weren't sure if you could continue waiting for me to be your girlfriend, and you scared me when you told me you were with someone else. You scared me when I realized I loved you, and you scared me when you got down on one knee during your visit out here. Its funny how with you here, I was so scared, and now that you're gone, its just worse.

You were always there for me. When I couldn't call a friend, when my parents' relationship seemed to be falling apart, when I was being sucked into that dark space that I tried so hard not to be in, you were there for me to wake up in the middle of the night and cry to and have hold me and tell me that everything would be okay. Even now, I wish that you could hold me in the middle of the night and tell me that everything will be okay. I like to think that you do that while I'm sleeping, and I just don't know about it.

I love that you had so much love to give, and I wish you could have seen that therapist so we would have had more than just a glimmer of what we had lost for so long. Your love was contagious, and I didn't want to tell anyone about your struggles and ours because I wanted them to love you as much as I did, without seeing the ugly side of things. You loved everyone and everything, and even if it wasn't for you, you had so much love that you respected those disagreements and variations.

Your favorite color was rainbow, and when I made you pick one color, it was sky blue. You loved dragons; they were your protectors. You loved frogs, too, and pointed to all of the tiny speckled ones at the Zoo in Minnesota. You lived for video games. They were your escape. And you loved learning how to cook new things. I remember that time you made that mango cilantro dish with the cous cous... I was so proud of you!

I list all of these things that you loved because they were parts of you that I grew to love deeper and stronger with each passing day. I loved that you didn't judge anyone and that you were so open-minded and supportive. I loved that your small family meant everything to you, and you would defend every single one of their actions and forgive them for any wrong doings. I loved that your friends were your extended family, and that you made a community wherever you went: church, online school, my school... you're such a hobo, Kris, ha ha!

I don't know what else to say in this letter except for the fact that I truly believed you were the one and that we would someday get back what we were missing in our relationship and I hate that we only had it for those 3 days before you were hit. I hate that you were so out of it at the hospital and I wish you had come back home to me and let me take care of you. I was willing to marry you right then and there as you lay in your gown with the bruises covering your face and your head still slightly swollen. I was willing to forgive you for all the fights and the yelling and the mood swings and the sleepless nights and everything if you just got better and came back home. But you never got to have that dinner I made you. I never got to see your face as you walked through our apartment door to find the table set with the new tablecloth and placemats and the candles and wine. My eyes are tearing up and stinging as I type this now, but its true.

You were my everything, Kris. You were my go-to person and my motivator and my encouragement and you told me I was beautiful and that you loved me and you would tell me all of the things that you loved about me over and over. And I am so sorry for all of the fighting and for making you feel like you meant nothing to me at times and for cheating on you in OUR home. I was so stupid and so selfish and I hope that you know that it was because I was hurting so badly inside because you had denied me parts of our relationship that I craved and longed to have again.

No one will ever truly know what I went through to keep you; what I tolerated to have you as mine. I took you back so many times when you had truly hurt me and I did it because I loved you and I really thought that you would change, even though every time I saw you begin to change, you'd let your inner demons get the best of you.

I AM thankful for the fact that I got to see that true love every time I walked into that hospital room to visit you. (Even though you were in 3 different rooms during your stay there) I felt so relieved for you to recognize me as your baby and for you to make those smoochy lips and kiss me and tell me you love me and to be there for you and feed you and sing to you, even if I had to stop because I couldn't hold back my tears.

I'll never forget sitting at your bedside the night that you passed. And I'll never forget telling you that it was okay to let me go.... I know it must've not been easy for you. I love you so much for your strength, and I'm so glad that I got to see how much of a fighter you were that week you were at the hospital. I will never regret sitting next to you when the doctor said that you were brain dead. And I'll never regret being able to say goodbye to you that day before you were taken to have your organs harvested and etc.

I wish that more people had come to your memorial service. And I wish that my share of your ashes were in the ground. I wish that you had had an obituary and so much more than you did. But I know that you were there in the church that day of your service, and I know you appreciated everything. I bet you really loved those flowers, huh? Do I know you or what, babe? Hee hee.

