Physical Disability & Self-Esteem: Life As It Is Now, Coming To Terms, Rising Above

[Holliday]

Holy crap! Purse-size canes do exist! Now all I need is a clutch-sized one. Thanks for posting the link, SFK.

Miami, you were the one who suggested a sword-cane--something I'm seriously thinking about. Just remind me not to take it to the airport.

Holliday
xox

PS-I'm glad you got your foot looked at.

As far as retractable canes, I think I saw something of the type in my local medical supply store. I'll ask around. As far as that retractable BAT, they've got retractable BATONS, called asps, but unfortunatly, they either come in basic black or boring steel. SORRY! Then again, it's kind of a relief, don't want you getting arrested for assault! lol : )

[MiamiButch]

If you want a sword cane, let me know, I can get you one, CHEAP! I am not cheap, I'm FRUGAL, dammit! lol

[espresso]

Sorry about this other post BUT....
Shy, your lipbrush is in the MAIL, remember I told you I was sending you that mini makeupbrush thing?? lol

This is hilarious! Great post! BTW please send me a lipbrush too, if you have an extra one on hand - lol!

[MiamiButch]

Expresso, PM me your address, and I'll be happy to send you a mini makeupbrush thingymaeffer. : )

[espresso]

Expresso, PM me your address, and I'll be happy to send you a mini makeupbrush thingymaeffer. : )

MiamiButch you are so funny! I have ton of lipbrushes from working in cosmetics for so many years. Thank you for the offer though! You are too funny!

[guitarboi]

Holliday, I have seen sword canes before no disrespect to Miami but the ones I have seen are lethal. Thing about online I can't tell sometimes if one is joking or not where as in person, I can tell from either tone of voice of facial expression, or both.

I have years of experience with canes as a walking aid and once used in self defense as a preventative. I learned how to use a cane in self defense when I was using a cane full time to walk from a model mugging class. I see no reason to have a hidden blade in a cane. Especially if you don't know how to use a blade (not talking about anyone here) it could be turned onto you.



Respectfully
GB

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[sexmeup]

I have an on the job injury, i popped my right shoulder & hand trying to get a trashcan liner out of a trashcan. The injury happened in 2000, since then i've developed 3 bulging disc in my neck, nerve damage to my right arm, carnal tunnel in both wrist, my right hand swells up, even when i'm not doing anything, and my spinal column is narrowing. I've been off from work since last July, i originally signed up for $1500.00 a month of disability, the disability company took it upon themselves to reduced it to $500.00 a month, who in the hell can live off of 500 a month, i can't, it barely pays my rent let along my bills. The Post Office have been jerking me around, they're trying to fire me, they didn't tell me i had a claim with the Dept. Of Labor, i just found out a few months ago, now i'm fighting for Workmen's Comp., i'm so fucking frustrated that i'm tempted to tell the doctor to put me back to work, it's getting to be too much. I'm trapped in a house with a homophobic mother who don't give a fuck about me, all she want is my money when i get it, she knows when my check comes better than i do. I'm in pain everyday, sometimes it wakes me up, i'm on heavy duty drugs and they really don't work. I've been fighting depression, anger, frustration, if it wasn't for therapy i don't know what would have happened to me, thank god for my counselor!

[Shyfemmekat]

Looks like we have some multiple posting issues, eh?

I have actually done worker's comp followup before so if there is something I can do to help, holler. The main thing is to document like crazy and follow up on a regular basis. I think the DOL stuff used to be handled out of London, KY, and it was always a chore getting through their phone prompts. You could get nothing done swiftly with those people. EVER.

Hang in there.

Hey y'all,

I talked to hellboi last night. He is sounding good. Things are looking up for him and I will keep you updated as I have news.

I finally reached the director of the program that does my muscle relaxer. It turns out I am not the only one in this situation. I couldn't very well feel happy about that, because it means someone else is feeling sore and b@tchy as well. She re-sent the order and was sending a friendly "what the hell" email when I spoke with her this morning. She knows me which is a plus.

