Physical Disability & Self-Esteem: Life As It Is Now, Coming To Terms, Rising Above

[Woodie69]

LionandLamb,

I am learning a lot about generic drugs now. It is very interesting. I had no idea of what was in them. It is good to know this infor for the the future. Now I make my dr's all write on the rx for me that I have to have the brand name only - no generics. The cost on some drugs is higher, but the cost of staying out of the hosptial's corinary care unit is much better.

All I can say is Hillary for President! Thank God she won in NH last night. I sure hope she isn't lying about having universal healthcare coverage for everyone. The cost of my stay in the corinary care unit was $8k for 3 or 4 days (I am not sure of how they pro-rated my evening stay there). When insurance carriers stop being for profit then we all will benefit. Until that time, forget it. The middle class will be wiped out, and you will be either rich or poor.

Blessings all around,
Andrew

[corkey47]

Hi everyone, hope you all are doing well. Winter decided to give us a break these last few days, but came roaring back this morning.

Rhoda, thank you we got the package They are great!

[curley]

Hi everyone
just a qiuck up date as to what's happening with me Breifly I haven't been doing well during christmas new years, Had my peroid for 14 days straight, because of the blood thinners and thought I had a had a lupus flare up, then I fell and bruised both knees , Now for the good news,, Apparently I',m amenic hemeglobion down from 140 in nov to 114 now so this is a good thing,,,its not my lupus and fixable
When I fell I triipped over a cord and went down hard (stuff in my apt shook) I'm very lucky that i didn't break anything So now I gotta figure oot a good food plan that increases my iron, dosent interfere with my blood thinner and wont increase my cholerstral so I'm thinking a diet of chocolste and wine would be the way to go
Hope everyone is doing well

[proudgirl]

I have a physical disability and have had it since birth and learn to deal with it and it has not got me down in life at times I have my low moments. I want to say I have never thought of myself any different than anyone who doesn't have a disability. Reading some of the posts alot of you all encourage me. I'm young but dealing with it and doing what I want it has open my eyes up things in life and I am very lucky to have it make me grow up fast and show me I can still enjoy life young even though I had to grow up fast. Hope everyone had a great new years!

[hellboi]

Ack! Why? <insert biscuit deprived face here>

BTW, good to see you!

SFK

siiiigh...cholesterol......I have been on medication for it for like...forever *in excess of 15 yrs*...and..I have never seen a level of less than 200...my bad cholesterol is always excessively high *well..that's kind of an understatement.*
I have used every cholesterol reducer on the market...lipitor worked fairly well...got my cholesterol under 280...and crestor has brought it down to 200...though it seems to have hit some osrt of platue..as it has been at 200 for more than 2 years now.
I also have high blood pressure.
The doc says it is not a matter of if I will have a heart attack..it is a matter of when I will have one...and..they are becoming extremely worried about stroke. I keep having these headaches..it feels like the whole top of my head is gonna blow off...and..my skin gets very red when I have these headaches...my veins protrude...it becomes difficult to respond to anyone *I just can't seem to form words with my mouth*.....my vision blurs. Now..the Docs say that is my blood pressure raising to dangerous levels..despite the blood pressure medication that keeps it regulated most of the time. They are calling this "pressure flare"....they say it is a condition where despite regulatory medication..and normal blood pressure most of the time with that medication...the blood pressure will surge to dangerous levels. Can't increase the medication anymore..cuz it will cause my blood pressure to be too low..and..the "pressure flares" will still occur...and would still rise to dangerous levels. *They likend this rise in pressure to a solar flare*
Soooo..I am supposed to give up salt entirely...as well as fried foods..fatty foods...coffee *or any other form of caffeine..including chocolate..which I don't like anyway..LOL* Now..with the dietary restrictions diabetes has demanded for all these years..and this new dietary restriction..I believe that celery and lettuce are officially the only two foods I can safely eat...as long as I eat them plain...
I can feel my ears lengthening as we speak....my butt seems to be sprouting this little cottonball looking tail...and I am getting the strangest urge to go hopping through an alfalfa field...LOL

