Physical Disability & Self-Esteem: Life As It Is Now, Coming To Terms, Rising Above

**Jules** · 07-10-2007, 08:39 PM

Woodie, several years ago I had what is called "ventricular tachycardia" which was a racing of my heart, up to 200 bpm. This was relieved in ER several times before I had have an ablation, where they went in a lasered a nerve pathway on the outside of my heart.
I'm not trying to diagnose you by any means, but was wondering if they had considered this?
The ablation itself took a lot of time...seems like it was 4 hours, you're kept in a "twilight" sleep during, so don't feel anything. They ran the laser up through the arteries in my groin. My problem was I kept snoring lol, and they did wake me as he lasered the nerve, but them put me back under quickly, so its not really painful. I've not had any experiences since of rapid heart beat.

Good luck to you and hope your depression lifts. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-10-2007, 08:52 PM

Originally Posted by Woodie69

Hi Everyone,
This is just a quick post. I am not feeling too well still. I am going tomorrow to the cardiologist to get a Holter Monitor to wear for my heart for 24 hours to see what is going on. My heart rate is still at 171 bpm. My blood pressure is extremely low, which is confusing the cardiologist. My blood work came back with normal results. So she is going to see what happens with the Holter Monitor this week, and next week I will be wearing a blood pressure cuff for 24 hours to see what happens with that.

Hi, Andrew. Be careful with that blood pressure cuff and make sure they tell you how to get out of it quickly. I have bouts with low blood pressure, and the automated cuffs don't seem to cope well with it. I got a nasty radial bruise before I realized the automated cuffs are not smart enough to stop trying over and over-- squeezing tighter and tighter-- when they can't detect a low PB.

That depression monkey is sneaking into everybody's house it seems. Nasty little thing...

Blessings,
Peregrine

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-10-2007, 08:55 PM

Hi, Jules. Good news about the nausea drug. I hope it works as well at giving you the munchies as smoking the stuff does.

Peregrine

**Jules** · 07-10-2007, 09:10 PM

my thoughts exactly Peregrine, and besides, taking it in pill form is sooo much better on my lungs! Now if I could just quit the smokes, I'd almost be vice free, I can't drink anymore....and sometimes I do miss my martinis

and the little bit of Baileys I used to put in my coffee. All in all being alcohol free isn't such a bad thing. The only drawback I've found so far is having to deal with my drunken friends

but then I think....that used to be me!

I've been banished to the basement by the "mother -in-law. Everything I tried to do this evening to help she's said, "no, no, just let me do it" so I've given up for tonight. Tomorrow after a visit to the dentist to get a crown replaced, I'm going to paint the wood trim out of the guest room. Hopefully I will be able to do that with out "supervision" but so far, any task I've undertaken has been critisized, or she's behind me with a brush going over what I just did. *sigh* makes me wonder if moving back to Wichita is such a good idea. I mean, I have family there too, but not much and we're really not all that close. Oh well, time will tell.....Then again, I did like how her family treats me like family, and I guess this is the way they all get treated, so perhaps I should do some adjusting as well. Hopefully she will be able to adjust to my shortcomings because of my "illness" because that will never change. Hopefully, as I gain weight I will also gain some energy and more stamina.
As it is now, they are worried about my heart because apparently since I have no fat to live off of, I'm now eating away at muscle.

OK, I'm done whining. Peregrine, does this mean you've had experience with this drug I'm about to take? I read up on it and it says it's a synthetic THC, one of the main components of weed. If so, maybe after starting it, I won't care what the "mother-in-law" has to say

I'm having to wait going to bed because she's got some project going on up there....lol...trying some new product that's supposed to remove wall paper easily. So I'll stay down here in my sanctuary until its safe.

Thanks for listening to me rant if you made it this far...sorry for the length, but hey, it's gotta go somewhere, right?

Have a good night everone, may tomorrow find everybody feeling better....

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-10-2007, 09:41 PM

Originally Posted by Jules

Then again, I did like how her family treats me like family, and I guess this is the way they all get treated, so perhaps I should do some adjusting as well. Hopefully she will be able to adjust to my shortcomings because of my "illness" because that will never change. Hopefully, as I gain weight I will also gain some energy and more stamina.

Being treated like family is both good and bad.