Hope all are having a decent evening thus far.

SFK

[espresso]

Sexmeup welcome to this thread! The people here are great, and you'll find lots of support!

[MiamiButch]

I agree with you, GB, if you don't know how to use a sword, much less a swordcane, don't. Since I used to be part of the Italian Rennaisance Historical Society, I was privileged in learning not only how to use a sword, dagger, swordcane, halberd, staff and pike, I'm comfortable around edged as well as pole arm weapons. But if you don't know the point from the pommel, Holliday, my friend, I suggest something more appropriate, like a stun gun. I don't like pepperspray because of the blowback factor.
Now after severely derailing this thread, let me pull it back onto it's tracks... THERE!
Hello everyone! Hope everyone is feeling fine and dandy! I'm cramping with a smile, high on Midol.. Amazing, I can take 800mgs of Tylenol with Codeine, but ONE Midol and I'm as high as a kite! lol I don't feel a thing today, lucky me, except for the occaisional twinges from my lower back.
Shy, I've been meaning to call you, but I've been lazy. I sowwy! Hope you're feeling better. Glad to hear Hellboi's feeling better too. Hope you all have a great week! I'm gonna lay down before I fall out of my chair and fall asleep on the floor. lol

Holliday, I have seen sword canes before no disrespect to Miami but the ones I have seen are lethal. Thing about online I can't tell sometimes if one is joking or not where as in person, I can tell from either tone of voice of facial expression, or both.

I have years of experience with canes as a walking aid and once used in self defense as a preventative. I learned how to use a cane in self defense when I was using a cane full time to walk from a model mugging class. I see no reason to have a hidden blade in a cane. Especially if you don't know how to use a blade (not talking about anyone here) it could be turned onto you.



Respectfully
GB

[guitarboi]

Just to add to the derail for a minute. That's really cool you are Italian Renaissance Historical Society. And yes sounds like you are trained

Stun guns are illegal in Massachusetts:
"Massachusetts State Law. Ann. Laws of Massachusetts. Chapter 140. Sale of Firearms. Section 131J: Sale or possession of electrical weapons; penalties. Section 131J. No person shall sell, offer for sale or possess a portable device or weapon from which an electric current, impulse, wave or beam may be directed, which current, impulse, wave or beam is designed to incapacitate temporarily, injure or kill. Whoever violates this provision of this section shall be punished by a fine of not less than five hundred nor more than one thousand dollars or by imprisonment for not less than six months nor more than two years in a jail or house of correction, or both."

But learning how to defend oneself is not illegal and VERY empowering. I learned after a close friend was brutally raped and murdered. All of our mutual friends learned afterwards.

Here's a link to several courses in the States from IMPACT

To tie this in to our thread, I know IMPACT in Boston taught people with disabilities how to defend themselves. I am sure they still do.

Much respect
GB

I agree with you, GB, if you don't know how to use a sword, much less a swordcane, don't. Since I used to be part of the Italian Rennaisance Historical Society, I was privileged in learning not only how to use a sword, dagger, swordcane, halberd, staff and pike, I'm comfortable around edged as well as pole arm weapons. But if you don't know the point from the pommel, Holliday, my friend, I suggest something more appropriate, like a stun gun. I don't like pepperspray because of the blowback factor.
Now after severely derailing this thread, let me pull it back onto it's tracks... THERE!
Hello everyone! Hope everyone is feeling fine and dandy! I'm cramping with a smile, high on Midol.. Amazing, I can take 800mgs of Tylenol with Codeine, but ONE Midol and I'm as high as a kite! lol I don't feel a thing today, lucky me, except for the occaisional twinges from my lower back.
Shy, I've been meaning to call you, but I've been lazy. I sowwy! Hope you're feeling better. Glad to hear Hellboi's feeling better too. Hope you all have a great week! I'm gonna lay down before I fall out of my chair and fall asleep on the floor. lol

[Holliday]

Hi, GB (and waving at MiamiButch!).

