My Life with Jay.....

[SweetBlueDiva43]

I just want to take the opportunity to clear the air to those individuals....who are smearing my honey's name out there.

Jay found me here at B/F. I was going through a really bad breakup with someone i thought cared about me at home. Jay PM'd me and told me that when my plate wasn't so full...that s/he was interested in making friends and to lend me a shoulder if i needed it.

What i want all of you Femme's to know...who may have been involved with Jay....is this :

Jay is an honest Person....who cared for me....and became my friend and we hit it off in earnest. We have so much in common.

Jay was honest with me in all HYS affairs.....including all the entanglements with others who have been here. Life is complicated enough without others making life worse by interjecting their experiences from thier perspective. I am saying this to everyone who hs a connection to Jay........

Please back off.

Jay and I are very happy....we are growing in love....and I am excited to begin my life with Jay. I trust Jay with all my heart. Jay love's me..... The thing that hurts the most to Jay...is those who would smear Hys reputation....and make hym looking like hye is a RAT. Welll.....to all you femme's who feel slighted....please know that you will find your love soon....Jay and I wish you the best.

I also want you all to know...that what ever you post to this thread...will not affect my decision for Jay. Jay has my back....I have Jay's.

You have a right to your own opinion.....and we have a right to ours. I want you to quit posting negative things about Jay.....and sending me PM's that is supposed to intimidate me into leaving Jay or abandoning our life together.

This forum is for inspiration....for joy....for peace....for love....for the right to be ourselves. Jay would never intentionally hurt someone. Neither would I.

The only other thing i want to say at this moment...is this.....

Please.....wish us all the best in the world. Even if you don't .....it won't affect us........because Jay and i are building on solid ground.

I got accepted to CAL STATE at Fullerton.....we have plans for our future....and we are proceeding even if you cannot bless us with good will.

Please feel free to see our pix from our recent play time together in VEGAS>>>>

WE RAWK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AS Sooon as i can upload our pix....they will be here...and you will see what a handsome couple we make...and HOW FUCKING HAPPY WE ARE WITH OUR DECISION>>>>>>> *smile*

Love and peace to alll........

Jay and Dawn

[sinnomin]

Umm i don't even know who Jay is...but i will wish you all the best if that is what you are seeking with your post, however for some reason i really don't think it was the intent you posted with.

i have a feeling that this is about the past drama that unfolded here several times with the Butch that was involved in it several times, if that is the case then i really do wish you all the luck there is to be had...you are making your decisions with eyes wide open...you are making your decisions regardless of red flags, warnings and factual information...you know what you want, you have what you want...isn't that enough without the declarations of love and happiness?

once upon a time a femme wrote a letter to this forum, protecting, justifying and trying to get others to see just how different her and her partners love was from any other hy had been with...a few weeks later that same femme was back to admit everyone was right...and yet here is another letter...

These letters open to the forum have me questioning the purpose. i feel that whenever i see one of these letters the writer is actually seeing the red flags, questioning their own decisions, and in general trying to prove to themselves and their partner that the relationship is trusted.

i don't know, but if i had lot's of femmes warning me as you stated, and read info that was intended as red flags, but decided i wasn't going to listen to anyone but myself and partner the last thing i would do is come in here trying to prove something that can never be proved.

Truely good luck to you, and your partner Jay. I wish you much happiness and gentleness...but i also wish one other thing...please leave Drama for television.

Thank you.

[SweetBlueDiva43]

While i value your opinion......i want you to know one thing.

There *was* drama......not from me....but from others who thought they had my my best at heart. While the PM"S were meant to *educate me* about Jay....what they didn't know...is that Jay and I have very open communication about everything that has transpired between us.

The nice thing is .... is that Jay and I wanted others that PM'd me to see in an open forum....that the value judgements made about Jay.... are not as clearly focused as they seem to think they are.

The other nice thing is this Sinnoman......

The are no red flags about any part of our union....and because we have open communication..... the foundation we build on is solid.

My intent for the post was clear and simple.....to head off other personal attacks to me...via PM's......and to help them to see...that even though it didn't work out for them.....it is working out for us. That is the magic of great communication and honesty and openess.

And one last thing....for reassurance to any and all who read here....

Drama is truly best left to TV......fortunately...i live in the present (real time).....and not in fantasy land.

Again.....Dear....Thankyou for your post.

[sinnomin]

you are more than welcome *s*

[SweetBlueDiva43]

...........ty Sista!......

We are so freakin Happy.....Bliss for us in Paradise.....is an understatement!

[Road Runner]

blink blink

[SweetBlueDiva43]

This is for you.....my handsome...Daddy!

Today is day # 10 in Paradise with you....and my life has catapulted to the level of heavenly bliss....

Today.....as i reflected back on the time we have had since i came into your life...i realise how much we are bonding....and how safe i feel with you.....and how much you care for me.

Jay darling..... feeding me with your love has filled me over and over again.....

I just want you to know Sweetheart how much you mean to me.....

From first thing in the morning...til the afternoon....til the evening dusk...and the stars come out.....i feel you in my life.....actively adoring me....and giving from your heart all the love you have for me.

My heart belongs to you..... ...