How does your SE deal with her mother? Does anyone speak to M-I-L directly about the hovering thing? My own mom analyzes everyone and everything, and then tends to say things out loud she should only think, which can take some getting used to. She's a good woman, though, even if she doesn't have much of a self censor. At least you know what she's thinking. I actually appreciate that.

It was so nice to have my folks here. I miss them.

Peregrine, does this mean you've had experience with this drug I'm about to take? I read up on it and it says it's a synthetic THC, one of the main components of weed. If so, maybe after starting it, I won't care what the "mother-in-law" has to say

I haven't used marinol, but know several other cancer patients who have. Unfortunately I don't think it'll help with your mother-in-law. You'd have to smoke for that, or maybe make brownies. And perhaps offer her some. My understanding is that marinol really just works on nausea. But now that you've got me thinking about it, maybe if I have to keep taking this femara stuff I'll ask if I can have marinol, too.

And some pain killers.

Blessings...
Susan

**hellboi** · 07-10-2007, 09:59 PM

Ya know, Jules, yer mother-in-law is just fussin over ya cuz she's worried bout ya *I know ya know that*...mine's a lot like that as well...but when she starts fussin over me..and hollerin at my wife ta do the same...I just get all cantankerous...LOL...and tell her I can manage just fine on my own...and procede to get in the way and make a big ol mess anyways *mostly to be annoying LOL* My wife gets all frustrated at her mother, after awhile,...and tells her things like "look..he's still got two good arms and one good leg..and he's not going to listen to me tell him anything...you can see how he is, and you know that he's stubborn...just go on and let him kill himself if he's determined to do so...there's no stopping him anyway." ROFLMAOOOOO

**curley** · 07-10-2007, 10:09 PM

So we have a heat wave here I;m drinking lots of water and staying in as much as possible with my A/C and fans on I'm still having problems, namely with fatique and being stunned any other ideas that people might have in terms of functioning with the heat?

**lionandlamb** · 07-10-2007, 10:32 PM

Hye everyone....I found this thread and I thought it might be something fun to piggyback off of Shy's smiley mail (Maybe a kind of tribute to her??) This couple are temporarily moving apart and the femme is asking people to send a postcard to her partner with a scripted phrase. Anyway, check it out, and if you can, please send a postcard!

http://www.butch-femme.com/portal/fo...00#post2475800

You guys are awesome!!

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-10-2007, 10:45 PM

Originally Posted by Jules

Peregrine, glad to hear you survived the "invasion of the parents." That's something I'm dealing with right now. Diana's parents are here for 3 weeks to help us get the house in order to sell. Needless to say, I think her mom would be happy if she left me behind when we're ready to move back home. I've had some really rough days where I was unable to do hardly anything. The days that I can do stuff (paint, do the trim, help with the garage sale) its been difficult for me to get enough momentum to stay on task longer than a couple of hours and I need to rest. She's already let me know in a round about way that I've been pretty useless through this whole process. Needless to say, that doesn't help my depression or self esteem at all, since I'm already beating myself up for my lack of "usefullness."

I'm glad you had a good visit with the "P's" and now its time for you to take a well deserved rest, which I'm hoping you do.

On another note, my doctor prescribed a new drug for me today, its supposed to help with nausea and also help my appetite so I will be able to eat more. I'm wondering if anyone has any expereince with Marinol.

Well, I think I hear the car, so means I'd better get off my "lazy ass" and be ready for more orders on what to do next.

Hope everything is good with everyone.

Hey Jules,

Yes, I used to know someone with AIDS who was prescribed Marinol. Honestly? He said it didn't work. He ended up ah, using Mother Nature if you know what I mean. That DID work, and it works for a lot of people with cancer and MS, too. Just sayin'.

I like your "lazy ass". I have one myself. I think a lot of us who are sick do. It's called, "Hey we aren't healthy and can't work for hours anymore." I wish people who make folks who are sick feel like that would get a ....(bad word censored) clue. Please reference my post title. Don't let them get you down, sweetie. You know the deal and they don't. Sorry they don't get it, that's their fault. All my best to Diana, Queen Ethel and Pebs the Precious.

Hugs,
SFK

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-10-2007, 10:50 PM

Hey Good Peoples,

I am way behind on the posts and once my PTSD calms down a bit I will get caught up, hopefully tomorrow evening. It has been very bad today; I woke up triggered and just got up from a nap where I probably woke up ten times in five hours so I am worn out. Just wanted to let all y'all know I was thinking of you.