[Amberly22]

Hi Everyone My name is Amberly im 26 yrs old and i live in the Renton washington area, I was born with spinabifida and was wondering if there were any lesbians in my age range or a little older I can connect with and become friends, for me its hard to find Lesbians to become friends with but they dont understand my disability, I just wanna feel excepted in the Gay and lesbian community and not feel so alone, if you have yahoo messanger and wanna talk thats awsome! if you have yahoo my yahoo SN is amberly_marie2003
or if you have myspace your more then welcome to add me amberlya@comcast.net

[Shyfemmekat]

I have a physical disability and have had it since birth and learn to deal with it and it has not got me down in life at times I have my low moments. I want to say I have never thought of myself any different than anyone who doesn't have a disability. Reading some of the posts alot of you all encourage me. I'm young but dealing with it and doing what I want it has open my eyes up things in life and I am very lucky to have it make me grow up fast and show me I can still enjoy life young even though I had to grow up fast. Hope everyone had a great new years!

Welcome to you! You have a super attitude.

This is a great bunch of folks on here. There have been many times when I have leaned on them, drawn inspiration from them and have reveled in their humor.

Hope to see you post again!

SFK

[Shyfemmekat]

siiiigh...cholesterol......I have been on medication for it for like...forever *in excess of 15 yrs*...and..I have never seen a level of less than 200...my bad cholesterol is always excessively high *well..that's kind of an understatement.*
I have used every cholesterol reducer on the market...lipitor worked fairly well...got my cholesterol under 280...and crestor has brought it down to 200...though it seems to have hit some osrt of platue..as it has been at 200 for more than 2 years now.
I also have high blood pressure.
The doc says it is not a matter of if I will have a heart attack..it is a matter of when I will have one...and..they are becoming extremely worried about stroke. I keep having these headaches..it feels like the whole top of my head is gonna blow off...and..my skin gets very red when I have these headaches...my veins protrude...it becomes difficult to respond to anyone *I just can't seem to form words with my mouth*.....my vision blurs. Now..the Docs say that is my blood pressure raising to dangerous levels..despite the blood pressure medication that keeps it regulated most of the time. They are calling this "pressure flare"....they say it is a condition where despite regulatory medication..and normal blood pressure most of the time with that medication...the blood pressure will surge to dangerous levels. Can't increase the medication anymore..cuz it will cause my blood pressure to be too low..and..the "pressure flares" will still occur...and would still rise to dangerous levels. *They likend this rise in pressure to a solar flare*
Soooo..I am supposed to give up salt entirely...as well as fried foods..fatty foods...coffee *or any other form of caffeine..including chocolate..which I don't like anyway..LOL* Now..with the dietary restrictions diabetes has demanded for all these years..and this new dietary restriction..I believe that celery and lettuce are officially the only two foods I can safely eat...as long as I eat them plain...
I can feel my ears lengthening as we speak....my butt seems to be sprouting this little cottonball looking tail...and I am getting the strangest urge to go hopping through an alfalfa field...LOL

But you forgot about water.

I found an article about hypertensive urgency, is that the same thing?

Hypertensive Urgency

Did they mention anything to you about it being malignant hypertension? Mine, for example, isn't. Here's an article about it:

Malignant Hypertension

I'd say you probably should be figuring out a new way to cook and eat.

Hugs,
SFK

[proudgirl]

Welcome to you! You have a super attitude.

This is a great bunch of folks on here. There have been many times when I have leaned on them, drawn inspiration from them and have reveled in their humor.

Hope to see you post again!

SFK

Thanks alot for the encouragement!

[sapho32]

Oh, Hellboi. That sucks. My abnormally long arms go out to you!

[Surayna]

Hi Everyone My name is Amberly im 26 yrs old and i live in the Renton washington area, I was born with spinabifida and was wondering if there were any lesbians in my age range or a little older I can connect with and become friends, for me its hard to find Lesbians to become friends with but they dont understand my disability, I just wanna feel excepted in the Gay and lesbian community and not feel so alone, if you have yahoo messanger and wanna talk thats awsome! if you have yahoo my yahoo SN is amberly_marie2003
or if you have myspace your more then welcome to add me amberlya@comcast.net

Hi Amberly!

