...so i was thinkin'

[skym3]

~i was thinkin'...

...thank god for country folk family who will work for beer and a good meal..and friends who will work for cheap...LOL

...was also thinkin'...lookin at SBD...wasn't lookin far from it in fact was runnin..original runaway bride ... but "moments" was focusing on moments...not just butch-femme, lover, partner etc moments...all kinds of moments each day...stoppin to smell the roses so to speak...not focusing on what i wanted...but focusing on what each day brought...this beautiful earth, my kids. my family, my friends...and filtering...things that didn't feel good or didn't seem healthy...some of the best decisions require the hardest effort..and don't feel good right away damnit...but moments...life is millions of moments streamed together...and i thought to myself one day...living for others...tryin to be what i thought people wanted me to be...all that...well sucked...and i had missed so many moments...focusing on others...that's the day i started living life instead of letting life live me....and...well...im damned glad i did...

Good for you sweetie!
I hope you get all you wish for, cause you are a beautiful woman inside and out.

[FemNLeatherNLace]

Good for you sweetie!
I hope you get all you wish for, cause you are a beautiful woman inside and out.

tyvm ((((sky)))) you are a sweetie...and honestly...i think...we are a reflection of those we let in our lives..ya know...never realized before how important it is to think about...what the people in my life bring out in me...but i definitely think about it now...and ya know...i am spendin a lot more time ...enjoying life..and a lot less time hating myself...needlessly (savin the self criticism which i AM VERY good at for the real stuff that needs to change)

[skym3]

tyvm ((((sky)))) you are a sweetie...and honestly...i think...we are a reflection of those we let in our lives..ya know...never realized before how important it is to think about...what the people in my life bring out in me...but i definitely think about it now...and ya know...i am spendin a lot more time ...enjoying life..and a lot less time hating myself...needlessly (savin the self criticism which i AM VERY good at for the real stuff that needs to change)

I was thinkin...

I need to do the same...life is too short...you should be happy and live it to the fullest. You have made me think about how trivial some things are. Thank you for your inspiration and I mean this sincerely.

[FemNLeatherNLace]

~i was thinkin'...

...was thinkin after talkin' to a couple of sistahs who are healing...

...experiences in life that have hurt....realizing i was one of many...and discovered the different women who shared the love i thought was only for me...and getting to know exes..all different kinds shapes...lifestyles...personalities...it was...well...traumatic...i felt like i lost myself...spent a lot of time wondering why me...and pretty much reduced myself to nothing...cuz i couldn't decide why they chose me as one of their girls...so i just concluded...i was there ..when they were bored...chance..ya know..nothing more...but now on the other side ...i have learned differently...it took forever to get some closure or fill in blank spots but it helped...but it was overwhelming...and more to process than i could in my head...so i wrote...and wrote and wrote...and learned the hard way not to fight all the stages ...it comes up because it needs to be resolved in our hearts and heads...in order to let it go and move forward...the hardest thing i had to learn was how to avoid tearing myself down...because i felt so transparent and worthless..just another face in the crowd...but...these people...like them that seek us out... are by no means stupid...or hell we wouldn't have wasted our time...so they are smart enough to spot a good woman/person......so that says somethin for us ya know?...they just ain't finished yet...partial people who need to heal or get a good ass kickin or a dose of reality...they chose us cuz we provided something they are lacking...they just weren't together enough to benefit from it or truly appreciate it


...but it's still ok to get pissed off...


stops ramblin'....

[onenicefemmepls]

i'm thinkin' no problem, onenice. hadn't seen you around in a while...now i know why...
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{keep on bein' happy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

thank you blk I'm workin on it How the hell are ya?

[onenicefemmepls]

.............i would come back and check~in......and smiled some smiles....cuz it's nice to have ppl care about the hell you are goin thru......ty 2 OneNiceFemmePlz and Agent blk <....... 4 ya!

