Friend of Bill W.

[Kashesan]

12 days-an even dozen. My liver is going, "What happened? Where's the shitty bile I'm supposed to be excreting into her boozy bloodstream? I don't know what to do with myself"

I had no Nutella, FemmeNextDoor, but I had an overwhelming desire to color in a coloring book. I'm embarrassed to say that this 45 y/o butch, with tattoos and a scar on her upper lip from kendo class many moons ago,(practicing half smashed without helmet) spent the eveing with a box of 64 Crayolas and an Alice In Wonderland coloring book. I colored the Cheshire Cat pink and orange, the Cook got blue hair and a wisteria apron and hat, the Baby was definatly magenta and cornflower tinted, with a light green tongue.
Whatever it takes I guess..

Sherrie, you're welcome. Save me a bag of M&M's (with peanuts,please? I used to sit in the balcony at the Warner Theatre when I was a kid and throw them at the patrons below. The peanut M&M's really hurt)


kash

[FireHeart]

I think it's great to be a kid, once-in-awhile.

Your spirit wants to play!
Enjoy ...

Cal

[LeftWriteFemme]

Kash,

I like the ones with Peanuts, too.
I've been to the 6:30 AM meeting in Harvard Yard, I thought it was pretty good. I have friends who live in Somerville.

Sherrie

[Lady_Di]

Kash,

Better than chocolate, wow!!!!! Thank you, that's a real complement, I live miles from the M&M Mars factory and around here the oldtimers make the newcomers suck on M&Ms and you therefore know them by the bag of candy they drag around everywhere with them............

Sherrie

* giggling *

that is how we can tell em apart here, too!

some things must be universal~


d'vanilla bean lover

[Kashesan]

Kash,

I like the ones with Peanuts, too.
I've been to the 6:30 AM meeting in Harvard Yard, I thought it was pretty good. I have friends who live in Somerville.

Sherrie

Thanks Cal and Sherrie-it was fun. I love the smell of crayons (alright, alright. I love the taste too. Almost as good as M&Ms)

Sherrie-I have to be at work by 6:30 am. First shift at the hospital.
I have friends in Somerville too-nice town! (I live on the North Shore-right near the beach. Love it! I need a tan!)


k

[Lady_Di]

June 5

DOLL

“Why is your face all red?” asked my sponsor.
“I didn’t get my way,” I responded.
“And this crimson appearance is the result?”
“You see that it is. I was very careful about what I wanted and worked hard to be reasonable.”
“And Baby, you were. You did nothing wrong. Your ego was in check and you kept your expectations in proportion.” said my sponsor.
“Then why didn’t it work out my way?”
“I only have a sad and simple answer for you. The result had nothing to do with you, your wants, expectations or desires. The whole experience boils down to only one thing: It was not that type of party, Doll.”
“Oh.”


Promise yourself tears like rain and smiles like sunshine.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

the perfect response...

oh

you and your sponsor, sound a whole lot like me and mine

amazing how that works, like a circle
never ending

keeping things very simple these days
d'who just love how this works

[NormaJean]

I had no Nutella, FemmeNextDoor, but I had an overwhelming desire to color in a coloring book. I'm embarrassed to say that this 45 y/o butch, with tattoos and a scar on her upper lip from kendo class many moons ago,(practicing half smashed without helmet) spent the eveing with a box of 64 Crayolas and an Alice In Wonderland coloring book. I colored the Cheshire Cat pink and orange, the Cook got blue hair and a wisteria apron and hat, the Baby was definatly magenta and cornflower tinted, with a light green tongue.
Whatever it takes I guess..



kash

*blushing*

I color, too, Kash....
Usually in a Lion King coloring book,
or the last time was in
a Strawberry Shortcake book,
Just a week ago.

Hey...that is the lovely thing about having a 5 year old niece!!
And it is even more fun playing cars with my grandsons...

[Stav1969]

Evening......Just stopping by to wish everyone a healthy day. "Let Go and Let God"

[DallasLesbian]

Evening......Just stopping by to wish everyone a healthy day. "Let Go and Let God"

Good to see ya buddy.............Amanda says hello

[Dat_NYC-Guy]

I hope everyone survived their Monday - things are going great for me - as I look back on these months since I go clean so many good things have happened for me. There have been some disappointments but they are far outweighed by the good. One reason why I know I'm feeling better is that I am able to listen to my country and western music without feeling depressed. (Okay, I picked up that habit when I lived in Dallas 9 years ago.)

