Thread: Physical Disability & Self-Esteem: Life As It Is Now, Coming To Terms, Rising Above

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    I think i was drawn here for I had not been on the site for years,, It's a connection that I feel to voice my as you say inner's,, good, bad, happy sad,, I'm a shy guy, and don't talk to much about myself, so thank you
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    Thank you Sweetstone femme,, I see you are a Bay Area girl''' I will keep in mind your wonderful encouraging words.. I need to open up and put it out there.''
    If we have devotion---total faith and commitment to our spirtual path---our determination will naturally build momentum.


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    Hey All-

    My ear is slowly getting better and I only have one more day of antibiotics to get through. My hearing in the right ear is slowly returning too.
    daisy took a nasty spill getting out of bed the other night, her ankle & foot was still twisted up in the blanket and she didn't realize it until she went down. Nothing's broken, her knee is just swollen & bruised and she's got to use her cane and the ER immobilized it with a foam thingy and some Ace bandages.
    Moxie has the full run of the house now too along with the other cats. Nothing beyond hissing and posturing...right now she is crashed out on the bed waiting for Me to come to bed in a few minutes. The other night she curled right up on daisy's feet to sleep, and tonight she walked right by My chair to cuddle with daisy in her chair.
    Boxes are arriving from Alaska, some of my bottles and stuff broke on the way. Today's box was really beat up and the post office had put some zip ties all over it. So I open it, start assessing the damage...and realize there are some items that were not mine inside the box. Some Vietnamese candy, mittens from the baby gap, a very old V-Smile toy, and some flower bulbs we believe to be tulips. It's really strange, that's never happened to Me before.
    Anyway, it's really late here so I need to turn in. Just thought I would drop by and let you all know I'm still here.
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    So thats where my missin stuff went!!!!! lol not really SSF
    Quote Originally Posted by SimpleAlaskanBoi View Post
    Hey All-

    My ear is slowly getting better and I only have one more day of antibiotics to get through. My hearing in the right ear is slowly returning too.
    daisy took a nasty spill getting out of bed the other night, her ankle & foot was still twisted up in the blanket and she didn't realize it until she went down. Nothing's broken, her knee is just swollen & bruised and she's got to use her cane and the ER immobilized it with a foam thingy and some Ace bandages.
    Moxie has the full run of the house now too along with the other cats. Nothing beyond hissing and posturing...right now she is crashed out on the bed waiting for Me to come to bed in a few minutes. The other night she curled right up on daisy's feet to sleep, and tonight she walked right by My chair to cuddle with daisy in her chair.
    Boxes are arriving from Alaska, some of my bottles and stuff broke on the way. Today's box was really beat up and the post office had put some zip ties all over it. So I open it, start assessing the damage...and realize there are some items that were not mine inside the box. Some Vietnamese candy, mittens from the baby gap, a very old V-Smile toy, and some flower bulbs we believe to be tulips. It's really strange, that's never happened to Me before.
    Anyway, it's really late here so I need to turn in. Just thought I would drop by and let you all know I'm still here.
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    Quote Originally Posted by SimpleAlaskanBoi View Post
    Hey All-

    My ear is slowly getting better and I only have one more day of antibiotics to get through. My hearing in the right ear is slowly returning too.
    daisy took a nasty spill getting out of bed the other night, her ankle & foot was still twisted up in the blanket and she didn't realize it until she went down. Nothing's broken, her knee is just swollen & bruised and she's got to use her cane and the ER immobilized it with a foam thingy and some Ace bandages.
    Moxie has the full run of the house now too along with the other cats. Nothing beyond hissing and posturing...right now she is crashed out on the bed waiting for Me to come to bed in a few minutes. The other night she curled right up on daisy's feet to sleep, and tonight she walked right by My chair to cuddle with daisy in her chair.
    Boxes are arriving from Alaska, some of my bottles and stuff broke on the way. Today's box was really beat up and the post office had put some zip ties all over it. So I open it, start assessing the damage...and realize there are some items that were not mine inside the box. Some Vietnamese candy, mittens from the baby gap, a very old V-Smile toy, and some flower bulbs we believe to be tulips. It's really strange, that's never happened to Me before.
    Anyway, it's really late here so I need to turn in. Just thought I would drop by and let you all know I'm still here.
    ~SAB
    Glad you are feeling better! Poor Daisy, I have done that myself. Before you know it suddenly you're a blanket burrito. Sounds like she'll get lots of attention while she is healing up. You got an interesting package! Goodness knows were that came from. Truth IS sometimes strange.