.............then i was reading that comment by CB....( hiya Charlie ).....and it made me choke on my smoke.....LOL......and it was the "STFU".....thingy you said......i can't tell you how many times i had wanted to run out in our yard this last fall to say just that to the nieghbors who had no effin clue....about huge *ss parties after 10 pm........mind you these nieghbors were so full of themselves that they had a PA system in the backyard and was letting all of their friends sing karioke on decibles that would crack your window panes..... ...funny thing that neighborhood......i always loved the stories i heard about them since youknowwho had lived there many years....

...........to tell the truth....recalling that just now made me realise the one thing i miss the most .....about then....is the wall of family picturez.....and this one picture...that was taken of youknowwho....when they were younger. The expression captured on that photo...the look of the eye's....it was like a window into their soul......it made me wanna hug hyr and tell hyr it would be alright.......it was my favorite picture....

........anyhow...that made me think of that becuz CB is so in love with Mots....and has a cute sense of humor...that reminded me of them.......

...........and then this happened...... ......and then here i go again....

...but itz all good.......it happened for a reason.....yanno???

.......... :: exhaling blue haze ::

.................... goodnite and sweetdreamz ppl of this thread ............

Your very Wecome, Sweet

[blk3953]

thank you blk I'm workin on it How the hell are ya?

i'm doin' alright, thanks...just workin' and restin' and postin' goodie pics... ...i tell ya...i'm thinkin' that Hym and Femn are baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad influences on me in that area...

oh...um...ah... hiiiiiiiii, Femn!
poppin' that THONG again...

[FemNLeatherNLace]

i'm doin' alright, thanks...just workin' and restin' and postin' goodie pics... ...i tell ya...i'm thinkin' that Hym and Femn are baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad influences on me in that area...

oh...um...ah... hiiiiiiiii, Femn!
poppin' that THONG again...

~i was thinkin'...

...loooooks T up and down starts singin'...

Hot in.....
So hot in herre.....
So hot in.....

[Nelly]
I was like, good gracious ass bodacious
Flirtatcious, tryin to show faces
Lookin for the right time to shoot my steam (you know)
Lookin for the right time to flash them keys
Then um I'm leavin, please believin
Me and the rest of my heathens
Check it, got it locked at the top of the four seasons
Penthouse, roof top, birds I feedin
No deceivin, nothin up my sleeve, no teasin
I need you to get up up on the dance floor
Give that man what he askin for
Cuz I feel like bustin loose and I feel like touchin you
And cant nobody stop the juice so baby tell me whats the use
(I said)
Its gettin hot in here (so hot)
So take off all your clothes

I am gettin so hot, I wanna take my clothes off

[Nelly]
Why you at the bar if you aint poppin the bottles
What good is all the fame if you aint fuckin the models
I see you drivin, sportscar, aint hittin the throttle
And I be down, and do a hundred, top down and goggles
Get off the freeway, exit 106 and parked it
Ash tray, flip gate, time to spark it
Gucci collar for dollar, got out and walked it
I spit game cuz baby I cant talk it
Warm, sweatin its hot up in this joint
VOKAL tanktop, on at this point
Your with a winner so baby you cant loose
I got secrets cant leave Cancun
So take it off like your home alone
You know dance in front your mirror while your on the phone
Checkin your reflection and tellin your best friend,
like "girl I think my butt gettin big"

(Nelly hang all out)
Mix a little bit a ah, ah
With a little bit a ah, ah
(Nelly just fall out)
Give a little bit a ah, ah
With a little bit a ah, ah
(Nelly hang all out)
With a little bit a ah, ah
And a sprinkle a that ah, ah
(Nelly just fall out)
I like it when ya ah, ah
Girl, Baby make it ah, ah

[Nelly]
Stop placin, time wastin
I gotta a friend with a pole in the basement (What?)
I'm just kiddin like Jason (Oh)
Unless you gon' do it
Extra, extra eh, spread the news
Nelly took a trip from the Lunner to Neptune
Came back with somethin thicker than fittin in sasoons
Say she like to think about cuttin in restrooms

(Nelly hang all out)
Mix a little bit of ah, ah
With a little bit of ah, ah
(Nelly just fall out)
Give a little bit of ah, ah
With a little bit of ah, ah
(Nelly hang all out)
With a little bit of ah, ah
And a sprinkle of that ah, ah
(Nelly just fall out)
I like it when ya ah, ah
Girl, Baby make it ah, ah

[blk3953]

damn...i'm thinkin' it's pretty hot in herrre all of a sudden...