Once again I have to say how smart my sponsor is! He's been gone for just over a week and will return on Friday. He told me to get a babysitter - okay, he said temporary sponsor. I didn't know why the hell I had to have one but got one because he told me to. So, for just over a week I have been calling my AA Nanny. She's someone who has a recovery I respect and always has just the right thing to say. I always called her when I couldn't reach my sponsor anyway. But, I've been a busy man for the past week and needed to talk about stuff that has been on my mind. Yeppers - my sponsor was right, I needed a babysitter!

I've gotten so much in sobriety - I've found myself and have discovered that I am not such a bad guy afterall. Who knew?

David

[DallasLesbian]

I hope everyone survived their Monday - things are going great for me - as I look back on these months since I go clean so many good things have happened for me. There have been some disappointments but they are far outweighed by the good. One reason why I know I'm feeling better is that I am able to listen to my country and western music without feeling depresses. (Okay, I picked up that habit when I lived in Dallas 9 years ago.)

Once again I have to say how smart my sponsor is! He's been gone for just over a week and will return on Friday. He told me to get a babysitter - okay, he said temporary sponsor. I didn't know why the hell I had to have one but got one because he told me to. So, for just over a week I have been calling my AA Nanny. She's someone who has a recovery I respect and always has just the right thing to say. I always called her when I couldn't reach my sponsor anyway. But, I've been a busy man for the past week and needed to talk about stuff that has been on my mind. Yeppers - my sponsor was right, I needed a babysitter!

I've gotten so much in sobriety - I've found myself and have discovered that I am not such a bad guy afterall. Who knew?

David

David that is so awsome to hear. I am so proud of you. I would love to one day hear your story so keep us posted to when that day comes will ya?

[FireHeart]

I've got geology crap all over the table. Final is on Wed.
I can't find my daughters birth certificate & she needs a passport.

I look out my window and the City guys are cutting the shade from my oak tree!

WTF!????
Good god!!!!!
They had the cherry-picker over my freakin roof!

So, I took a deep breath & got them to stop.
What am I grateful for?
O yea, lot's of practice controlling myself!

[Stav1969]

Good to see ya buddy.............Amanda says hello

Thanks buddy....Give Amanda a big kiss for me

[RedtailedHawk]

Howdy everyone........bye

[Stav1969]

I hope everyone survived their Monday - things are going great for me - as I look back on these months since I go clean so many good things have happened for me. There have been some disappointments but they are far outweighed by the good. One reason why I know I'm feeling better is that I am able to listen to my country and western music without feeling depressed. (Okay, I picked up that habit when I lived in Dallas 9 years ago.)

Once again I have to say how smart my sponsor is! He's been gone for just over a week and will return on Friday. He told me to get a babysitter - okay, he said temporary sponsor. I didn't know why the hell I had to have one but got one because he told me to. So, for just over a week I have been calling my AA Nanny. She's someone who has a recovery I respect and always has just the right thing to say. I always called her when I couldn't reach my sponsor anyway. But, I've been a busy man for the past week and needed to talk about stuff that has been on my mind. Yeppers - my sponsor was right, I needed a babysitter!

I've gotten so much in sobriety - I've found myself and have discovered that I am not such a bad guy afterall. Who knew?

David

Way to go David....Keep up the great work

[NormaJean]

Howdy everyone........bye

Talk about Hit-and-Run "HOWDIES"!!

*reaches out and grabs Liam by the collar*

How you doing?
Long time no hear-from!!

[RedtailedHawk]

Shoot! I thought I would be able to stick my head in then run. It's a good thing my mom knows how to sew. She will have a tough time putting this collar back on my shirt, NormaJean

[NormaJean]

Shoot! I thought I would be able to stick my head in then run. It's a good thing my mom knows how to sew. She will have a tough time putting this collar back on my shirt, NormaJean

*giggles*

I do my best to not let people get away
when they don't pop in often enough!!