I just hope that you give me the strength to move on and get out of this house and get a job and a license and car and go back to school and find someone else and travel and get married and have babies and all of those dreams that I shared with you. I hope that you wait for me to join you before you enter your new life, as I know you believed in reincarnation. I want you to hold me one last time, even if I find someone else.

I love you more than these words could ever truly express, and you will always have a space in my heart that no one else could ever fill. You were my first true love, baybehcakes. Don't EVER forget that.

Much Love,
Your Babygirl

[Bootsandheels]

BUMP!!!!
Thank you Star fire..couldn't help but bump this up and bring this thread back to life!
A Thanksgiving reminder....WE LOVE YOU ALL!!!! (I"ll be back to add a little thought or two of my own...


Originally Posted by StarFire

I did not mean to embarrass you. All of the butches I have met here, so far, are wonderful, adorable, kind and gentle people. I appreciate all of you. I, too, had great love in the past and I know I will again one day. It's just in my nature to know love exists and can be created and passed on.


To all of the butches, trans and FtM's on BF,

You are all beautifully made and wonderful creatures. You possess brilliant souls and beautiful hearts. In your eyes we femmes see how precious and genuine you are. Please, only ever be yourselves. It isn't up to anyone else to change you into someone better. Be your best self. We ask the same of you concerning us. Allow yourselves to love, be loved and be peace. Take the fears you have of being not enough, not measuring up, not being successful or unable and throw that away for the Universe to return to you as the opposite.

We love who you are. We love your energy, your strengths and your weaknesses. We love you exactly the way you are. We are here for you when you need us. We will give you love, care, support and yes, should someone else hurt you protection as only we can . We do not expect you to be something or someone you are not.

We want you to feel confident, loved, wanted and needed because we love you, not loved because we need you. We want you to know you are the important part of our adult lives and yes, we can share you with your family, friends and children. We want you to pursue your personal interests and we will as well. In the middle we will meet and join together for joint interests and share our individual interests if you wish. And vice versa.

We want you to take the time necessary to recharge your emotional batteries just as we need to do so as well. We want you to know when we come back together after being apart for minutes, hours, days or weeks there was no one else we wanted to see more than you. No one we wanted to share our romantic intimate selves with other than you. We want you to know when we part for however long we will return to you.

Yes, we will have hard times as well as good times. We will both work on our couples issues and our personal issues. We will speak to you in truth that is kind, true and necessary. We know you will do the same for us. We will share of ourselves, our time and our resources in an unselfish manner. We know you will also. We will support your dreams, goals and wishes because we know you give that in return.

We adore you for the bliss we find when with you. We thank the Universe for making you, exactly and perfectly you. We love you and respect your emotional, physical and sexual boundaries as you extend that to us, too. We respect you period for you give that back. We honor you and we know you return that. We have an understanding of each other that none other could ever begin to comprehend, a language all our own and yes, the dance. Always this dance.

As we grow in our love, respect and mutual adoration we will know more of the same. As we move forward on our journey, knowing one day we will part due to death, we will and do know we had the greatest love of our lives. Should one of us depart much sooner than expected, we want the one left living to do just that, live. Find another love and know we want this for you.

We want your happiness and well being for you. This includes loving another and she loving you as we did once. When you love and I mean truly love, you can and should seek it out again. It is not something to fear. Those of us who have known great love, do seek it out and not fear it. We know deep within it exists and will again. It is not you did not respect our memory or our love nor will we ever be forgotten. We simply know it is what you would want for us as well, happy, alive and free as we were when we were with you.

Thank you for simply being.
I decided to repost this post of mine to all of the Butches, FtM's and Trans Butches. Afterall, we all need reminders of how wonderful we are!

Star

[AngelDreamer]

Hi…

I’m especially missing you today. It seems like everywhere I look, all I see are couples. Holding hands, hugging, kissing, gazing lovingly into each other’s eyes. And I’m alone; trying not to watch because seeing them just emphasizes the loneliness I feel.

I guess I’m kind of old-fashioned. I like playing board games, going for moonlit walks, cuddling by the fire, lying in a sunny meadow watching butterflies dance. Surely there must be someone else who enjoys spending quiet time that way.