[SweetBlueDiva43]

* MUAH*



i am so glad that there are good ppl in this world...and i am treasurin them like they came from King Midas hymself...

bluehazeheaven

[shellies2good4u]

~hearin' the music, i'm a thinkin' that i need to come in and be a voyeur awhile and make sure i don't miss out on anythin' this hot~

~thinkin' i'ma gonna just sit down over yonder on that there bean bag and pop up my legs and keep an eye (or two.. *giggles* ) on ya'll

[SweetBlueDiva43]

Roger: FemN

[FemNLeatherNLace]

starts femme cluster fondle & grope

shellie...T...SBD

[SweetBlueDiva43]

Miss Shellie....you sit right here by me....and lets have something to drink....and we''ll just play catchup or something!

so this in my thinkin.......

i might not be able to make it to that thing in Seattle....but this summer in August.....i wanna do a beach weekend......and was thinking that getting a condo at Lincoln city for a B/F bash of about 30 ppl sounds good.... we could have cooking...games.....movies....have our own dance....do a bonfire on the beach....go looking for those glass floats.....maybe see a few starZ......andn see a few big fish.......do dinner at the casino......and have fireworks on the last night.....wahtchathink????? iz it doable????

[shellies2good4u]

well i'm a thinkin' that sounds mighty nice, but also thinkin' where is Lincoln City? (i'm not really from up here.. lol.. can't ya'll tell by my ya'lls and howdys )

[FemNLeatherNLace]

well i'm a thinkin' that sounds mighty nice, but also thinkin' where is Lincoln City? (i'm not really from up here.. lol.. can't ya'll tell by my ya'lls and howdys )

Lincoln City Oregon...i been there!!!

[bull dog]

I was thinkin... I second SBD's emotion on the beach party! Some of us Portlanders have discussed this very idea. There are some nice beach houses that definitely sleep at least 15 people, and would be a reasonable cost. I think it is doable and would be a blast!

Shellie, Lincoln City is about an hour from Portland.

[shellies2good4u]

*giggles* ~i'm a thinkin' that sounds great then.. so when? where? how much time do i have to go shoppin'? i'm sure i'll need some beach wear bra and panty sets! *my favorite shoppin'.. lol*

Lincoln City Oregon...i been there!!!

[Not So Innocent]

So I was thinking...

I wanna go *pout*

That I'd deserve it as the celebration of getting a new job today

That I was completely not expecting to get it, just wanted to get myself out there.

That giving the crappy job I'm leaving the kiss off never felt so good! No more working weekends!!!!!

Nothing can wipe the smile from my face today, not getting lost not once, but three times on the way to and from the interview, not crappy customers... nothing!

I'm thinkin....

WOOHOOOOOOOO!

[shellies2good4u]

~i'm thinkin' i'm sooooooooooo happy for you, {{{NSI}}} and i'm also thinkin' that you do deserve a celebration!!!

~thinkin' ya'll would just have to come to this.. it will be fabulous

~thinkin' YAY! for you and the Duke and no more workin' weekends!

So I was thinking...

I wanna go *pout*

That I'd deserve it as the celebration of getting a new job today

That I was completely not expecting to get it, just wanted to get myself out there.

That giving the crappy job I'm leaving the kiss off never felt so good! No more working weekends!!!!!

Nothing can wipe the smile from my face today, not getting lost not once, but three times on the way to and from the interview, not crappy customers... nothing!

I'm thinkin....

WOOHOOOOOOOO!

[size_matters]

Ok...I wasn't gonna post anymore...but I STILL read tha thread...Ya'll make me homesick when ya mention Muskogee (my hometown)...STOP IT! (Please?) *sniffles....mumbles to self " I ain't been home in 12 years." ...sniffles some more...walks away..chin on chest..eyes transfixed on toes*

(I found out how I got this evil eye too!)