[DallasLesbian]

Thanks buddy....Give Amanda a big kiss for me

I ain't kissin on no damn perv chair............but I'll turn my head for a second if ya need me too

[LeftWriteFemme]

June 6

THE ONE I BOUGHT

There are fairy tales I never gave credence to. Multiple bear stories don’t move me. Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love-----now that one I still buy hook, line and sinker. Work hard and true love will fix the rest; that is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under during my sad little life will be broken only by the durable and all-fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through, the blame was leveled at the wrongness of the match but not the wrongness of the plot. Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person, I have displaced a rightful power and thrown myself to the sea.


Let a whisker width of optimism carry your day.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

[Stav1969]

Good morning Brothers and Sisters....I hope everyone has a healthy and
peaceful day. Keep it in the day!

[Stav1969]

I ain't kissin on no damn perv chair............but I'll turn my head for a second if ya need me too

LOL.....No thats okay. Amanda is not my type

[Lady_Di]

June 6

THE ONE I BOUGHT

There are fairy tales I never gave credence to. Multiple bear stories don’t move me. Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love-----now that one I still buy hook, line and sinker. Work hard and true love will fix the rest; that is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under during my sad little life will be broken only by the durable and all-fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through, the blame was leveled at the wrongness of the match but not the wrongness of the plot. Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person, I have displaced a rightful power and thrown myself to the sea.


Let a whisker width of optimism carry your day.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

Whiskers and love... things to believe in and lick, uhmmmm, kiss and not tell about, just enjoy while you have the opportunity, no?

Should I ever have the chance again, be blessed enough to have a butch that happens to have a whisker or two, I shall just enjoy the nowness of that happenstance.

Shant think of yesterdays whiskers or tomorrow shave, but enjoy the moment of this very breath or afterglow of that kiss or tickle from a whisker, uhmmmmm...

nice image or feeling stirred, ms muse

danka
d'grateful sober one

[Lady_Di]

June 6

THE ONE I BOUGHT

There are fairy tales I never gave credence to. Multiple bear stories don’t move me. Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love-----now that one I still buy hook, line and sinker. Work hard and true love will fix the rest; that is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under during my sad little life will be broken only by the durable and all-fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through, the blame was leveled at the wrongness of the match but not the wrongness of the plot. Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person, I have displaced a rightful power and thrown myself to the sea.


Let a whisker width of optimism carry your day.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

Whiskers and love... things to believe in and lick, uhmmmm, kiss and not tell about, just enjoy while you have the opportunity, no?

Should I ever have the chance again, be blessed enough to have a butch that happens to have a whisker or two, I shall just enjoy the nowness of that happenstance.

Shant think of yesterdays whiskers or tomorrow shave, but enjoy the moment of this very breath or afterglow of that kiss or tickle from a whisker, uhmmmmm...

nice image or feeling stirred, ms muse

danka
d'grateful sober one

[Lady_Di]

June 6

THE ONE I BOUGHT

There are fairy tales I never gave credence to. Multiple bear stories don’t move me. Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love-----now that one I still buy hook, line and sinker. Work hard and true love will fix the rest; that is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under during my sad little life will be broken only by the durable and all-fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through, the blame was leveled at the wrongness of the match but not the wrongness of the plot. Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person, I have displaced a rightful power and thrown myself to the sea.


Let a whisker width of optimism carry your day.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

Whiskers and love... things to believe in and lick, uhmmmm, kiss and not tell about, just enjoy while you have the opportunity, no?

Should I ever have the chance again, be blessed enough to have a butch that happens to have a whisker or two, I shall just enjoy the nowness of that happenstance.

Shant think of yesterday's whiskers or tomorrow's shave, but enjoy the moment of this very breath or afterglow of that kiss or tickle from a whisker, uhmmmmm...

nice image or feeling stirred, ms muse

danka shurn...


ODAAT~
d'grateful clean unt sober one



~an old maxim for the newcomers~

hey buddy... keep on keeping
one foot in yesterday
one foot in tomorrow
and ye shall be pissing all over today!


Keep Coming Back...

better yet, don't leave.

Cause it is mighty hard sometimes to come back
with our tails between our legs, and what not...

ain't shame a bitch and a half~!

and as the Dick P. would say at every meeting without fail...
(who died 33 years sober surrounded by Angels of Mercy
with all the other Vets... a good man, who made his amends
after making some horrible mistakes in his drinking days
and even some while sober, but guess what
you can clean up your side of the street
as his biographer... I am telling you true
You Can Do This)




Don't Drink !!!