    It's always good to hear from you.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ravfem View Post
    sending {{{hugs}}} to everyone!
    And right back at ya!
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    Quote Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat View Post
    Well, talked to the head mechanic at my uncle's shop. Miss Violet's not dead yet. Quite. However, it would take over $8,000 to get everything that is wrong or about to go wrong fixed, such as rebuilding the engine, transmission, a differential, spring, etc. Needless to say I cried a good long while. For that much money it would make more sense to buy another vehicle entirely. So now I have to wait and see what happens. Meanwhile I have been looking at used trucks.
    *hugs* Wish it was better news for you.

    Miss chatting with ya, hon!
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    Quote Originally Posted by Trudaddi View Post
    For A long time in my life, because I had my adversities to deal with, I had no empathy or care for people that whinned about the little things.'' I felt that all could be strong and tough and get through there situations,, I didn't realize until I myself became induced with a cancer renal cell, that there's no treatment, cure, or anything else.'' I write this because in the last year I have gone through so much.. physically, mentally, emotionally, spirtually, I've had a rude awakeing of other peoples situations, from the variety written above.'' I feel for the grace of god, that I'm experiencing this huge breakthough I've needed to change myself for the better good' to feel more complete than ever.' to come full circle I guess.. My journey is still TBD, but I'm striving forward everyday, learning more and more about my TRUESELF.. Somehow this was part of the plan for my second journey in life.'' I give my prayers to all you here'' strength is in numbers'''
    Welcome! It is good to have you here. You sound a bit like me. I was always used to doing everything myself, being the one who took care of everyone else.

    I look forward to reading more of your posts, learning more about you. This is a friendly group of folks. We post about all kinds of things and at good/bad points in our lives. Sometimes we're just goofy. Humor is so important. We share information as well, so don't be afraid to ask questions. The caveat, obviously, is that we only play doctors on TV. Etc.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Surayna View Post
    *hugs* Wish it was better news for you.

    Miss chatting with ya, hon!

    Well, hey, it's good to see you!
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    Quote Originally Posted by BlueMoonWolf View Post

    today I woke up with my feet in the bedroom closet propped up on some quilt batting and on top of my dirty laundry. The even weirder part, the clothes were in the hamper prior to this morning... BUT i didn't wake up cold because I wore something warm to bed the cat slapping my forehead however did wake me...

    this is all fucked up to hell and back but thanks to my friend I am finding it hilarious now

    So to tie my adventures back to the thread

    Sassy... trust me having that friend that finds a way to joke or the 100 little things that you do and don't even recognize you do that help your friend are the things that mean so very much.

    you had asked for advice on how to help her... I know it's going to seem strange but watch for depression.. I know that it seems backward since your friend has an answer now. I know for myself after the high of finally having an answer I got a bit depressed for a minute because then came the questions of "how do I live with this?" I am not saying your friend will experience this, just that I know a lot do.
    In addition to the catslapping did you get "the look"? The "OMG, Mama what the hell have you gotten up to now? I hope no one saw me with you!"

    Yes, the depression. *nodding* That is something I struggle with on a regular basis, partly from the MS. I know when it really gets me is when I think about the future too much.
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    For the musical portion of our program tonight, one of my favorites:

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    Another one, Ms. Nina Simone:

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    Quote Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat View Post

    Well, hey, it's good to see you!
    I'm around... just not as much.

    Keeping busy with school, the flu, and building a new relationship with someone special.

    Give me a call one of these days when you're not busy and we can catch up.
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    Welcome, Lady_Wu! Glad you just jumped on in. We're not fancy here and I think first posts and letters are hard so why not just jump on in? It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of physical issues but with grace. I wish you well in your spiritual studies, that you may continue to draw closer to the Divine. I admire that. I am glad that you posted and hope that you will again.
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    hi everybody, I've not posted for a while so I thought I'd check in. Life is good, my mood is great. The last couple months have been wonderful.
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    Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been feeling pretty good for the past few weeks, thanks to a good friends voice on the other end of the phone who helps me keep the depression monkey in it's cage. She always makes me feel better and when we share a laugh, the depression monkey passes out. lol
    The only thing that HAS been bothering me lately is my back and neck. I'm starting to get those tingly burny feelings again, and my doctor refuses to acknowledge that I really DO have pain. I wish he were here in my body right now, so he could feel the burning sensation and the pain that is shooting down my neck as I type this.
    I'm having NO success finding a new doctor close to the house that takes Medicaid, and of course, Medicaid isn't exactly being helpful. Makes me wanna scream in frustration. Oh well, life goes on, right? Shy, hope Miss Violet can be salvaged, BMW, you keep waking up in strange places and you just might find yourself on a plane to Miami! lol Hope everyone's doing well, feeling fine and pain free, and for those of you who aren't feeling so hot, remember, this too shall pass.
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    Damm,
    I got sick as a dog last light, nothing would stay down.'' My body was doing a yo-yo syndrome. I awoke early and feeling better, so I'll be attending church this morning. I was raised catholic, 7siblings,, but really have found my spirit in the church of religious science.'' The experience always revitilizes me and raises my spirit, also makes my recovery easier.
    If we have devotion---total faith and commitment to our spirtual path---our determination will naturally build momentum.