Chase and I are down in Oregon... not too far from Washington. I have no idea where Renton is without looking it up, though.

This is a great thread! Everyone here has been incredibly supportive and friendly. I hope you find the friendship and companionship you are looking for here.

Nice to meet you,
Jenna

[hellboi]

But you forgot about water.

I found an article about hypertensive urgency, is that the same thing?

Hypertensive Urgency

Did they mention anything to you about it being malignant hypertension? Mine, for example, isn't. Here's an article about it:

Malignant Hypertension

I'd say you probably should be figuring out a new way to cook and eat.

Hugs,
SFK

ROFLMAOOO....well...far as I know...it's still ok for me to drink water....LOL

No...they said nothing about malignant hypertension...thewy explained it to me..the way I have explained it to you...but...sigh..ya know..they think I'm like some kind of child who can't understand what they're saying...and they don't tell me everything anynmore..they explaoin what they think I should know..and tell my daughter the rest..but..after reading those articles..I don't think it could be alla that serious..if they aren't checkin me in the hospital right now.....but...I did have to buy a cuff...and my daughter is checking my bp at regular intervals....

[BlueMoonWolf]

ROFLMAOOO....well...far as I know...it's still ok for me to drink water....LOL

No...they said nothing about malignant hypertension...thewy explained it to me..the way I have explained it to you...but...sigh..ya know..they think I'm like some kind of child who can't understand what they're saying...and they don't tell me everything anynmore..they explaoin what they think I should know..and tell my daughter the rest..but..after reading those articles..I don't think it could be alla that serious..if they aren't checkin me in the hospital right now.....but...I did have to buy a cuff...and my daughter is checking my bp at regular intervals....

Remember one thing... you are perfectly within your rights to question anything from your DR and make him/her explain exactly what that means. And technically until you sign permission, I believe, with the HIPPA laws they can't tell your daughter anything until you consent. Someone correct me if i am wrong about the Hippa thing.

[RopeBurner]

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

[ArchAngel Gabriel]

ok not such a good day for me physically as I am just drained. I am also starting the process of once again looking for a place to live. apparently when one wants to move in aug one finds a place now. long story but let it be that I will be moving... sigh ah well this is not the end of the world. It did throw me in a bit of a spin though. will post more when i can.

waves to the new people... welcome.

G
owned by fibromyalgia (some days) and a cat named julie.

[amiyesiam]

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

Both our hearts are heavy with this news. Her friends and family will be in our prayers. Thank you for letting us know. Corkey and Ami

[Surayna]

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

OMG this is so sad. May she Rest in Peace.

Jenna

[Sweetstonefemme]

This sad, so very sad for myself and i know for all of us.May your journey give you wings my friend...

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

[Woodie69]

Hi Everyone,

I am so upset about PeregrineMagic. She was such a lady, and a good friend to me. I am so very lost without her here, but I do know that she is at peace, and no longer suffering. My heart is just so sad right now. I hope everyone is doing ok with this news. I am here for anyone who wants to talk.

RIP PM. Love you.


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I found a website on invisible chronic illnesses such as seizures, emphysemia, pain, migrains, headaches, and fibromyalgia. What I found interesting is that I had no idea that the federal gov't is the one who classifies the different chronic illnesses as to pay scales for disability ratings, social security disability pay, and so on. I just wonder about all the youngsters who are being diagnosed with Autism today, who in the world is going to support them in the future?

Someone who has several chronic illnesses such as myself (depression, asthma, head injury, etc.), I would barely survive on social security disability because of the risk factors for my head starting a new bleed (leaving me in a veggie state and in a nursing home) and my life expentency being not too high. So I work as a forklift driver, but always am threatened with being fired for never making my production goal. My employer could careless about HIPPA and releasing my personal medical info to anyone who will listen. In fact, my employer uses personal info against employees all the time. And the EEOC is employer favorable, the same as in worker's comp. cases (because MD is an employer favorable and at-will state). These laws really need to change. Too many American's are without employment or healthcare benefits.