The sword cane thing was part of a separate conversation I had with MB. I remember learning about the danger of trying to defend yourself with something you're not secure using. I think I got that from Home Alive, actually. Eenyway...I was interested in getting a cane sword because I used to play with my Grandpa's. It was special to me. I don't plan on using the sword part!!

I would to take a self defense class. I think there's one right down the street from me.

Hope everyone's having a lovely day!

Holliday
xox

Holliday, I have seen sword canes before no disrespect to Miami but the ones I have seen are lethal. Thing about online I can't tell sometimes if one is joking or not where as in person, I can tell from either tone of voice of facial expression, or both.

I have years of experience with canes as a walking aid and once used in self defense as a preventative. I learned how to use a cane in self defense when I was using a cane full time to walk from a model mugging class. I see no reason to have a hidden blade in a cane. Especially if you don't know how to use a blade (not talking about anyone here) it could be turned onto you.



Respectfully
GB

[guitarboi]

Ah ok
Cheers to HOME ALIVE!

Ok, sorry for the derail Off to the gym to work out my aches of the morning.
Have a great one everyone.
GB

Hi, GB (and waving at MiamiButch!).

The sword cane thing was part of a separate conversation I had with MB. I remember learning about the danger of trying to defend yourself with something you're not secure using. I think I got that from Home Alive, actually. Eenyway...I was interested in getting a cane sword because I used to play with my Grandpa's. It was special to me. I don't plan on using the sword part!!

I would to take a self defense class. I think there's one right down the street from me.

Hope everyone's having a lovely day!

Holliday
xox

[iamkeri1]

Hi y'all

I have two things I want to talk about today, but first I want to say what a fabulously perfect day it is here in Central Florida. Breezy warm days and cool open-the-window nights. PERFECT!!!

#1 re fibromyalgia. There is a simple but effective, cheap little roll-on pain killer that is absolutely non-invasive and non lethal to your internal organs. It is called PK-5. It smells good, costs less than $10.00, is easy to apply, can be used many times per day and best of all - it works. I have recommended it to many people who have found it to work for them as well. One time my hubby was laid up for 3 days with neck and shoulder pain. Could barely lift his head. FInally (you get stupid sometimes when pain is an issue) after three days I said to him "Did you try the PK-5?" He said "no".

He was hurting so bad that he couldn't stand to have me roll it on him, so I rolled it all over my hands and rubbed it in everywhere that he was hurting.

Now what I am about to say is the absolute truth - it is NOT an exageration. FIVE minutes later he came out and said. "You are not going to believe this, but the pain is almost gone". He had a few little spots that still hurt, so I rubbed some more on (The area of pain gets smaller with each usage) and by the third application he was completely pain free. He was diagnosed with Fibro, though I suspect some of the pain was caused by diabetes medication (more on that subject later) so it may help others of you who have fibro too. It also works on muscle aches fom working too hard, LOL

#2 Had a down but not out moment today - solved it all myself and I am very proud of myself (Which helps overcome my irritation at my stupidity that got me into the situation in the first place. LOL)

I use a electric scooter (righteous vehicle) for mobility. I was trimming some hedges on my patio this morning. there is a drop-off of about three inches from the cement to the sandy soil (underline sandy!) WEEEEELLLL, I was having trouble reaching the back of the bush from the cement. I am not stupid, I know I will get stuck in sand. So I went and got a rug (a not very big rug) and threw it on top of the sandy area. this worked fine while it was just my front tire that was down there, but OOOPSSS I went just a little too far forward and the back wheels dropped off, too! Now I am sitting staring at the wall of my house which is less that three inches from the front tire. I try to rock myself out and quickly realize I am buryint myself. I had been very efficiaent at taking the trimmings out to the slley, so I didn't have much to work with, but I tried rocking the scooter from side to side and shoving stuff under the tires. That would have worked if I still had all the pieces left that I trimmed off. I thought briefly about calling the police for help, but I like knowing I can take care of myself AND my four kids. All my friends and the kids were busy at work and school.