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    Happy Sunday, y'all. Just wanted to duck in here and say hello. I've got a headache and am heading back to bed for a bit.

    OHB, Primo, sapho, you doing okay?
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    Hello All,
    I have been away for a while because I'm really struggling. Hate to whine and that's about all I have felt of late...
    Just wanted to reach out, tell you all I am praying for you, and hope to be feeling my self again soon.

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    OHB is without a computer until Tuesday, if UPS is to be believed.

    Hopefully she will be back online by Wednesday..........

    So she has no phone, no internet.

    Her back is still not doing well, but she is studying and doing well at school.

    I however have a bad case of the whines, so we won't go there. I'm going to bed early, should have taken a nap today, but spent the day doing paperwork and filing and trying again to get some order to the chaos i created...... I can't seem to focus long enough to get any job done.... and my truck is making wierd noises AGAIN.........oh happy day

    Made some split pea soup, it's FABULOUS.......... even if i do say so myself.

    Miami, tried to call you hon, but there was no answer, hope you are ok
    Goofy, sorry i've been too cranky to be perky lately and online
    Primo, How's it going?? Are you feeling better?
    Shy, sorry you feel so crappy, you up to a tomorrow?? I promise to be perky
    Hellboi, aka, The Destroyer of Virtual Villages, got bites???

    Hey, what happened to the bikers??? We need a Harley smilie
    yes, indeedy we do...........
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    ready for this........are you sitting down? sit down..........today I put....i put disal gas.....I PUT DISAL GAS in my car...........then drove.........then drove 65 miles...........OMG I KILLED MY CAR....it had to be towed a state away to the mechanic.............OMG OMG I HATE THIS BRAIN INJURYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SSF
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    Quote Originally Posted by RoseinBloom View Post
    hi everybody, I've not posted for a while so I thought I'd check in. Life is good, my mood is great. The last couple months have been wonderful.

    Glad to hear that! Don't be a stranger, though...
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sweetstonefemme View Post
    ready for this........are you sitting down? sit down..........today I put....i put disal gas.....I PUT DISAL GAS in my car...........then drove.........then drove 65 miles...........OMG I KILLED MY CAR....it had to be towed a state away to the mechanic.............OMG OMG I HATE THIS BRAIN INJURYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SSF
    Oh honey, that sucks. I am so sorry.
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    Quote Originally Posted by hellboi View Post
    *waves* Hi y'all
    Hey yourself!
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sweetstonefemme View Post
    ready for this........are you sitting down? sit down..........today I put....i put disal gas.....I PUT DISAL GAS in my car...........then drove.........then drove 65 miles...........OMG I KILLED MY CAR....it had to be towed a state away to the mechanic.............OMG OMG I HATE THIS BRAIN INJURYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SSF
    Well gee whiz, SSF!!! What a bummer!!! I can't tell you how many times I've come close to doing the same thing, though! I always check 50 times before I actually start pumping the gas. The way some gas pumps are nowadays, it's really easy to do sometimes. Don't beat up on yourself so bad! (((((SSF)))))

    Quote Originally Posted by Rhoda View Post
    OHB is without a computer until Tuesday, if UPS is to be believed.

    Hopefully she will be back online by Wednesday..........

    So she has no phone, no internet.

    Her back is still not doing well, but she is studying and doing well at school.

    I however have a bad case of the whines, so we won't go there. I'm going to bed early, should have taken a nap today, but spent the day doing paperwork and filing and trying again to get some order to the chaos i created...... I can't seem to focus long enough to get any job done.... and my truck is making wierd noises AGAIN.........oh happy day

    Made some split pea soup, it's FABULOUS.......... even if i do say so myself.