The social security disability rating is the same rating the returning wounded from Iraq receive. They get the bare bones of pay after sacrificing so much. It is really sad. I won't even go into Walter Reed Medical Center in DC. That place should be closed, re-vamped, and then re-opened afterwards.

Anyway, the website had an article on how those who are chronically ill and disabled tend to be shy, fearful, suffer a lot of anxiety mainly over medical care, prescriptions, tests, and really surviving. The article wrote about those who have AIDS/HIV, diabetes, lupus, kidney failure, and so on. It just brought tears to my eyes. It finished up by talking about bullying. How some get bullied into doing things they should not be doing, or going into a clinical trial so they get free medical care and prescriptions.

I am just very blessed. I try and I work hard. Life is not easy by a long shot.

Love and peace to all,
Andrew

[lucidflame]

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

Hey Rope, Thanks for letting us know. My prayers are with you and PeregrineMagic as she crosses.

[Shyfemmekat]

As y'all know I was very close to Precious P. I was going to call her this afternoon and came in here and read this. As soon as I can stop crying and throwing up from crying I will post something.

SFK

[Bebo]

As y'all know I was very close to Precious P. I was going to call her this afternoon and came in here and read this. As soon as I can stop crying and throwing up from crying I will post something.

SFK

Pull yourself together young lady. Peace be with you all. Blessings.

[sapho32]

Pull yourself together young lady. Peace be with you all. Blessings.

Hi Bebo. If you have a special connection with Shy where you can joke with her about that kind of stuff, great. If not, then step the hell off.

I'm very protective of our Shy, and what you said here is NOT COOL!!!

[DAYWALKER]

Since PeregrineMagic posted mostly in here, I thought I'd let her online pals know that she crossed over this past Saturday afternoon. Through hospice and with family and friends around at home, she just passed into a quiet sleep after chatting us all up all day Friday.

My heart is heavy, she was one of the greatest women I've ever known.

Rope--

She talked her way...into heaven,
just like she did our hearts and minds in this thread.

Peace be with her and her family as she crosses.
Out of this world, and into the light.

[Jules]

Thank you Rope for letting us know. The news has made me very sad, she was a wonderfully strong woman. My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends.

[TopDadddy]

Thanks for the info, Rope.

How terribly sad

~TD~

[micpfef]

To all in this thread, I grieve with you for this loss of one of our loved ones. She was a remarkable lady who has left us pieces of her to carry us through.

I am happy that she is finally at rest and no longer struggling and battling the illness that took over her body. I am glad that her spirit is now free.

Rest is peace PeregrineMagic, You have earned it and I am forever grateful for what you shared here and the one time I met you in person......

Your light will not dim with me.

Michele

[MiamiButch]

Bebo, your lack of compassion for someone else's suffering is incredible. "Pull yourself together" you say? Did you even KNOW Peregrine? Do you even know SHY?? What audacity! You show lack of humanity, to be so unfeeling for another person's pain at a friends' passing!
As Sapho said, we are all very protective of Shy, and I personally am VERY protective of her, being like her older brother. Both she and I are mourning the loss of a wonderful friend, a fantastic person, and a source of inspiration to us all. In the future, I would suggest that you follow the old adage, "If you can't say anything nice, say nothing at all". Your callous remark to Shy was inwarranted and unasked for and personally, if you were anywhere in my vicinity and said that, I would have probably slapped you for being so mean.
Rest in peace, Peregrine, you've earned your eternal rest and rightfully so.....

Pull yourself together young lady. Peace be with you all. Blessings.

[BlueMoonWolf]

We haven't lost PeregrineMagic. She will be with us always.

My favorite memory is sending her gospel music and her utter joy at the huge collection i was sending her over the course of an afternoon....

Have a favorite memory.... please share it with us if you feel comfortable...

I talked with Peregrine about this poem in pvt and for some reason I wanted to bring it in here.