I assessed my situation. there were no chairs tables, etc within twenty feet that I could transfer while I got the scooter out. It is quickly getting hot in the sweater I wore this morning when it was 60 degrees out. I decide my first move should be to get out of the sun. The garage door is only about ten feet away, so I lower myself onto the cement. Then it takes me about 10 minutes to yank the back wheels up out of the sand (I am still stuffing gravel, leaves branches, etc., under the wheels to lift it up. FINALLY I am able to yank the back wheels back up onto the cement. Then the front tire keeps turning sideways and burying itself, but I persist, and finally scooter is "back on dry land" So then I kind of crab crawl into the garage, bringing the scooer with me each step of the way.

I am immediately grateful for the shade, but then I sense the cold cememnt floor and so naturally then I havea major urge to pee, LOL! I look around me, considering my options. Every chair is at least twenty more feet away. There is a stack of coolers that may help. and then AHA!, also about twenty feet away I see this little hydraulic lift platform that I bought to help me get back into my scooter after swimming. Now if I can just crawl over there without wetting my pants, I will be all set. It took about 5 minutes or so. I hauled my butt onto the platform, Pump pump, up I go to the height of the scooter, jiggle scooter around a little so I can transfer, and I am HOME FREE!!! And PS I did not wet my pants. Super crip success!!!!

Hope you all have a fabulous and functional day, and thank you for all the welcoming remarks.
Smooches
Keri

[Woodie69]

Hi Everyone,

I have to admit you all make me smile inside and out (when I am online or not). I think the world of each of you.

I am not feeling too well at all. My wrist/hand is just so painful. I am still in pt 3x's a week, and the swelling isn't going down. It is getting worse. It feels like bone rubbing on bone. I keep trying to find the right way to express this to my therapist, who I rely on totally for helping me regain my strength and usage of my hand. She is a gem I have to say. She was the one who diagnosed my injury and got me into see the right surgeon to fix it when everyone else said nothing was wrong with me. That is what I hate about not being able to express myself well. It is beyond frustrating.

This week I am so excited because I will have a cell phone that works on Saturday! Mine is totally dead and has been for such a long time. Even Rosie's phone is taped together to get in calls. At least she can see who is calling her. I can't even get that. My phone broke in half. I tripped over one of my furkids and my cell phone when one way and I went another. It was ugly - believe you me.

Anyway, hope everyone is ok.

Much love and peace,
Andrew

[Sweetstonefemme]

MIAMI.........as i thump you on the HEAD... ...call this place. ..they will GIVE YOU RIDES...free to Dr,er, most anywhere !!!! Sign up for their services................get involved, have some FUN...meet some cool PEOPLE....ok off my soap box now but YOU BETTER DO IT... wondering what a gurl has to do...lol

MB.......contact these people... CIL of South Florida 501 NE 1st Avenue
Miami FL 33122 Ph: (305) 379-6650
Fax: (305) 379-6653
TTY: (305) 379-6650

[MiamiButch]

OW!!! Stop thumping me on the heaD! Ya waNNA giVe ma Bwain Ramage?? Seriously, I called the number you gave me, but it kept saying that it would not answer calls from my phone. I'm wondering if it's because I only have a cellphone and not a land line. But I'll keep trying. ok? Jeez, just don't HIT me anymore!! lol By the way, thanks everyone for all the info you've been giving me. Oh, postscript, I'm still waiting on my neighbor and that electric scooter. He's on vacation in Venezuela for a month or so... Lucky!

MIAMI.........as i thump you on the HEAD... ...call this place. ..they will GIVE YOU RIDES...free to Dr,er, most anywhere !!!! Sign up for their services................get involved, have some FUN...meet some cool PEOPLE....ok off my soap box now but YOU BETTER DO IT... wondering what a gurl has to do...lol

[Jules]

Hi everyone, I hope this finds everybody doing well.