    Miami, tried to call you hon, but there was no answer, hope you are ok
    Goofy, sorry i've been too cranky to be perky lately and online
    Primo, How's it going?? Are you feeling better?
    Shy, sorry you feel so crappy, you up to a tomorrow?? I promise to be perky
    Hellboi, aka, The Destroyer of Virtual Villages, got bites???

    Hey, what happened to the bikers??? We need a Harley smilie
    yes, indeedy we do...........
    Why Rhoda, who says you have to be perky to talk to me??? I can handle cranky you know! And might even make you laugh, so .

    Quote Originally Posted by cuppatea View Post
    Hello All,
    I have been away for a while because I'm really struggling. Hate to whine and that's about all I have felt of late...
    Just wanted to reach out, tell you all I am praying for you, and hope to be feeling my self again soon.
    Well I hope you've been lurking, if nothing else. As Miami says, this too shall pass. (I think that is burnt into my vocal chords.)

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    *waves* Hi y'all
    *Waving back* Hi ya!

    Quote Originally Posted by MiamiButch View Post
    Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been feeling pretty good for the past few weeks, thanks to a good friends voice on the other end of the phone who helps me keep the depression monkey in it's cage. She always makes me feel better and when we share a laugh, the depression monkey passes out. lol
    The only thing that HAS been bothering me lately is my back and neck. I'm starting to get those tingly burny feelings again, and my doctor refuses to acknowledge that I really DO have pain. I wish he were here in my body right now, so he could feel the burning sensation and the pain that is shooting down my neck as I type this.
    I'm having NO success finding a new doctor close to the house that takes Medicaid, and of course, Medicaid isn't exactly being helpful. Makes me wanna scream in frustration. Oh well, life goes on, right? Shy, hope Miss Violet can be salvaged, BMW, you keep waking up in strange places and you just might find yourself on a plane to Miami! lol Hope everyone's doing well, feeling fine and pain free, and for those of you who aren't feeling so hot, remember, this too shall pass.
    Ugh, much luck on the doctor hunt Miami. I've recently heard that the one I've got my initial appt coming up with is against pain meds. I'm trying not to get all bummed out about it, though, and give him a chance. We'll see. Glad you have someone that helps you laugh!!!

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    Happy Sunday, y'all. Just wanted to duck in here and say hello. I've got a headache and am heading back to bed for a bit.

    OHB, Primo, sapho, you doing okay?
    How's the headache doing Shy? Need a neck rub? My fingers and toes are still crossed for Rhon!

    Hope everyone else out there is doing well, also. Rhoda, tell OHB that I can SOO relate!!! Glad there is help heading her way, though. I sure would love some of that soup!!!
    I'm feeling kind of tired tonight for a change, so think I'm gonna hit the hay. Have a good night everyone! Sleep well!



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    Quote Originally Posted by Rhoda View Post
    OHB is without a computer until Tuesday, if UPS is to be believed.

    Hopefully she will be back online by Wednesday..........

    So she has no phone, no internet.

    Her back is still not doing well, but she is studying and doing well at school.

    I however have a bad case of the whines, so we won't go there. I'm going to bed early, should have taken a nap today, but spent the day doing paperwork and filing and trying again to get some order to the chaos i created...... I can't seem to focus long enough to get any job done.... and my truck is making wierd noises AGAIN.........oh happy day

    Made some split pea soup, it's FABULOUS.......... even if i do say so myself.

    Miami, tried to call you hon, but there was no answer, hope you are ok
    Goofy, sorry i've been too cranky to be perky lately and online
    Primo, How's it going?? Are you feeling better?
    Shy, sorry you feel so crappy, you up to a tomorrow?? I promise to be perky
    Hellboi, aka, The Destroyer of Virtual Villages, got bites???

    Hey, what happened to the bikers??? We need a Harley smilie
    yes, indeedy we do...........

    Thanks for letting us know about OHB.

    It seems like a lot of us have been feeling whiny and/or depressed lately. Must just be going around like the flu. I'd love to hear from you. I should be up and in good order by noon my time if that works for you?
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    Quote Originally Posted by cuppatea View Post
    Hello All,
    I have been away for a while because I'm really struggling. Hate to whine and that's about all I have felt of late...
    Just wanted to reach out, tell you all I am praying for you, and hope to be feeling my self again soon.