[NormaJean]

June 6

THE ONE I BOUGHT

There are fairy tales I never gave credence to. Multiple bear stories don’t move me. Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love-----now that one I still buy hook, line and sinker. Work hard and true love will fix the rest; that is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under during my sad little life will be broken only by the durable and all-fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through, the blame was leveled at the wrongness of the match but not the wrongness of the plot. Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person, I have displaced a rightful power and thrown myself to the sea.


Let a whisker width of optimism carry your day.

Yours in sobriety,

Sherrie

Well, yet again,
Miss Sherrie,
you have struck at the heart
of just what I need to hear.

I think I have spent my whole life
looking at the fairy tales about true love
and believing whole-heartedly...

First, as a little girl who was adopted at birth,
I would sit next to the road daydreaming that
my real mother and father
(a queen and king, of course
or possibly famous film stars?)
would be driving up any time in their limosine
to take me back where I belonged,
because obviously,
I was adopted out after being kidnapped from them.

Then as a teenager/young woman,
looking for Prince Charming,
kissing a lot of toads along the way.

And finally,
in my older and supposedly wiser years,
responding to a more modern fairy tale,
I became Ruth,
searching for my Idgie.

I suppose that an addiction to true,
romantic love will always be my burden,
for I haven't found a treatment program for that yet,
nor a 12-step program.
But I am slowly learning that my Higher Power
must lead me first and foremost,
and that once I begin to love myself,
I will be able to find what I need from another.

I will hold onto that whisker of optimism today...
Maybe I will have the wherewithal to find enough optimism
by the end of the week to make an entire mustache,
thin though it may be?

[LeftWriteFemme]

Mela, Sweetheart,

I know just how you feel, thank you for sharing here.
I hope you have a blessed day,

Sherrie

[LeftWriteFemme]

Darling Di,

I love that I a-muse you, and hope to always do so!

Sherrie

[koop]

Pulling out an oldy but a goody!

One of my favorite sometime forgotten tools is the Serenity Prayer Long format. For some reason that version has always helped me more. I guess I just need it to go a step further.

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living One day at a time. Enjoying one moment at a time. Accepting Hardship as the pathway to peace. Taking this sinful world as it is, and not as I would have it. Trusting that you will make all things right if I surrender to your will. So that I can be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with you forever in the next.

Amen.

One of the biggest lines in there for me is "Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace" ... I constantly need to remind myself that it isn't in getting through something that I find peace it's accepting it while I am in it that I will find peace.

[Stav1969]

Evening....Hope everyone is having a good day and staying positive.

It's been a long time since I have had a sponser and I am thinking
thats what I really need at this time in my life. Unfortunetly I didn't
have much luck with a couple of sponsers I had in the past....They
were trying to do the 13th step if you know what I mean. I really
think that is a cruel thing to do to someone. So hopefully I will
have better luck this time around.

[DallasLesbian]

Pulling out an oldy but a goody!

One of my favorite sometime forgotten tools is the Serenity Prayer Long format. For some reason that version has always helped me more. I guess I just need it to go a step further.

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living One day at a time. Enjoying one moment at a time. Accepting Hardship as the pathway to peace. Taking this sinful world as it is, and not as I would have it. Trusting that you will make all things right if I surrender to your will. So that I can be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with you forever in the next.

Amen.

One of the biggest lines in there for me is "Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace" ... I constantly need to remind myself that it isn't in getting through something that I find peace it's accepting it while I am in it that I will find peace.

I haven't seen the long version in years. Thank you for posting it. And yes I agree with you on the biggest line being Accepting.................it gives me peace as well.

[DallasLesbian]

Evening....Hope everyone is having a good day and staying positive.

It's been a long time since I have had a sponser and I am thinking
thats what I really need at this time in my life. Unfortunetly I didn't
have much luck with a couple of sponsers I had in the past....They
were trying to do the 13th step if you know what I mean. I really
think that is a cruel thing to do to someone. So hopefully I will
have better luck this time around.

Stav, I have no idea why anyone working a program of honesty would ever consider 13 stepping someone much less actually do it. I understand the temptation that is there, but I don't understand to follow through of it.

Good luck in finding what your looking for.