Of course, not all my time is quiet; I can get pretty rowdy, too. But it’s the quiet I’m feeling right now, and I want you to share it with me…. Too bad I don’t know you yet, or we haven’t recognized each other so far.

There are so many things I want to share with you, and I want to learn all about you – what things touch you, make you happy, sad, frightened, angry – the sounds you make as you sleep – what you like for breakfast – how you tie your shoes – the scent of your shampoo. I try to be patient because I believe things happen at the appropriate times, but waiting is difficult. I see minutes marching past, and weeks, and years…

And I live life without you.

But all the time I’m eagerly anticipating your arrival.

[stoneyprincess]

My Dearest Sweetest Most Lovable Papa Bear,

I love you so very much with all that I am and all that I have. You absolutely ground me in every way possible. You make every day with you the best day that can be. I am so fortunate to have been able to have you as a part of my life. You melt my heart daily with your kind and lovable words. You absolutely complete my world in every way possible. When I think that the world has dropped the largest load of shit upon my life all I ever need in to see your face and to have your arms wrapped around me and it makes everything better. I don't know that I can ever express to you how fortunate I am to have you and your heart. You make me feel as though I am truly the most amazing person in the world and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart because you are definitely the most amazing person in the world to me. I know after almost 9 years people may wonder how we keep it going and all I know to say is that it is truly because I have finally met my match in every way possible. I knew it from the first time I saw you to the first time I kissed you and felt my heart melt that I was and would forever be completely without a doubt yours forever and always. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me your love and being my Papa Bear.
I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together
~ Your Princess ~

[take5]

To the most outgoing Butch and Trans I know: you have allowed my heart to grow.when we are out in about
in town I feel honored to have you around.

[brzy]

Baby,
You looked so good last night. You looked so festive in your crisp white dress shirt and Santa tie. You had just the right amount of Drakkar on. You know how I can't take too much of any sent without getting a headache. Complimenting me on my outfit was so sweet. Yes..I know you don't want anyone to know that you're sweet. Too late though..I brag to everyone! How can I not? You spoil me and I want people to know how lucky I am. You compliment me and hold the door open for me. You guide me by placing your hand in the small of my back. Your touches are so tender. Your kisses make me melt. I'm so grateful to have you in my life.
Me

[deathbypoem]

To my best friend Aiden (O'queery)


To the one who saved my heart
from ripping into shreds
when the winter was frigid
and my soul was burning with
hope.

Thank you for
being the ground I tread on
the wall that held me up
when no one else
believed they could.

Thank you for
being the glue that
kept my words intact
and the pen
when I wasn't able
to write at all.

Thank you for
being the rock that
sat beside me and spoke
through strength and
silence when everything
was nothing.

Thank you for
being my paper
when the notebook
refused to hold my
thoughts, and
no one else wanted to hear
them.

Thank you for
being my light and
showing me what
it truly feels like to feel
with no regrets.

Thank you for
being the fountain
of flowing life
and never giving
up on who I have
always been.

Thank you for
being the better part of me
and for knowing exactly
who I am inside
without me ever
explaining it to you.

Thank you for
being the shoulder
that I stand on
when no one
will fucking listen
to my screaming
voice.

Thank you
for
your
unconditional
love
and
for every
December that follows. <3



Your bff --Kane

[take5]

I am a very poetic person and,I just wanted to say that what you just wrote
was awesome. Have a Happy Holiday and thanks for sharing it.

[deathbypoem]

i am so grateful for you saying that, I have no idea who you are but, I admire those that have a liking for poetry. I am a writer and its just a huge passion of mine. Thank you for taking the time to indulge in that piece of my world. Merry Christmas to you !!!!!! xx

[Bootsandheels]

To my best friend Aiden (O'queery)


To the one who saved my heart
from ripping into shreds
when the winter was frigid
and my soul was burning with
hope.

Thank you for
being the ground I tread on
the wall that held me up
when no one else
believed they could.

Thank you for
being the glue that
kept my words intact
and the pen
when I wasn't able
to write at all.

Thank you for
being the rock that
sat beside me and spoke
through strength and
silence when everything
was nothing.

Thank you for
being my paper
when the notebook
refused to hold my
thoughts, and
no one else wanted to hear
them.