Best,
SFK

**Jules** · 07-10-2007, 11:04 PM

.....everyone for the support. I don't know if she really does realize my capabilities at this point. I know its hard when you're working so hard and then there's the one that has to keep taking breaks, or lay down, or sit down for a bit to recharge. Well, Diana starts a new job next week and they are leaving on Tuesday, so hopefully things will settle down and we can get the rest of everything in order.

I cruised the neighborhood yesterday and there's lots and lots of homes for sale. The market being what it is right now, I don't look for us to getting ours sold anytime soon. Actually, with all the painting and rehab we're doing, we both said we hate to move now...lol. but in the long run I think we'll both be better at "home" since that's where we grew up. There's really not a lot keeping us here anymore. It would be a different story if I was still working.

SFK, I do hope you're doing better tomorrow, I've missed you the last few days and sorry to hear you haven't been doing so hot. Here's some energy and thoughts going your way for a better tomorrow.

**sapho32** · 07-11-2007, 08:09 AM

Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat

Hey Good Peoples,

I am way behind on the posts and once my PTSD calms down a bit I will get caught up, hopefully tomorrow evening. It has been very bad today; I woke up triggered and just got up from a nap where I probably woke up ten times in five hours so I am worn out. Just wanted to let all y'all know I was thinking of you.

Best,
SFK

Hey sweetie,

I'm sorry you are feeling poorly today. I'm sure you have tons of coping skills that help you through those kinds of days. Sometimes they are hard to use, though, when we feel so triggered. I hope things look up soon, hon. I'm thinking of you.

Love,
sapho

**sapho32** · 07-11-2007, 08:19 AM

I want to thank everyone for your incredible support regarding my sweet kitty Sam. Last week was very hard for me, and I needed the support. I got so many kind messages and prayers for my baby girl, it made me cry (in a good way). Your support meant a lot to me and helped me get through the week. Thank you for your friendship and compassion.

You guys and gals are the best.

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-11-2007, 10:42 AM

Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat

He ended up ah, using Mother Nature if you know what I mean. That DID work, and it works for a lot of people with cancer and MS, too. Just sayin'.

Yup. Everybody says the real deal does work more consistently. I'd go for it myself if it didn't make me crazy paranoid. (Now why would anyone who lives under a government that refuses a uniquely useful drug to sick person because of historical agreements with the alcohol industry be paranoid?)

I hope you're OK. I always wonder what's up when when you don't post. I don't mean to pressure you, I'm just saying I do wonder.

Love and good drugs,
Peregrine

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-11-2007, 10:46 AM

Originally Posted by sapho32

Your support meant a lot to me and helped me get through the week. Thank you for your friendship and compassion.

Peregrine

**Jules** · 07-11-2007, 12:13 PM

Ok, marking time. Just took a Marinol 5 minutes ago, I figure in at least 20 minutes I should see if its going to help at all, make me stoned, stupid, clumsy...oh wait, I'm like that most of the time....so we'll see. I told the MIL to give me a bit of time before sending me upstairs for my next project....painting primer over the paint in the spare room....yea!!!!

Just a side note...does anyone realize how hard it is to find someone to mix paint at Walmart? Just sayin......

**Jules** · 07-11-2007, 12:15 PM

Ok, marking time. Just took a Marinol 5 minutes ago, I figure in at least 20 minutes I should see if its going to help at all, make me stoned, stupid, clumsy...oh wait, I'm like that most of the time....so we'll see. I told the MIL to give me a bit of time before sending me upstairs for my next project....painting primer over the paint in the spare room....yea!!!!

Just a side note...does anyone realize how hard it is to find someone to mix paint at Walmart? Just sayin......

oops sorry for the double post!

**Woodie69** · 07-11-2007, 02:35 PM

Hi All,

This is another quicky post.

I am all hooked up with the Holter Monitor. I have more wires on my chest than the phone company has buried in my front yard!

I cannot figure out what to do with the small control box. It is bigger than a pager, and it won't stay clipped on my pants for some reason. I am now putting it between my pants and shirt and sincing my belt up really tight. The wires are not long enough to reach my pocket. It is just so very uncomfortable, and I have no clue as to how I am going to sleep with this tonight. If anyone has any suggestions, I sure could use them now. My heart rate this morning was at 180 bpm. Everything else was severely low as usual.