[offroadbutch]

I was thinkin'....

how proud I am that other cast members were a part of the prop building process. I think it would help them respect the props more once they have a hand in creating something for the show they are a part of. Once the new props are done they will have more pride....even if they didn't do as much as they wanted, they were still a part of it.

[size_matters]

I'm still threadstalking you, do I count????

I am thinking, yes, I think FemN, my neighbor, is in love!

Ahhh, love! Doesn't it feel good?

I'm thinking, I just love to love!

and I am thinking, I just love being a lover!

I've slept 12 hours these past two nights. I am thinking I needed it. I am thinking I will be rested for school.

I am thinking I will try to stay away from here so I can work on my book or my advisor will eat my liver (even without the fava beans and chianti)

In a "Yo Bro" kinda way..yeah!...uhhhh...the French are BACK!....and....there is a noticeable lack of armpit hair.........Am I in trouble here?.....'Cause I'm thinkin I already know what I want...and she aint French! (Also...I don['t wanna be anyone's booty call...not even for the sake of office politics!...HECK! Especially not for the sake of office polotics!)

[FemNLeatherNLace]

~sooooooooozzzz i'm up at 4 this am thinkin'

...bout taxes...

...trips...

...ORB and hys props

...moving...BLECH...

...how kewl that NSI got to say "take this job and shove it" so to speak...(been there and it felt DAYUM good)...

...size...shakin head..a just crack me up..LOL...

...that i'm goina sneak another hour or two of sleep before starting day two of moving...

...how cute Hys plea was...diminished capacit...*smirks*

...about lingerie shopping

...bout Lily wishin i could hug her

...bout Mike and Stacey and how excited they are...

...oh and a buncha other stuff...*whistles*

[tjpnktommygrl]

Stalking Shewwie !!! Hiya hunny !!!

*giggles* ~i'm a thinkin' that sounds great then.. so when? where? how much time do i have to go shoppin'? i'm sure i'll need some beach wear bra and panty sets! *my favorite shoppin'.. lol*

[SweetBlueDiva43]

.....at 7:18 PST.....that i have some of the same thoughts....

.................gave lily a hug.....happy for all the love birds.....

...................and *whistlin*....right wit ya SiStA.....

.........ps........*think LINCOLN City for late August*

I am thinking of taking 7-10 days off in late august....and Lincoln City , The casino, The beach, Tanning oil, becomin a day dream believah.....will be my belated treat to me......then i am going to VegaSfor Labor day......and then back to the school grind...and by then i am a Senior......

...........then i will have to think of my new life and where i wanna go on my next adventure for Grad school....or just call it good and take a cushy job somewherez........

..................who knows who i will meet and what will happen......

i got up this morning and there are storm clouds hanging on the horizon...so it was a beautiful day yesterday...warm and sunny....shorts and flipflop weather............today looks like rain.....but ya gotta have a little of that sometime.....

have a good day everyone!

[shellies2good4u]

~i'm thinkin' there are some stalkers that just bring a smile.. lol @ tj

~thinkin' that late August.. that could be a wonderful bday pressie to myself.. hmmm...

~thinkin' i don't wanna go to work *pouts*

[SouthernPrincess]

I am thinking...............

~I dont want to be back in Fla ...
~That My weekend went by way to fast...
~That snow sounds so good right about now...
~That I am truely the luckest Grrl to have such a sweet heart...
~I am spolied rotten!....lol...All weekend long...Hy made sure My glass was always full, washed My hair, brought Me advil when My head hurt, never told Me "no", Full bodys rub downs, loads of attention, wonderful moments, and good god bless america..............earth shaking-fireworks blowing nights ...
~That My boss is more then likely not happy that I called out today ...
~Oh well I needed the sleep!
~Of the hugs I got from the kids when I got home
~How as soon as we got in the car they wanted to talk to Peaches...lol

~SP~

[FemNLeatherNLace]

I am thinking...............