I've managed to miss 4 days of work (my first week back) due to nausea. Today I went to the gastroenterologist and he's decided I'm over medicated. I take 3 meds that deal with healing ulcers (which I no longer have), vicodin for my herniated disc, and then the TPN tube feedings. He discontinued the ulcer meds and cut back on my TPN. He's thinking I'm eating enough and eating combined with all the drugs is what made me naseous. We shall see.

Miami, maybe you should wear a helmet until you get a hold of that driving service...it looks like Sweetstonefemme might continue beating you about the head and shoulders until its done!

[Shyfemmekat]

Hi everyone, I hope this finds everybody doing well.

I've managed to miss 4 days of work (my first week back) due to nausea. Today I went to the gastroenterologist and he's decided I'm over medicated. I take 3 meds that deal with healing ulcers (which I no longer have), vicodin for my herniated disc, and then the TPN tube feedings. He discontinued the ulcer meds and cut back on my TPN. He's thinking I'm eating enough and eating combined with all the drugs is what made me naseous. We shall see.

Miami, maybe you should wear a helmet until you get a hold of that driving service...it looks like Sweetstonefemme might continue beating you about the head and shoulders until its done!

Good to hear from you. Hope they can get this medicaiton thing under control for you soon.

Sounds like SSF's butch-whappin' arm is strong....

SFK

[Shyfemmekat]

Andrew, give me a holler once you get a decent working phone. Miss talking to you and Rosie.

GB, thanks for the great info. I am always thrilled when y’all post new info. Learning is a wonderful thing and I try to learn something every day.

Holliday, glad you like the cane link. They have some cute ones on there, for sure.

Hey Keri, good to hear from you again! I will look out for that PK-5. Way to go on figuring out a way to get unstuck. Little things like that mean a lot; finding creative ways to handle our business in the course of a day. I love it when folks share those little victories.

I got to go to the post office AND the store today! WOO HOO! It is a lovely day here outside, sunshiny and warm.

Update: I got a call back today about my medication. I was about half awake but what I understood is that the hold up was with the doctor’s office. So, I will not get any medicine until next week, being that the order will ship Friday. Long week coming up, looks like.

Got pen pal letters to do and laundry, but wanted to check in with everyone tonight.

SFK

[ArchAngel Gabriel]

well I now have a job which pays 9 .00 per hour
it is cyclic temp work so I hope I can just keep parlaying it into meaningful employment.
Hours are 7-3
Job starts may 7th though
It will involve periods of lifting standing and whatnot periodically through the day... here's to hoping I can handle this lol.

The main thing is I do not have to worry about my current position any more. Only a matter of days lol.

[BlueMoonWolf]

Just a quick drive by to welcome the new people to the thread and to give big hugs to the regulars.

I have been recovering well from surgery. Last week i didn't get the exhaustion everyone was warning me about but apparently this week i am so i have been resting and trying to keep up.

I went to a new Rhumy today, he wasn't the most personable Dr i have ever seen but he was certainly more throurogh. It was nice to go to a Dr and feel like he was listening and taking in all the information that has been going on for the past few months.

Hope everyone has a good week,
BMW

[baynurse]

Hi all, this is Alma I will be on the radio being interviewed on KPFA or KPFK in LA. pacifica radio you can also go to the website for a listen. may 4th at 230 pm show is by disabled called "pushing limits" I am reading work done by severley disabled , dystonia, polio.... They asked me to continue with projects on the radio. I also want to publish a book with stories and works by the disabled. I would like entries for the book by lesbians especcially, but all stories of all genders are welcome. erotica and disability, sexuality and disability. if any of you are interested, email me baynurse22@yahoo.com
or ask micpf about me, she knows me well and this is a project we are doin g together.

[Sweetstonefemme]

YIPPIEEEEEEEEEE way to go...good for you !!!!! I am sure you will do fine...*twirls around bein happy for ya....egads i am dizzy now lol

well I now have a job which pays 9 .00 per hour
it is cyclic temp work so I hope I can just keep parlaying it into meaningful employment.
Hours are 7-3
Job starts may 7th though
It will involve periods of lifting standing and whatnot periodically through the day... here's to hoping I can handle this lol.