Anyway, next week is the blood pressure cuff. I am dreading this one. I have a feeling I will be bruised after a few minutes wearing it.

Drink lots of water, stay out of the heat if you can. It is really nasty here in MD. I think we were well up over 100* today including the humidity. I know my a/c is running full force.

Take care. God bless.

Love and peace,
Andrew

**sapho32** · 07-12-2007, 07:51 AM

Hi Andrew, I wear a medical device 24/7, and it can be tricky. The key is to have a clip. If there's no clip, I have to put mine in a pocket or occasionally a bra. I'm sure the bra thing wouldn't work for you!! If the tubing/cords are long enough, you can actually put it in your sock. It can be bulky, though.

Sometimes, my insulin pump falls off the waist of my pants and it can be frustrating. What works sometimes is to fold over the waist of the pants so the clip has more to hold onto. Or what usually works for me is to put on a good belt and clip the pump to that. For some reason, leather seems to work the best - probably because it's stiff.

I don't know if any of this is helpful...if you have more questions just PM me. I'll check messages this evening.

Happy day!
sapho

**BlueMoonWolf** · 07-12-2007, 02:46 PM

yeah what sapho said! lol and for sleeping, and i am just guessing here but sleepin nekked doesn't help matters... the best guess i have is some medical tape and tape that sucker on

**ArchAngel Gabriel** · 07-12-2007, 04:02 PM

the dentist is gonna adjust my teeth so maybe i can wear the suckers now and then

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-12-2007, 04:21 PM

Originally Posted by Peregrine Magic

Yup. Everybody says the real deal does work more consistently. I'd go for it myself if it didn't make me crazy paranoid. (Now why would anyone who lives under a government that refuses a uniquely useful drug to sick person because of historical agreements with the alcohol industry be paranoid?)

I hope you're OK. I always wonder what's up when when you don't post. I don't mean to pressure you, I'm just saying I do wonder.

Love and good drugs,
Peregrine

I found out through online research that someone from my past who was bascially like my grandmother died. I didn't keep in touch with her because of some very bad stuff that happened with her son. I wanted to kick his ass all over again. It's a long depressing traumatic story.

Doing better now. I cried and slept on and off pretty much all day yesterday. It's always rough when you come head to head with one of the boogey men of your past. Ball is out of my court now. "We shall see, said the blind man", etc.

Here's to good friends and medication that actually works. Wow, what a novel concept.

Love and butches and friends, oh my
SFK

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-12-2007, 04:23 PM

Originally Posted by sapho32

I want to thank everyone for your incredible support regarding my sweet kitty Sam. Last week was very hard for me, and I needed the support. I got so many kind messages and prayers for my baby girl, it made me cry (in a good way). Your support meant a lot to me and helped me get through the week. Thank you for your friendship and compassion.

You guys and gals are the best.

I Heart Sapho.

SFK

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-12-2007, 04:27 PM

Originally Posted by Jules

.....everyone for the support. I don't know if she really does realize my capabilities at this point. I know its hard when you're working so hard and then there's the one that has to keep taking breaks, or lay down, or sit down for a bit to recharge. Well, Diana starts a new job next week and they are leaving on Tuesday, so hopefully things will settle down and we can get the rest of everything in order.

I cruised the neighborhood yesterday and there's lots and lots of homes for sale. The market being what it is right now, I don't look for us to getting ours sold anytime soon. Actually, with all the painting and rehab we're doing, we both said we hate to move now...lol. but in the long run I think we'll both be better at "home" since that's where we grew up. There's really not a lot keeping us here anymore. It would be a different story if I was still working.

SFK, I do hope you're doing better tomorrow, I've missed you the last few days and sorry to hear you haven't been doing so hot. Here's some energy and thoughts going your way for a better tomorrow.

Bless your heart, sweetie, right back at you.

So, is it munchie Marinol?

SFK

**Shyfemmekat** · 07-12-2007, 04:30 PM

Originally Posted by Woodie69

Hi All,

This is another quicky post.

I am all hooked up with the Holter Monitor. I have more wires on my chest than the phone company has buried in my front yard!