~I dont want to be back in Fla ...
~That My weekend went by way to fast...
~That snow sounds so good right about now...
~That I am truely the luckest Grrl to have such a sweet heart...
~I am spolied rotten!....lol...All weekend long...Hy made sure My glass was always full, washed My hair, brought Me advil when My head hurt, never told Me "no", Full bodys rub downs, loads of attention, wonderful moments, and good god bless america..............earth shaking-fireworks blowing nights ...
~That My boss is more then likely not happy that I called out today ...
~Oh well I needed the sleep!
~Of the hugs I got from the kids when I got home
~How as soon as we got in the car they wanted to talk to Peaches...lol

~SP~

shares my bear... that's it we need ta plan a heist...Ms SP and FemN travel fund...

[FemNLeatherNLace]

SMOKEEEEEEEEE BREAK

~i was just a thinkin'

...have i mentioned that i HATE MOVING

...Alfalfa...you want me to come up and go hood rat mano y mano on the bastard?

...still smiling bout our lil chat this mornin'...hys so damn sexy when hys froggy...

...been thinkin the trailah park needs one of them fancy smanchy built in pools and wigglin water pools

...thinkin' Wolfie is goina dress me up like a White Sox poster child

...i wanna play ice hockey and go snowbaording...and nail Wolfie with a snowball when hy aint lookin'

...will CB still be the getaway drivah

...whyyyyyyyy mustttttttttt the catssssssssssss stick their assssssssss in my faceeeeeeeee...FLICKS EM with a rubberband

[BrainyFemme]

So I'm thinkin'...

about conversations with several femmes that all have a Butch in common in one capacity or another

AND

how a public image for niceness, fidelity, spirituality and the like can be a very fragile thing

IF

everyone were to find out just how deceptive some people are

AND

how sometimes when it's time to pay the piper, it is better to friggin' pay him rather than hold him off...

or the rats come back into town and become a bigger nuisance than before

OR

do I have the wrong fable???

[bull dog]

I was thinkin... there is a whining basset hound in my backyard who is really beginning to annoy me. I am not sure why he is here. My landlady must be dog sitting. Maybe he is Seymour's daddy. Seymour is the dog who lives here and he is half black lab, half basset hound. He's a little funny lookin but he's a sweet dog and does not whine.

I was thinkin... I'd go out to the garage to get my boxes so I could start packin for my move. Maybe FemN and I should synchronize our watches, lol.

[size_matters]

6am......life does NOT exist at 6am.....coffee does NOT exist at 6am...and I DON'T do meetings at 6am.....that is what I told my work when they called at 5am. So I got up...dressed (so ta speak...I was not in business attire)...drove through Mocha Express....and went to their meeting. The meeting (led by Miss Bossy Carpenter's Dream French Woman) was about our yearly review. "Why am I here at 6am for a meeting about reviews?" I stood and demanded to know. "I have had like....10 of these d**ned things already...this is my 11th....and I have had NO RAISE for the last five...and I have already been told that this is just a formality for me and I will HAVE no raise for the 6TH YEAR in a row..."..interrupted by VP..pointing his finger toward his office saying "inside...NOW!"....So I go to his office (thinking I'm fired for sure...and not really caring as then I can go home and go to sleep.)......CEO comes in...tells me it's alright.....that abrasive French woman has saved my *ss...and that I should come thank her...and apologize. So I go back out to the meeting.....I thank her for saving my butt...fold my arms and lean against the wall....Everyone's looking at me..especially the CEO..waiting for my apology......I stare flatly at the French woman....CEO says "We're waiting"....I say "I'm sorry you woke me up at 5am after I worked for 16 hours last night and then had to put up with me being grumpy about not getting a raise."...French woman says "Vou work 16 owwers...zen zay farce vou to meet?"...I say "Yes."...she says "Vou must not stand por zis!...Runaway!...go home!...go! ...GO!"...so now I'm goin back ta bed.
I just had ta share ...LOL

[ang101_us]

*rubs eyes*

I was thinking..."damn!!" that's a whole lot of reading...ugggg...