Don't Weep for Me


Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room,
I am the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

~ Mary Frye of Baltimore, Maryland in 1932~

[Butterbean]

BlueMoonWolf, this is such a beautiful poem you've posted. It's the writing that will be used at my own funeral someday. I didn't have the pleasure to know PeregrineMagic but offer my condolences to anyone grieving from her passing.

When my Grandmother passed, I wrote an email to my cousin, who was especially close to her. She saved it and quite a few years later, during my own inconsolable grief regarding my Mother, re-emailed my own work back to me to console me. I'd thought I'd share it here:

"I know what you mean about having some time to reflect and feel now. I've
spent the day and night thinking...didn't sleep at all. I keep thinking about
the night before she passed away. You were sleeping and (name removed) and (name removed)
wanted me to go get sandwiches. It was around 2 am. I decided to stop in her
room before I went downstairs. She was sleeping but became aware of my
presence and woke up. She was looking around a bit but I could tell her
eyesight had begun to fail so I said "It's (name removed)."

She leaned up towards me and smiled the most beautiful smile. There was
something....amazing about her smile. I just stood there smiling back at her.
I am so grateful for just those 10 seconds between us.

Grandma had a life filled with pain and sorrow and nobody could make it all
better. It seems like one of the worst aspects of grief is the finality of a
person's life by their death. The last stamp has been pressed and there is no
removing the blue ink seal.

No dramatic last minute reversal of fortunes...no miracle rewrites of how it
all went down. It just is what it was.

Many say that heaven is a personal experience: Our new level of consciousness
creates what is paradise to us. If this is true, Grandma is somewhere nice
and green, amidst lush sweet pea vines, snow on the mountain, and millions of
purple petunias. She is picking perfectly grown cucumbers and green beans
from her garden. Bridgett is happily barking to her, Grandpa is grilling, her
sons are happy, healthy and with her, and oh how easily she breathes.....

This is not so difficult to believe when we remember that the energy from
anything we ever say or do is forever in the universe-just floating around.
If our actions can linger for all of time it only seems reasonable that our
minds will too.

Because I know with all my heart, that Grandma is enjoying eternity however
it happens to be, I can accept and then let go of what was here. It is the
same for my Father, my Grandfather, and anyone else I have ever loved."

(Name removed)

We haven't lost PeregrineMagic. She will be with us always.

My favorite memory is sending her gospel music and her utter joy at the huge collection i was sending her over the course of an afternoon....

Have a favorite memory.... please share it with us if you feel comfortable...

I talked with Peregrine about this poem in pvt and for some reason I wanted to bring it in here.

Don't Weep for Me


Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room,
I am the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

~ Mary Frye of Baltimore, Maryland in 1932~

[Camo Eagle]

Pull yourself together young lady. Peace be with you all. Blessings.

Bebo,

Count me in as another coming to Shys side. You were way off base man.
Shy deserves much better, and support, at this time. She is a very caring person that gives up so much of her time to help, counsel, support, listen, and lift us all up.
Now let us all rally to support her, as she has done for us.
I only hope others will show you compassion when you lose someone close to you.
You prob didnt mean to be a jerk, but when you mess with our SHY, you STEP IN IT big time.


To Peregrine
I thank you for all your encouragement , compassion, and kindness when I came to , as a newbie in pain.
You will be missed, but I know that you will still be watching over us all.
Take your wings and soar my friend.


To all the new names poping up on the thread, WELCOME. As you can see, its like a family here. Yes, we get testy at times, but we dont bite too hard.

[BlueMoonWolf]

peoples... please... the post has been reported.... let the powers that be deal with it.

[Shyfemmekat]

Good Morning All,

My eyes are fried but I finally got some sleep. When my nerves get going my stomach gets going and it's not cute.

Rope, thank you very much for posting in here. Once I have gotten more sleep I will be sending you a PM.