[Joanie62]

Wow, I have only recently been a member of this site, so it was a great surprise to find recovering family on here. My favorite coloring books are anything that do with Christmas. Nothing like getting a new box of 64, opening it, and letting that one of a kind smell drift through my senses. It's great to be a kid at 43!

About 13th steppin, don't be a sponsor or sponsee to anyone you are even faintly attracted too. We are addicts after all. Old behaviors and all that.

Hugs all, from Oregon

[LeftWriteFemme]

DL,

My sponsor says that the reason for the 13th step is the 14th step, which is I am powerless over the 13th step. I'm not saying it's okay I'm just quoting someone with over 30 years.

Sherrie

[DallasLesbian]

DL,

My sponsor says that the reason for the 13th step is the 14th step, which is I am powerless over the 13th step. I'm not saying it's okay I'm just quoting someone with over 30 years.

Sherrie

You know I hadn't even thought about it like that til you mentioned it, and it makes sense. Afterall we do have to have reason's to motivate us in the right direction in order to work the steps.

I now have a new understanding of the 13th step, thank you Sherrie

Welcome to the thread Joanie keep coming back.

[Stav1969]

Stav, I have no idea why anyone working a program of honesty would ever consider 13 stepping someone much less actually do it. I understand the temptation that is there, but I don't understand to follow through of it.

Good luck in finding what your looking for.

Thanks Buddy....

[Dat_NYC-Guy]

Hey not so fast ..where you going?

David

Howdy everyone........bye

[JesterButch]

Personally I don't think anyone who is doing or has done the 12 steps can really with good conscience take the 13 step without really bad karma and consequences but yes, sadly it happens all the time and it's good to be honest and talk about it

I think its especially common in the gay/queer smaller communities that we need and lurk in sometimes. Sorry to hear its kept you from sponsorship, Stavros and good luck to you!

Stavros sounds Greek to me but you're obviously a proud Italiano, is that an Italian name as well? I knew lots of Greeks years ago when I was a girl

Ciao

love from the Jester who knows first hand about sponsor wierdness and 13 stepping and wished I knew then what I knew now

[Dat_NYC-Guy]

Thanks DL - I shared once a couple of months ago - but, I am in NYC. Things have gone from good to better. I've been holding my breath and also practicing a lot of willingness these days - nice thing about all of this is that I don't have any feelings of impending doom about any of it. I've accepted that the gift HP has given me is just that, a gift - something I didn't have when I was out there drinking.

I've been working at the company of my dreams for the past 6 months as a temp. My VP and manager has been trying to get me permanent but human resources has been dragging their feet. They drag their feet with every hire and it drives them nuts! Me too - so today I finally took matters into my own hands and told human resources that I rejected a management position with another company and other interview offers in order to stay here and be hired permanent. I told them that if they want to keep me they need to make an offer this week or I am gone because I have exhausted my savings to supplement this lousy temp pay.

Later as I was walking past the VP's office he called me in and said that HR called him about my phone call to them. I thought I would be in trouble. He apologized and told me that he was furious with them and that they are getting off their ass to put together an offer to me and I should have it this week.

On my way out the door he said, 'oh, one more thing. We got the NY Mets new stadium account and it's yours.

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can we say thank you HP!!!!!!

It's all been good and it doesn't stop there....I met this girl and we started to date a couple of weeks ago. She's also a FOB and certainly not a club girl. In the past when I met someone I usually found a way to sabotage it. I'm not doing it this time. I'm finding that I make my calls to my AA Nanny until my sponsor comes back and I continue to read my BB on a daily basis and do my morning and evening meditation. I've become willing to let nice things happen to me. I like it.

God willing I will have 7 months on June 11th.

If someone had told me last year that I would have all of this today I would have laughed in their faces, turned and ordered another drink

Funny thing this willingness - it's not as difficult as I thought it would be to admit that I am powerless. As a matter of fact I think I kind of dig being powerless. It frees me from myself.

David

GO METS!!!!

David that is so awsome to hear. I am so proud of you. I would love to one day hear your story so keep us posted to when that day comes will ya?

[NormaJean]

Wow, David!!!

Congrats on everything...
The perm job (You KNOW you will get it!!)
The new account...
and the new lady in your life!!

HP always knows where we need to be,
even if we aren't so sure s/he was totally sane
when s/he put us there.
I have to remember that my HP is the sane one
in this relationship.