    I've missed you. I was wondering how you were doing. We all feel whiny sometimes and that's okay. Hurry back.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Trudaddi View Post
    Damm,
    I got sick as a dog last light, nothing would stay down.'' My body was doing a yo-yo syndrome. I awoke early and feeling better, so I'll be attending church this morning. I was raised catholic, 7siblings,, but really have found my spirit in the church of religious science.'' The experience always revitilizes me and raises my spirit, also makes my recovery easier.

    Glad you are feeling better.

    So how was church? I have a couple of Ernest Holmes' books. I have heard was a mentor of Norman Vincent Peale who I like very much. Prayers are always welcome!
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    Hey, Goofy! I will definitely be keeping you in my prayers about that doctor. I know quite a few doctors are like that and it sucks. Yeah, some folks really ARE in pain. M'kay, off my soapbox now.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MiamiButch View Post
    Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been feeling pretty good for the past few weeks, thanks to a good friends voice on the other end of the phone who helps me keep the depression monkey in it's cage. She always makes me feel better and when we share a laugh, the depression monkey passes out. lol
    The only thing that HAS been bothering me lately is my back and neck. I'm starting to get those tingly burny feelings again, and my doctor refuses to acknowledge that I really DO have pain. I wish he were here in my body right now, so he could feel the burning sensation and the pain that is shooting down my neck as I type this.
    I'm having NO success finding a new doctor close to the house that takes Medicaid, and of course, Medicaid isn't exactly being helpful. Makes me wanna scream in frustration. Oh well, life goes on, right? Shy, hope Miss Violet can be salvaged, BMW, you keep waking up in strange places and you just might find yourself on a plane to Miami! lol Hope everyone's doing well, feeling fine and pain free, and for those of you who aren't feeling so hot, remember, this too shall pass.
    Glad to hear your depression is better. Friends makes such a difference. Medicaid will send you over the edge if you aren't careful. We won't even talk about spend down.
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    All quiet at the cat ranch. My headache was gone when I got up so I had a piece of cold Domino's BBQ chicken pizza and got online. My aunt was on, too, and we ended up chatting for a long time. Every time we talk I find out more and more awesome stuff about that side of the family. Some strong, amazing women and I am just beginning to learn about them. It's like Christmas!

    Lovely evening out so when it got dark I sat out on the deck for a bit. I saw one of the outdoor kitties and he saw me from up on the carport roof. He started to run but I started talking to him softly so he hung around for a minute and then headed for the hills. I am sure that he and the other cats out there are puttin' a whuppin' on that food now.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Shyfemmekat View Post
    In addition to the catslapping did you get "the look"? The "OMG, Mama what the hell have you gotten up to now? I hope no one saw me with you!"

    Yes, the depression. *nodding* That is something I struggle with on a regular basis, partly from the MS. I know when it really gets me is when I think about the future too much.
    HAHA no I didn't get that look.. you have to know that this kitty is also known as Demon Kitty (insert evil scary music here) My sis said that she was tapping my head to test how much of a struggle I would put up if she started chewing on me..... with this cat... it's entirely feasible that this is true.

    I had a moment like that a few days ago while getting my mom her cell phone... the guy was talking about contracts. Mom had walked away and I just said. "Ya know.. I can see the advantage of having that type of contract but I don't want my family to have to carry a bill for a phone that I may not live to see to the end of the contract." he kinda blinked and stopped talking about term contracts


    Quote Originally Posted by MiamiButch View Post
    Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been feeling pretty good for the past few weeks, thanks to a good friends voice on the other end of the phone who helps me keep the depression monkey in it's cage. She always makes me feel better and when we share a laugh, the depression monkey passes out. lol
    The only thing that HAS been bothering me lately is my back and neck. I'm starting to get those tingly burny feelings again, and my doctor refuses to acknowledge that I really DO have pain. I wish he were here in my body right now, so he could feel the burning sensation and the pain that is shooting down my neck as I type this.
    I'm having NO success finding a new doctor close to the house that takes Medicaid, and of course, Medicaid isn't exactly being helpful. Makes me wanna scream in frustration. Oh well, life goes on, right? Shy, hope Miss Violet can be salvaged, BMW, you keep waking up in strange places and you just might find yourself on a plane to Miami! lol Hope everyone's doing well, feeling fine and pain free, and for those of you who aren't feeling so hot, remember, this too shall pass.
    florida??? well okay but I better be wearing clothes. Cheers for keeping the monkey fully spanked!
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    hello, finally off work for a few

    the gal who comes after me did not come and only decided at 9 pm that she was too sick to come to work... ummmmm i mean how sick does one have to be to come to work to sleep????? since this is the second week in a row now i am wondering how sick she really is. anyhow I am happy cause i get 11.5 hours in today..... all overtime plus another 7 tomorrow runnig a gal to several dr appointments.....