The main thing is I do not have to worry about my current position any more. Only a matter of days lol.

[espresso]

Hello all! Welcome to all the newcomers! I haven't read the threads from today yet, but it looks like it's been busy! I welcome and embrace new friends!

Today has been a pretty good day. I'm just at a crossroads in my life. Please let me explain. For the past 22 years, I've been in retail sales, with most of that being in cosmetics sales. I loved what I did, and it was so much fun! I loved being around people and being in sales.

I was diagnosed with MS three years ago (I was greatly relieved to know what was going on!). My partner told me when I got diagnosed that I would have to eventually make other career plans. I half way listened to her and kept on working even though it was making my symptoms worse. Teri, my partner had been trying to convince me to quit working since I got diagnosed and to go back to school. But I'm very stubborn and wanted to keep working because I loved cosmetics! She very reluctantly went along with my "stubborn streak" until Nov. 2006. Then one day I had a bad flare up while at work. Teri then said "that's enough", and demanded that I quit. She was tired of seeing me being so stubborn, when it was affecting my health in a negative way. She said, "You've got a chronic illness and you've been in denial the entire time." She was right. She wanted me to take time out for myself, and take care of my health, and choose another career path where it would be easier on my body. I was going to have to learn a whole new way of living. My outlook is this: I can use my positive attitude to improve myself and to ultimately help and inspire others.

In alot ways I'm excited about this new adventure; and in alot of ways I'm terrified. I'm 41 and making a career change is scary. I'm not real computer savvy (unless it's aol!). I'm 15 hours from my bachelors degree. A friend of mine told me that the state will help pay for school and that I would qualify. So I made an appt. with DVR for early May. I've also got the SSDI application going so I can have some money coming in (once approved) while I finish school.

I must admit that all these changes cause me a little anxiety. But I'm extremely fortunate to have a very supportive partner, family and friends. It's taken me this long to get over the guilt of not working. But I'm now over it and am ready to take on this new chapter in my life. Teri wants me to go into counseling because I love to help people and have tons of compassion. I am considering it. Teri has been with me every step of the way.

I apologize for having written a book. Please know that everyone on this thread is in my thoughts and prayers daily.

Hugs to all,

Staci

[DAYWALKER]

I was diagnosed with MS three years ago (I was greatly relieved to know what was going on!). My partner told me when I got diagnosed that I would have to eventually make other career plans. I half way listened to her and kept on working even though it was making my symptoms worse. Teri, my partner had been trying to convince me to quit working since I got diagnosed and to go back to school. But I'm very stubborn and wanted to keep working because I loved cosmetics! She very reluctantly went along with my "stubborn streak" until Nov. 2006. Then one day I had a bad flare up while at work. Teri then said "that's enough", and demanded that I quit. She was tired of seeing me being so stubborn, when it was affecting my health in a negative way. She said, "You've got a chronic illness and you've been in denial the entire time." She was right. She wanted me to take time out for myself, and take care of my health. and choose another career path where it would be easier on my body. I was going to have to learn a whole new way of living. My outlook is this: I can use my positive attitude to improve myself and to ultimately help and inspire others.

In alot ways I'm excited about this new adventure; and in alot of ways I'm terrified. I'm 41 and making a career change is scary. I'm not real computer savvy (unless it's aol!). I'm 15 hours from my bachelors degree. A friend of mine told me that the state will help pay for school and that I would qualify. So I made an appt. with DVR for early May. I've also got the SSDI application going so I can have some money coming in (once approved) while I finish school.

I must admit that all these changes cause me a little anxiety. But I'm extremely fortunate to have a very supportive partner, family and friends. It's taken me this long to get over the guilt of not working. But I'm now over it and am ready to take on this new chapter in my life. Teri wants me to go into counseling because I love to help people and have tons of compassion. I am considering it. Teri has been with me every step of the way.