I am very sorry that Bebo's post was reported. I do know Bebo and had have many nice PM's and emails from hy and hys wife. Hy did not mean anything cruel in hys post. I think what hy meant was this: "This sucks but stop, breathe, and try to put your ass back on. Or at least put it in a wheelbarrow and roll it around with you. Don't fall apart so bad that you reach the pile of goo stage. God/Goddess/Spirit is here in the midst of everything, even this." I grew up in farm country and most folks I knew were much like that. I would've much preferred that NOTHING had been done regarding the post without checking with me first. Obviously that did not happen and it's mighty hard to put Silly String back in the can once you've pushed the button. I appreciate y'all being protective of me right now but please, let's try not to get into the post-reporting mindset if we can help it. Precious P would not want things to be like that; she is a lady of peace.

Thank you to everyone who called and those of you who left messages. I will try and return everyone's calls today. Special thanks to those of you who listened to me as I actively bawled.

I am trying to formulate what I want to say about Peregrine and I am just about there. Later today I will post something to honor her.

SFK

[Plum]

ShyFemmeKat, thnk you for clearning up the remark by Bebo. To the rest of the thread, do not let your grief make you ugly. Be patient iwth one another. Bebo deserves a few apologies here.

To the thread, as my "other" screenname I had occassion to chat with PeregrineMagic and i am personally very saddened by the loss of her to this community.

Now can everyone please be knid to each other in her name? I'd very much appreciate that.

[Daddy Rhon]

I'm so sorry to hear this sad news of Peregrine's passing. We lost a great member of our community.

[hellboi]

Remember one thing... you are perfectly within your rights to question anything from your DR and make him/her explain exactly what that means. And technically until you sign permission, I believe, with the HIPPA laws they can't tell your daughter anything until you consent. Someone correct me if i am wrong about the Hippa thing.

My daughter has medical power of attorney...and she is listed as my SSDI payee *though I do not currently recieve SSDI...I recieve only my VA pension, as Social Security Administration is still having problems straightening out my case...they have the paperwork all fouled up.)


I'm very sorry to hear of the loss of Peregrine....my thoughts amd prayers go out to her children, and other loved ones (including her friends) in their time of grief.

[MiamiButch]

Silence the song of the calling birds,
Let the breezes so gently blow,
For on its zephyr winds our Peregrine flies,
To the home of the angels,
To the eternal rest we all so long for,
And let us not shed a tear in sorrow,
Instead let us celebrate her life,
She was as brave as her namesake,
She was stronger than fear,
She taught so many to soar,
Even on broken wings,
Her strength lives in us,
She lives on in our memory,
In our hearts lie seeds of rememberance,
Where her lessons for us grow and
through which our Peregrine will live forever.

[Woodie69]

Hi Everyone,

I am just still overwhelmed with the loss of our Precious P. I just can't seem to shake it. My stomach is all in a knot, and I just think about our chats. She was so genuine and a honest about everything. And she helped me a lot. I can remember spelling (typing) letters of words to her, and she would tell me what it was, and what it meant in a sentence. And she never would even think of belittling me because of my disabilities (like reading and writing (dyslexia)). I know I will never have the income or power or any of the material things that most people strive for in life. But what I do have I do cherish and value. There is no price for love.

I am so grateful to have known PeregrineMagic. She blessed me in soooo many ways.

Love and Peace,
Andrew

MiamiButch, that is a beautiful poem. Thanks for sharing it with us.

BlueMoonWolf, "Don't Weep for Me" was in both of my adopted parents' Church funeral pamphlet. I love that poem. It is so very true.

Surayna, I will have to hunt for that website for you again. When I get it, I will post the link.

Shy, We will be calling. We were afraid too. We know how you feel. We are there with you. No need to explain anything. We are here for you.

[TopDadddy]

I'm sorry to come in and change the subject, but I have a question, and I see the Dr in 2 days.

Has anyone in here used a Duragesic Fentanyl patch for any extended length of time, and if so did you experience any odd side effects, specifically around increased depression? If so could you PM me.

Thanks,
~TD~

[TheDety]

Ya know...I have never had the opportunity to have a conversation with Peregrine, and unfortunately won't ever have it. But I do remember seeing posts from her on occasion. I don't remember anything negative about any of those posts....

So I grieve over a beautiful soul that I never got to know.



(I think we need a candle emoticon....)