. This pride will be weird for me. I am one of the executive board members which produces the NYC G/L/B/T Pride event but will be dropping that after this year because I need to get involved in sober activities. Last year I made a feeble attempt to get clean during Pride - I am the treasurer and have to be at the pier dances for two nights straight (pardon the pun) and it is a literal vodka bath! I will be completely surrounded by alcohol and counting a ton of money all soaked in alcohol - fortunately, God willing, I will have almost 8 months clean time when I do that this year so it should be okay - I need to have a strong, steady foundation to get through that and make sure I don't have any HALT stuff going on. Fortunately, they all know I quit drinking and they are supportive and don't encourage me to drink.
get a sober buddy w/ time, dbl digits, to go with you, the organizers here are very aware of the AApeople involved with the festivities, we have a sober chill spot, and sober contingents, find the sober contingents and people for support, we all need support and having a buddy is definately a bonus at such a large event...as far as sponsering, you'll be great! we only have to give sponsees whats been given to us from our sponsers...NOT ADVICE JUST STEPS...no therapy, no counselling, no rides, no money lending, no cover-ups, JUST THE 12STEPS...i always feel like im gonna fuck up the newcomer, but its not taking our work together personally, its about me showing up for my sobriety and i get to read and talk thru writing with another alcoholic/ addict...whether they show up and do the work is on them; my recovery allows me to be honest open minded and willing...to show up WHEN I SAY I WILL SHOW UP...my sponsee didnt show up last week/ no call; and this week she called an hour before our time when i had already left for my coffee com. at my homegroup...so when i got to where she lives(@ a residt'l rcvr'y facility)she proceeds to give me the whole i just called you, so you wouldnt have to come did you get my messege? no i havet been home...you dont have your cell? no i dont own one(something i told herB4)oh well i have to work the rest of the day we could meet on fridays but not this fridday im going home/ out of town, but call me for next week...so we are mtg monday morning so we could FINALLY start her 4step! so i can see how the distractions are keeping her from ehr recovery, its easy to lose focus when you barely are getting it back! you want to do everything you can all at once as soon as possible...
so of course my first impulse is to always take things personally and cop a major resentment and justify it and end with an ultimatum or firing...never a balance of bounderies and understanding...so to get that balance i dont respond until i want to respond, until god wants me to be of service in this situation...
anyway david, show up, make attainable goals, take baby steps,
and be of maximum service to your fellows and your HP...and sobriety is just that...keep it simple.