I apologize for having written a book. Please know that everyone on this thread is in my thoughts and prayers daily.

Hugs to all,

Staci

Hey there Staci...

Positive attitude is way under-rated!
I applaud your outlook, it's really the only way to humor certain days...with the Gift n stuff. Lol...just today I think I said to myself...
"I might have MS, but MS has ME to deal with...".

That's the way I see it...lol, ya know?

Although the last couple months have proven the most challenging, I will never give up my day job...lol, it keeps me alive and gives me a reason to both bitch and thrive all at the same time. M'Lady has fancied the idea of me staying at home, I know she has...lol, but she also remembers something my Father said to her about me.
"Make sure that one is always working, if not...it'll drive her crazy",
lol...and I think she also found out that I can be a workaholic too.

I can do my job in a chair if I have to, so that is a huge advantage.
Anyways, just wanted to say welcome and thanks for posting.

By the way, lol...your post is not so long as a book, lol...it's an intro and
that's just how intors are supposed to be...yes?

I also wanted to tell you all that I have posted the first part of my story in the Writer's Duel Thread today. It's been difficult, and it is nearly complete...lol, and because it has become the longest story I have written in there thus far, it is being posted in "Sessions".

That's all, everyone stay rested and healthy.

Unkle Day
who is tired now

[ArchAngel Gabriel]

welcome new people.

[espresso]

Daywalker: I applaud your positive outlook as well! You sound like you have a very supportive and loving partner! It's great that you can do your job sitting down. I will definitely read your story on the "Writers Duel" thread. When I have "not so good" days, I get through it with lots of humor. That was funny what your father said to your partner. Have a nice evening!

BlueMoonWolf: I hope you feel better soon and have better luck with your new Doctor!

Shyfemmekat: I've missed chatting with you online. I hope you're ok!

Woodie69: I hope the pain and swelling in your hand/wrist go away soon!

Jules: I hope you feel better soon!

ArchAngel Gabriel: How are you feeling?

baynurse: I wish you the best of luck on your interview. What a wonderful thing you are doing!

iamkeri1: Where does one get that PK-5?

Hello also to: Sweetstonefemme, MiamiButch, Holliday, and guitarboi!

A Big Welcome to all the newcomers!

Hello to anyone I failed to mention!

May you all have a safe and peaceful evening!

Hugs,

Staci

[Shyfemmekat]

Hope everyone is having a decent Thursday so far. It is raining here which if it holds out will make for excellent napping about 11AM.

The end of the month is almost here, which means that smiley mail will begin going out very soon. Watch your mailboxes beginning next Monday. This month's postage was generously donated by one of our regulars. Bless you for that, you know who you are.

I have been spreading some time around to some folks I don't talk to often enough, and doing housework, etc.

I'll be back later once I have more sleep.

SFK

[Jules]

Espresso said,

It's taken me this long to get over the guilt of not working

That's the position I'm in right now. We have decided that working right now, with the way I'm feeling, would not be a good thing.

I'm in the process of filing out the application for Social Security Disability and am so afaid I'm not being thourogh enough. I have to wait until tomorrow to complete it as I have some questions and need to call the SS office.

I am experiencing a lot of anxiety and guilt. I keep thinking I SHOULD be able to work, but the constant nausea keeps me close to home. I'm just afraid that my health issues will not qualify. I'm in the process of finding an attorney to help me out.

SFK, I did get the books you suggested and will begin reading tonight. This is quite a process, and being so depressed I can't even focus on it to get it done. Its not been a good day.

[ArchAngel Gabriel]

ArchAngel Gabriel: How are you feeling?

Hugs,

Staci

Right this minute I am feeling like crud. I am cold crampy and finally letting myself get pissed at my former boss for being such a bitch and I have no chocolate.

This will pass and i will be my normal sunny positive self again, promise oh and since my legs are twitching badly I expect I will be heading to bed soon since it is hard sitting here when they do that. I so wish for a comfy chair right now...That and a back rub. I would gladly trade for a backrub...