I cannot figure out what to do with the small control box. It is bigger than a pager, and it won't stay clipped on my pants for some reason. I am now putting it between my pants and shirt and sincing my belt up really tight. The wires are not long enough to reach my pocket. It is just so very uncomfortable, and I have no clue as to how I am going to sleep with this tonight. If anyone has any suggestions, I sure could use them now. My heart rate this morning was at 180 bpm. Everything else was severely low as usual.

Anyway, next week is the blood pressure cuff. I am dreading this one. I have a feeling I will be bruised after a few minutes wearing it.

Drink lots of water, stay out of the heat if you can. It is really nasty here in MD. I think we were well up over 100* today including the humidity. I know my a/c is running full force.

Take care. God bless.

Love and peace,
Andrew

Hope it went okay for you. Tell Rosie I am sorry I missed her call. Maybe we can hook up late tonight, I still have to take my nap and get a shower and do my shot before midnight.

Mucho Hugs,
SFK

**Woodie69** · 07-12-2007, 09:08 PM

SFK,

Rosie is sleeping now. I don't want to wake her up. We have a bit of a health scare going on right now w/her. I will let her explain it to you. It makes no sense to me.

I hope everyone is doing well, and life is good to those who are hurting.

Love and peace,
Andrew

**DAYWALKER** · 07-12-2007, 09:12 PM

Originally Posted by Woodie69

SFK,

Rosie is sleeping now. I don't want to wake her up. We have a bit of a health scare going on right now w/her. I will let her explain it to you. It makes no sense to me.

I hope everyone is doing well, and life is good to those who are hurting.

Love and peace,
Andrew

Woodie,

Please tell your Rosie that we hope she gets better really hella fast.
She is needed to keep you in line...lol!

Shy,

I hope you like your package, it will be there tomorrow via Fed-Ex.
Call me when you get it.

Unkle Day
very tired, and should be knocking out right now.

**sapho32** · 07-12-2007, 09:22 PM

Hi all, just a quick drive by to say good night. I'm about to take my Lunesta (

) and let the sandman take me away for the night.

Quick question, if it's not too much TMI...am I the only person that completely loses their libido when stressed out? I'm dead as a doorknob.

**lionandlamb** · 07-12-2007, 09:50 PM

Sapho,
You are not the only one....I have the same issue, but take multiple meds that I know can drop it to about nothing!!

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-12-2007, 11:49 PM

What libido? When I was a young pagan kid I was fascinated by nuns and thought it would be cool to be one, only some odd pagan version. I saw "Song of Bernadette" seven or eight times.

Turns out it's not that cool, though.

Peregrine.

**hellboi** · 07-13-2007, 01:28 AM

Originally Posted by curley

So we have a heat wave here I;m drinking lots of water and staying in as much as possible with my A/C and fans on I'm still having problems, namely with fatique and being stunned any other ideas that people might have in terms of functioning with the heat?

It may sound kinda weird..but I've found that pedialyte helps...also I drink a small glass of unsweetened apple or grape juice mid-afternoon right after my nap to give me little energy boost.

**sapho32** · 07-13-2007, 08:28 AM

Originally Posted by curley

So we have a heat wave here I;m drinking lots of water and staying in as much as possible with my A/C and fans on I'm still having problems, namely with fatique and being stunned any other ideas that people might have in terms of functioning with the heat?

Hey Curley,
Sorry I missed this post. If you don't have blood sugar issues, definitely drink some gatorade. If you do have blood sugar issues, there is a sugar-free alternative that works great for me. It's called Ultima Replenisher, and it is available in health food stores. It costs slightly more than gatorade.

Another trick I learned while living in Phoenix. Before you go to sleep, take a cold shower and don't dry off. Wet a cotton sheet in cold water and wring it out. Put the sheet over you and place a fan so the air hits the sheet on your body. It doesn't keep you cool all night, but it's usually enough to get to sleep which is often the most difficult part.

Good luck!

**Woodie69** · 07-13-2007, 09:07 AM

Hi Everyone,

I just came across some old papers of mine from a non-profit organization that records print materials and books for those who are disabled. Their disabilies are defined as a visual impairment, blind, learning disabilities, or physically unable to hold a book or turn a page. You have to fill out some sort of paper stating your disability, and I believe it is still free. I know years ago there was a charge for the service for schools and teachers, but have no idea about it now.