Thank you for
being my light and
showing me what
it truly feels like to feel
with no regrets.

Thank you for
being the fountain
of flowing life
and never giving
up on who I have
always been.

Thank you for
being the better part of me
and for knowing exactly
who I am inside
without me ever
explaining it to you.

Thank you for
being the shoulder
that I stand on
when no one
will fucking listen
to my screaming
voice.

Thank you
for
your
unconditional
love
and
for every
December that follows. <3



Your bff --Kane

Absolutely beautiful...thank you...I too have a best friend whom I adore and you have inspired me to write my own rendition to her... Happy Holidays!!!

[Bootsandheels]

I hear your voice and the fun begins...just catching up with you for a brief moment can change my entire day from a bad one to the best. Our laughter still rings in my ears like reindeer bells on a snowy Christmas eve...

Our friendship is one of my favorite things in my stocking this year...
and is a gift beyond measure...

I love and adore you butchybear,

Your Fox

[Stargazer]

My Dearest Sweetest Most Lovable Papa Bear,

I love you so very much with all that I am and all that I have. You absolutely ground me in every way possible. You make every day with you the best day that can be. I am so fortunate to have been able to have you as a part of my life. You melt my heart daily with your kind and lovable words. You absolutely complete my world in every way possible. When I think that the world has dropped the largest load of shit upon my life all I ever need in to see your face and to have your arms wrapped around me and it makes everything better. I don't know that I can ever express to you how fortunate I am to have you and your heart. You make me feel as though I am truly the most amazing person in the world and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart because you are definitely the most amazing person in the world to me. I know after almost 9 years people may wonder how we keep it going and all I know to say is that it is truly because I have finally met my match in every way possible. I knew it from the first time I saw you to the first time I kissed you and felt my heart melt that I was and would forever be completely without a doubt yours forever and always. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me your love and being my Papa Bear.
I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together
~ Your Princess ~

ty princess for letting us all be a witness to your love with Nicky, you two are both great, may you love always be strong and rich with life,
star

[SoulSearcher]

My Dearest Sweetest Most Lovable Papa Bear,

I love you so very much with all that I am and all that I have. You absolutely ground me in every way possible. You make every day with you the best day that can be. I am so fortunate to have been able to have you as a part of my life. You melt my heart daily with your kind and lovable words. You absolutely complete my world in every way possible. When I think that the world has dropped the largest load of shit upon my life all I ever need in to see your face and to have your arms wrapped around me and it makes everything better. I don't know that I can ever express to you how fortunate I am to have you and your heart. You make me feel as though I am truly the most amazing person in the world and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart because you are definitely the most amazing person in the world to me. I know after almost 9 years people may wonder how we keep it going and all I know to say is that it is truly because I have finally met my match in every way possible. I knew it from the first time I saw you to the first time I kissed you and felt my heart melt that I was and would forever be completely without a doubt yours forever and always. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me your love and being my Papa Bear.
I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together

~ Your Princess ~

Let me start by saying that the two of you are two of the nicest, sweetest, most wonderful people that I know here on b-f; or anywhere online for that matter. I have seen you both many times in chat and I talk to you both. You two are both so lucky and highly deserving of each other and of the strong, obvious love that you two share/have for each other. As I sit here.. I can only hope that one of these days I will find a love as wonderful and as unique as the love that you two share. You both inspire me and give me hope, not just in your love but in your friendship and kindness as well. I feel honored and blessed to have both of you as friends. Big hugs to you both and I hope that your love last until the end of time; however long that may be.

[Chef Jenn]

I'm not going to name drop.. I know you know this is for you
I had almost given up looking for you... My whole life, I wanted to believe that you were out there... I just didn't know where you were.. And I spent many wasted moments, trying to make futile relationships work, trying to fit the square peg into the round hole... but knowing in my heart it wasn't my other half, my partner in crime my heart.... But, the moment I met you I knew it was different. It just felt right. Familiar. Effortless.. comfortable.. From our very first conversation, we spoke to each other as if we always been together..... finishing each others sentences... understanding what each other had to say, without having to explain.. I want you to know that I cherish every moment I have with you, every conversation, every music review, every silly joke.. and I am so excited about the possibilites for you and I in the future... I want to thank you, for being EXACTLY who you are... simply...wonderful... I can't remember another time in my life when I've smiled as much. Thank you for allowing me to be who I am.. Thank you for awakening parts of me that I had given up on, and Thank you.. so much.. for caring for me. If they ask me how long we've known each other, I will simply say "Forever" I just hadn't met you yet.. I miss you.