[espresso]

Jules: I totally understand about having guilt and anxiety about not working. But for myself, I finally had to MAKE myself get to a point of NOT feeling guity. My "full time job" now is getting the SSDI going and getting retrained. Is this your first time to apply for disability? For the first time, I'm doing it on my own (with my partner's help). But if I get turned down, you can bet I'll be getting an attorney. If the process is confusing to you, then why not get one. Teri, my partner, had to do the forms for me because it was way too confusing. I wish you lots of luck, and remember you have the people on here for support.

ArchAngel Gabriel: I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. You had mentioned wanting to get a massage. This can be very beneficial for pain and many other symptoms too. Why not seek out a qualified massage therapist? Also massage schools have student interns do a massage for half the price of a regular one. For a comfortable chair, I'm not sure on that one. But don't they have furniture for orthopedics? I'm not sure if I got the term right - but hopefully you know what I'm trying to say. Hope you feel better soon!

Shyfemmekat: I hope you got lots of rest and you feel better!

To everyone else have a great evening and be safe!

Hugs,

Staci

[Sweetstonefemme]

some of the qualifying conditions to get SSD are that your "conditon be expected to last more then 12 months" or "result in death"this is where people get triped up with applying, so make sure your Dr words things right......

Espresso said,
That's the position I'm in right now. We have decided that working right now, with the way I'm feeling, would not be a good thing.

I'm in the process of filing out the application for Social Security Disability and am so afaid I'm not being thourogh enough. I have to wait until tomorrow to complete it as I have some questions and need to call the SS office.

I am experiencing a lot of anxiety and guilt. I keep thinking I SHOULD be able to work, but the constant nausea keeps me close to home. I'm just afraid that my health issues will not qualify. I'm in the process of finding an attorney to help me out.

SFK, I did get the books you suggested and will begin reading tonight. This is quite a process, and being so depressed I can't even focus on it to get it done. Its not been a good day.

[lionandlamb]

Hey everyone!
Its good to see so many new people!! This is my home away from home and there isn't one person on this thread I don't wish well.

Jules-There is a book called the "red book" you can get from SSA. It goes through every diagnosis and what is required to substantiate it for disability consideration. I was in an inservice about the very topic on Monday, and learned how important it is to appeal any denial. In this area of NC, the SSD Advocate hasn't had one case reversed on appeal. Every single one has been awarded disability. It may have taken several years to navigate the whole system, but it appears to pay off for those who stick with it.

Anyone ever deal with rebound headaches? I am either in a cluster, or rebounding and I would love to just nerve block my entire head these days. I see a neurologist next Friday and hope to get into some medical regiment. In the meantime, tequila has been the one thing that will totally knock me out, so I go with it.

I had a bit of a shock on Wednesday. Mental health funding has been dramatically cut in NC in the beginning of April. This has led to major cutbacks and layoffs. Monday, we learned there would be no more layoffs. Wednesday, I lost my job. Its been a release in most ways, as I am guaranteed unemployment. I just need to keep out of my head for the most part! When I start thinking, is when I get in trouble. Anyhoo.....Please keep positive job thoughts in your mind for this Lion.

[guitarboi]

That's the way I see it too

side note for anyone applying for either SSDI or SSI, I have represented 3 people (no, I am not a lawyer) and each time it was approved when I presented the facts and medical documentation. Sometimes it's good to have a friend go with you that is aware and educated about your disability and can help you present the facts. Don't let anyone at SSA intimidate you. They are horrifically under staffed and under paid. One of my friends was having a hard time dealing with a particular supervisor there, and after I assertively confronted him, he realized he was taking his own frustrations of the system on my friend, apologized, and they are on a first name basis now. Both SSDI and SSI are retroactive from the day you make the call to Social Security stating you would like to apply.

Best
GB

"I might have MS, but MS has ME to deal with...".

That's the way I see it...lol, ya know?