Anyway, you can reach them at 29350 Southfield Road, Suite 130, Southfield, MI 48076. The phone number listed is 248-557-7776.

I would almost guarantee that the books would be on cd's vs. casette tapes.

Have a great day!

Love and peace,
Andrew

**Woodie69** · 07-13-2007, 10:10 AM

Just a quick drive by...I came across a website by David Moisan for those who have invisible handicapps/disabilities. He wrote "Aren't ppl with disabilities suppose to have special talents? That's an old, old, old stereotype, intended to sugar-coat the truth." Finally said what I have been trying too for years. Isn't that the truth!

**Holliday** · 07-13-2007, 02:26 PM

Nope, you're not the only one. Depression does the same thing for me, too.

Originally Posted by sapho32

Quick question, if it's not too much TMI...am I the only person that completely loses their libido when stressed out? I'm dead as a doorknob.

Peregrine, I would really like a translation of this. I'm so confused.

Originally Posted by Peregrine Magic

Thanks for this resource, Woodie. My uncle works for the state helping find resources for blind folks. I'm going to send him the info, just in case he hasn't heard of it already.

Originally Posted by Woodie69

Hi Everyone,

I just came across some old papers of mine from a non-profit organization that records print materials and books for those who are disabled.

**OutlawDaddy** · 07-13-2007, 03:28 PM

Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat

Hey Jules,

Yes, I used to know someone with AIDS who was prescribed Marinol. Honestly? He said it didn't work. He ended up ah, using Mother Nature if you know what I mean. That DID work, and it works for a lot of people with cancer and MS, too. Just sayin'.

snip

Hugs,
SFK

Folks interested in trying or "ah, using Mother Nature" may want to research and invest in a Vaporizer, compared to smoking, it's supposed to be better for you, especially for your lungs because you're not ingesting pesticides or other unwanted toxins (including those on blunt/philly (tobacco leaf) wraps.Click this grin for more info:

**femmeladylv** · 07-13-2007, 04:40 PM

Hiyas, newbie to this thread...
My experience with Marinol for chronic pain is not good. The real stuff suposedly works better. I contact the The Nevada Dept. of Agriculture where I live and they will issue a legal Marijuana Card as pot is legal for medical purposes in Nevada. Bad thing is It costs like $500.00 and you have to grow your own. I did the pain med rotation and yeah they HELP but they are addictive and I went off of them. I live in awful pain due to multiple back surgeries and FMG. Sometimes I want to give up. And no one understands this. I try and smile and not make poeple around me, but the smiles feel fake at times. Kinda like the tears of a clown

**Jules** · 07-13-2007, 05:51 PM

And no one understands this. I try and smile and not make poeple around me, but the smiles feel fake at times. Kinda like the tears of a clown

Well, folks on this thread understand. Don't be afraid to come in and "vent." God knows I have.
I am taking the marinol for nausea right now. Doesn't seem to make any difference...only thing works for me is Phenegrine IV. So, as long as I have the PIC I can take that. After the PIC line comes out its either pills or *gasp* suppositories.

Got everything ready for the garage sale, Diana and her mom had a spat, so her mom came in the house and Diana, her dad, and I finished marking stuff, making signs, etc.

Wish us luck that we sell lots and lots of stuff so we have so much to haul to goodwill or the VA!

**Peregrine Magic** · 07-13-2007, 07:13 PM

Peregrine, I would really like a translation of this.
I'm so confused.

Sorry for any confusion, Holliday. I was trying to say why being a nun doesn't turn out to be that much fun:

No hugs.
No kisses.
No... um... tooting your party horn.

Euphemistic, yes, but it's hard to convey sexual bliss in smilies. I'm definitely open to alternate suggestions. Anybody got any?

Peregrine

**Feral_Butch** · 07-13-2007, 07:36 PM

I was reading around this evening and came across this thread. I am a stone butch who is Permanently Physically Disabled with degenerative bone disease. It is aggrivating to not be able to be as active as you would like to be. Women flirt until they find out I live on a pension and then they fade away.
At least I still have fishing and the internet to entertain myself with.
Happy to have found the forum and I look forward to making new friends.
Feral_Butch

www.myspace.com/caughtakeeper