[triquetra]

Awww, I wanna try! OK here goes--

My daddy,

If words were kisses, I'd slobber you with them....wait...let me try this again...

Daddy,

You are so cute, I wanna hug and squeeze you...no? Okay--how 'bout this?



Mi amor,

Sabes que en mida vida solo eres tu, solo tu...en ti conosco lo que es ser la mujer, madre y esposa que toda mi vida eh anhelado....por ti, tengo amor verdadero, puro, suave, lindo, hermoso y real. Me has puesto en un plan de ser tuya, toda tuya, para toda nuestra vida, que cada dia al despertar, habrir los ojos, saber que tu estas alli, compartiendo mi cama, mi dia, mi vida y mi amor, sin temer nada, porque cada dia enfrento las cosas junto contigo... Traigo tu amor profundamente clavado en mi alma....y ruego a Dios que nunca te vayas de mi lado, querido...por que sin ti morira lo que soy, lo que fui contigo, lo que sere...te necesito como aire, como sangre, como agua, como una adiccion, eres mi droga, eres lo mas de mi...

Eres todo para mi, y te amo...

Para siempre hasta el fin--

Shuggita

Something about that spanish/latin sound when whispered or spoken softly that really makes me...smile.

Shuggita,

Con el mayor de los respetos, y la mejor de las envidias. Al leer tu carta lo unico que logre pensar fue: Lastima que seas ajena.

En cuanto a esos susurros en espanol, una amiga una vez me dijo lo siguiente: " I love you" en Ingles. " Ti amo" en Italiano, y lo mucho que te quiero, te lo digo en Castellano".


Buenas noches y perdon si te he ofendido.

[O'queery]

To my best friend Aiden (O'queery)


To the one who saved my heart
from ripping into shreds
when the winter was frigid
and my soul was burning with
hope.

Thank you for
being the ground I tread on
the wall that held me up
when no one else
believed they could.

Thank you for
being the glue that
kept my words intact
and the pen
when I wasn't able
to write at all.

Thank you for
being the rock that
sat beside me and spoke
through strength and
silence when everything
was nothing.

Thank you for
being my paper
when the notebook
refused to hold my
thoughts, and
no one else wanted to hear
them.

Thank you for
being my light and
showing me what
it truly feels like to feel
with no regrets.

Thank you for
being the fountain
of flowing life
and never giving
up on who I have
always been.

Thank you for
being the better part of me
and for knowing exactly
who I am inside
without me ever
explaining it to you.

Thank you for
being the shoulder
that I stand on
when no one
will fucking listen
to my screaming
voice.

Thank you
for
your
unconditional
love
and
for every
December that follows. <3



Your bff --Kane

Your unfettered ability to humble me is profound..the heart is an amazing place to unearth gifts that have no value but the beat. Thank you kane.....your bff aiden

[sundance2mybutch]

I hear your voice and the fun begins...just catching up with you for a brief moment can change my entire day from a bad one to the best. Our laughter still rings in my ears like reindeer bells on a snowy Christmas eve...

Our friendship is one of my favorite things in my stocking this year...
and is a gift beyond measure...

I love and adore you butchybear,

Your Fox

awww ditto fox ditto i love the laughs and times we've had together! 2many more and then some! big love hun!

[SoulSearcher]

awww ditto fox ditto i love the laughs and times we've had together! 2many more and then some! big love hun!

Hey now, where are all of my laughs and good times you two? lol just giving you a hard time. It really is great to see such a wonderful friendship though. That kind of friendship is often hard to find. Hugs to you both.