*shakes head*

I was thinking...how I have missed pestering my dear fem friend...

I was thinking...gezuzzzzzz...my dog poops a lot...

I was thinking...I have to pick up all that poop outside...

I was thinking....about thinking...and how it hurts to think too much...sheesh..

I was thinking...this is a pretty good thread where you can come and think about whatever your thinking about...wow...thats some good thinking...

I was thinking.....butchcock ....

and thats about all the thinking i want to do today...

Fem u rock!

ang

[FemNLeatherNLace]

*rubs eyes*

I was thinking..."damn!!" that's a whole lot of reading...ugggg...

*shakes head*

I was thinking...how I have missed pestering my dear femme friend...

I was thinking...gezuzzzzzz...my dog poops a lot...

I was thinking...I have to pick up all that poop outside...

I was thinking....about thinking...and how it hurts to think too much...sheesh..

I was thinking...this is a pretty good thread where you can come and think about whatever your thinking about...wow...thats some good thinking...

I was think.....butchcock ....

and thats about all the thinking i want to do today...

Femme u rock!

ang

~i was thinkin'...

...DAYUM i have missed you two...SPANK YOUR PP's for bein MIA...

...but i'm glad ya found the trailah park down ta earth...we are all unique (we like that better than insane) but we got each other thinkin thread...

...fuckerhead with the butchcock BRAT baaa baaa

...do they make doggie butt plugs?


...waves and waves to Ya-Ya.....are you takin care of yourself? ...cuz im on PP spankin roll MISSY

...im thinkin that French woman is destined to be size's wife

...Looks at Bully... SHIT...but but but...omg i gotta get another truck first ....... so would that mean the daddy is bigger than the kid...and HOW did the lab and basset hound ummmm neva mind

[cutesftbutch4u]

So i was thinking that i have not been on here for a while..

So im thinking i have way to much on my mind..

So im thinking i got so lost leaving my friends house and ended up making circles three times...

So im thinking im stubborn but finally stoped and asked directions..

So im thinking that even though this shyt hurts i am one strong boi and continue to get stronger..

So im thinking that i hate cramps..

So im thinking can someone cut this shyt out of me already..

So im thinking i really dont understand woman..

So im thinking im not going to sit here and wine..

So im thinking im going to go

[FemNLeatherNLace]

So i was thinking that i have not been on here for a while..

So im thinking i have way to much on my mind..

So im thinking i got so lost leaving my friends house and ended up making circles three times...

So im thinking im stubborn but finally stoped and asked directions..

So im thinking that even though this shyt hurts i am one strong boi and continue to get stronger..

So im thinking that i hate cramps..

So im thinking can someone cut this shyt out of me already..

So im thinking i really dont understand woman..

So im thinking im not going to sit here and wine..

So im thinking im going to go

*smacks Spanky's bunz and smooches hys nose and hugs hym til hys eyes bulge*

[bull dog]

I was thinkin... the kid is in between the size of a basset hound and lab. He looks like a lab but has kinda short legs and barrel shaped torso. Fortunately Mama was the bigger dog- a black lab named Sadie. She used to be here too but unfortunately she died. Never underestimate a short dog, I guess. Chortle.

[cutesftbutch4u]

*smacks Spanky's bunz and smooches hys nose and hugs hym til hys eyes bulge*

Im thinking i so need a hug right now..

Im thinking her arms need to be around me..

Im thinking im not one to give up on what i want or love..

Im thinking its nice to have a good conversation with said person this morning...

Im thinking i wish she could cuddle with me last night while laying in bed watching the first season of the L word finally passing out at 5 in the morning...

[tigressStriped]

I was thinking...

its funny though.. how "ang's" dog.. is MY dog when she is bad...

how the kitty is mine when she is really bad too... hmmmm

how i miss fem

how much i miss saying "butchcock"

hmmm...

i was also thinking...

how is it that my wife can think that much in one day??? hehe.. jk babe

now i'm thinking i better get back to work or i will be behinddddd

but i'm still thinking about those doggy butt plugs... LMAO.. too funny!

~Shan