    I also mentioned to our supervisor that we will need a sofa couch or something to sleep on once we get the third room mate come thanksgiving weekend..... i hope we do get something cause the love seat is just not conducive to sleeping on and i am the short one of the house....

    anyhow feeling better bit by bit and that is pleasing to no end to finally be feeling a bit bettr.

    hope everyone is enjoying a fine day where ever you are. all ya'all are never far from my thoughts

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    The mechanic called and the car is gonna be fine.......whew! He said he can fix it ! Just not sure how much this is gonna cost. I do have some $$ stashed, but it was for a netbook, ~sigh~......live and learn i guess..........SSF
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    hello folks...been busy going to all these specialists...rheumatologists, back Drs, gynos and breast specialists, etc. Its a FT job being disabled/sick. LOL.

    But...the interesting fact is that as I go thru these motions and attend to all my health issues, i am feeling stronger..in mind and body. Yesterday I spent the day outside, doing yard stuff and working in my shed. Now, I took breaks but I still did more than I have been able to do since I moved to Ohio. It feels good.

    I am wondering if people experience what I call Strong swing Weak swing? There are days I am flat on my back wondering if I am going to end up in ER, and other times like yesterday where I can lift a wardrobe with a friend's help and get it in the house (ok...she did most of the work..i was just balancing it but STILL)...

    when i am in my Strong swing, people ask me if I still think I am disabled. It appears to them I am "fixed". I shake my head...this invisibility during the Strong swing is what kept me in denial for so long about myself so I can understand where they are coming from, but these are also the people who have to buy my groceries and walk my dog when I am down for the count...

    I know their question is based in hope for me...

    but boy, disability IS disability...even when it doesnt show...
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    i have much the same thing.......i am gonna use your term for it from now on though lolSSF
    Quote Originally Posted by softness View Post
    hello folks...been busy going to all these specialists...rheumatologists, back Drs, gynos and breast specialists, etc. Its a FT job being disabled/sick. LOL.

    But...the interesting fact is that as I go thru these motions and attend to all my health issues, i am feeling stronger..in mind and body. Yesterday I spent the day outside, doing yard stuff and working in my shed. Now, I took breaks but I still did more than I have been able to do since I moved to Ohio. It feels good.

    I am wondering if people experience what I call Strong swing Weak swing? There are days I am flat on my back wondering if I am going to end up in ER, and other times like yesterday where I can lift a wardrobe with a friend's help and get it in the house (ok...she did most of the work..i was just balancing it but STILL)...

    when i am in my Strong swing, people ask me if I still think I am disabled. It appears to them I am "fixed". I shake my head...this invisibility during the Strong swing is what kept me in denial for so long about myself so I can understand where they are coming from, but these are also the people who have to buy my groceries and walk my dog when I am down for the count...

    I know their question is based in hope for me...

    but boy, disability IS disability...even when it doesnt show...
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    Quote Originally Posted by ArchAngel Gabriel View Post
    hello, finally off work for a few

    the gal who comes after me did not come and only decided at 9 pm that she was too sick to come to work... ummmmm i mean how sick does one have to be to come to work to sleep????? since this is the second week in a row now i am wondering how sick she really is. anyhow I am happy cause i get 11.5 hours in today..... all overtime plus another 7 tomorrow runnig a gal to several dr appointments.....

    I also mentioned to our supervisor that we will need a sofa couch or something to sleep on once we get the third room mate come thanksgiving weekend..... i hope we do get something cause the love seat is just not conducive to sleeping on and i am the short one of the house....

    anyhow feeling better bit by bit and that is pleasing to no end to finally be feeling a bit bettr.

    hope everyone is enjoying a fine day where ever you are. all ya'all are never far from my thoughts

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    ROFL about your work. I have worked with folks like that. Overtime IS a beautiful thing, though. Hope you can get something worked out with the couch. There is no room on a loveseat to sleep! (and I am 5'2", BTW)
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    Quote Originally Posted by Sweetstonefemme View Post
    The mechanic called and the car is gonna be fine.......whew! He said he can fix it ! Just not sure how much this is gonna cost. I do have some $$ stashed, but it was for a netbook, ~sigh~......live and learn i guess..........SSF
    Thank goodness. Go go!
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