[Stargazer]

Dearest Sugah Bear
If I was given only 1 word to describe the past 6 weeks together
it would be, magical. I have never laughed so hard, or smiled
so much or had such a great time in my life. You awoke in me
a spirit that I thought had long closed off to the possibilities
of love and not only showed me it was possible but proved it
every day. What started as a 3 hour tour has turned into a life
that I look forward to sharing with you long into the future. I feel
as if you have known me all my life and yet saying good bye to you
for even a day is going to be hard. I know we will make it through
the coming days and weeks and months but If I could have one wish tonight
I would wish them to not have to exist so that we wouldn't have to miss
one minute together..

I love you, You are always in my heart and mind

Your babygirl

i cant wait to be in your arms.

[O'queery]

my dearest kane,

i sit at your feet and acknowledge the power
of our friendship and unconditional everything.
when my world was crumbling it was you who grabbed
the plaster and paints and forced me to accept the beauty
of myself while helping in renovating my spirit.

The hours and hours of exchanged heartbreaks,
the solemn delicacy of how
you held my pinkie and swore
to never leave me wondering has saved me again
and again
and again.

Your determination and honesty in ALL
things have shifted me into a better person,
opened eyes that were sewn shut with rage and
hatred against my own self.

You make me high.. your understanding of not just who
people perceive i am but what truly
lays naked beneath this surface...

You have combed over layer after layer,
validating me, encouraging me, and calling bullshit
to help me grow taller than these dead trees in a forest that
tried to swallow my heart.

You found in me what i could never see
And for this..i am eternally grateful.
You, my closest and dearest friend,
make me want to be better than i already am.

I fucking heart you beyond measure.

<3 Aiden

[SoulSearcher]

my dearest kane,

i sit at your feet and acknowledge the power
of our friendship and unconditional everything.
when my world was crumbling it was you who grabbed
the plaster and paints and forced me to accept the beauty
of myself while helping in renovating my spirit.

The hours and hours of exchanged heartbreaks,
the solemn delicacy of how
you held my pinkie and swore
to never leave me wondering has saved me again
and again
and again.

Your determination and honesty in ALL
things have shifted me into a better person,
opened eyes that were sewn shut with rage and
hatred against my own self.

You make me high.. your understanding of not just who
people perceive i am but what truly
lays naked beneath this surface...

You have combed over layer after layer,
validating me, encouraging me, and calling bullshit
to help me grow taller than these dead trees in a forest that
tried to swallow my heart.

You found in me what i could never see
And for this..i am eternally grateful.
You, my closest and dearest friend,
make me want to be better than i already am.

I fucking heart you beyond measure.

<3 Aiden

I am just an onlooker, a reader, but even I, a writer myself, is totally speechless over this wonderful, blatantly honest, and heartfelt writing. You are both lucky and are both wonderful people. Hugs to you both.

[deathbypoem]

Aiden,

Not often is it that I trust anyone.
Not often is it that I can live my life without explanation.
Not often is it that I keep people close
because the human race disgusts me.


I live in the filth only you can understand.
I thrive in my hours because im driven
with the freedom to be myself.
I listen close, to things unsaid
because in our silence
is where it matters most.

Clearly, I keep you close to my heart.
And I believe we were meant to be friends
(like Ive said before)
to help each other along the way in life.

Where would I be with myself
had I not the strength to keep going
when my world was breaking down
and I was internally bleeding.

When my closest relative
attempted to end her life.

Who walked me through the
techniques of breathing
when my voice was shaking
and my hands were so
fucking unable to write
ANYTHING. at all.

I appreciate YOUR
strength in MY darkest
hours.
The late night ramblings
of verbal porridge
that only you and i
could master.
The words we spin
on unawakened
earth, and the moments
where we did have
composure.

In the time spent
through just writing
with you alone,
I have learned so much
about who I truly am.
Who I was and
what fears I needed
to conquer.

It is a sweet release.
The dripping nectar
inside a screaming
poetic slap.

Which brought me
home within myself,
many, many times.

Even though
you and I
have never physically
shared a moment.

we have already met.

Through breathing.
and im content
with that.

Thank you for
respecting me
as a person,
individual
and friend.

Thank you
for never hurting
or crossing the line
in an attempt
to damage me.

Thank you for
being Aiden.

Thats who you are.
smile because
you know it.


<3 kane