I love you Jay....... ......everyday we have together...i will be loving you

[SweetBlueDiva43]

Your kisses burn their desire on me.....
Your eye's give me the "look"
Your body Calls me to come....

Right here...
Right now....
it's the Right thing.....
This thing we have....
is made for us....

You make me wanna holler
from the tops of the mountains....
the top of the Universe....

Jay is my ~man~.......

Jay....do you hear me????
do you feel me....
can you sense me...
as you lay in bed reading the paper...
gettin all your puppy love....

The Daddies Girl....... ......wants you.....now!

~~~~~~~~ sending you my secret scent ~~~~~~~~~~~~

I love you Jay......More and More.....everyday.....

Kiss!!!!!!!!!

[SweetBlueDiva43]

.....being with You is like sailing on a sea....
whether is it stormy or calm
a ripple here or there....one thing is for sure...
You have been my Rock....
more brilliant than a Stone could ever shine
polished by life with a certain perfection
that is sweeter than life itself....

dazzling me with Your wit and charm....
Your inner sense of charisma...
You tantalise me with Your intelligence
i am deserving of your attention and affectons....
and how nice they feel
all over my life that was waiting for You....

....Jay....i love you more each day

[SweetBlueDiva43]

is shadowed by hues of decadence......

the decadence of You...and your amazing ability to solve life's problems.

Jay...Eddie is at it again....

Take my hand....show me the way...for i am tired and weary.....i need your arms in the shelter of his storm....the storm that seems to never cease....

Jay...thankyou for being that Tower of Power for me....

I love you dearly.....

~dawn

[GG]

Where is Jay? Why does he never comment? Who is Eddie? Seeing all this here is making me curious as all hell.

~GG~

[SweetBlueDiva43]

i sent you a PM dear.....

Hope it answers all your questions ......


Jay Darling....I love you for who you are and what you are everyday....

I love you for your stoneness....your loving heart...and your sunshiney ways......

I am having another Great Day in Paradise....with You Babe!

Love you much....
Your BabyGirl.....~ dawn

[SweetBlueDiva43]

I wanted to say....

you are the best cook....(enchilada's).....

wanna sleep some more?????

wanna Kisssssss ?????

wanna get Naked????

i cannot help you with ChickenWings....or Carrot Cake.....

The Diet Guru is speaking right now......

:: tooo mucchhhh Enchilada's......this week...weeeeee must diet ::





........Love you Dear.....

[SweetBlueDiva43]

are u ready for today????

we have so much to do....appt's with Eddie....and all. I hope today that you have a great day.....and that Eddie does too.....

i know i feel so achy this morning that i hope i have a good day....those days where you feel the body age.....*sigh*....

good morning Jay.....

[SweetBlueDiva43]

Jay_Love.....

you are such a busy boi.....making your garage all clean and ready to party n this next spring!!!!!

WHOOOO HOOOOO!!!!!!!

Pool.....Ping Pong......Darts......new garage door with blue glass to light the fun...... (((((((((((( Jay )))))))))))))

i can hardly wait til i paint the house outside.....and get that project finished!

wow.....this pad of ours...will sooooon be known as the ....

* House of Bluez *.......

tee heeeee!!!!!

I love you Jay*Man

Happy sunshiney day Sweetheart!!!!!!

I love you

[SweetBlueDiva43]

never ceases to amaze me..... ......here we are...growing like crazy.....tending to our garden...... .......

Life with you Jay...if filled with joy.....happiness....wonder.....and amazement......

i want to tell you how much you mean to me dear.....

it moves me when you know what i need at the time you see it....
it makes me feel secure with you....knowing that you are focused on me...

you mean the world to me Jay....each and everyday....
for with time....we get to co-create our paradise...
and with each stroke you contribute to our bliss
it tells me about your wish
to be happy and content
joyful and blessed
with my heart connected to the same path of yours
Our heart becomes one
beating one for one
sharing the daily grind
of love so sublime
nothing could be more perfect
than the desires we share together....

Thankyou for showing me your world
thankyou for inviting me to share life with you
for i greet you with equal enthusiasm

for life is far sweeter when we both love Blue!

Jay....it's so strange yet wonderful that your mother loved the color blue...

yours for life....
your one and only....SweetBlueDiva.....who is now 45
and alive....with your love....

Your Angel in our Paradise.....~ Dawn

[dirtywhiteboi]

Awwww what a beautiful one sided relationship you have.
If only all of us could be this happy in our minds.
Whats your sectet????

curiousdirt

[SweetBlueDiva43]

it may "seem" onesided to you.....

but this thread is my way of posting to my Daddy.....my daily thoughts....

and it doesn't require hys posting back to me.....

not that i owe you an answer or anything......... .......

but Happy Halloween to ya .....

ya don't skeer me!

[justbutch]

Awwww what a beautiful one sided relationship you have.
If only all of us could be this happy in our minds.
Whats your sectet????

curiousdirt

LMAO!!!

Sorry...when I read this I just fell out laughing. Sorry.




Just the Butchermyn

[justbutch]

SBD....

I just have a question....one question.

How long have you been together?



Just the Butchermyn

[dirtywhiteboi]

trying to "skeer" ya.
But i have a question, is jay one of those "realdolls" or something???
Is this jay????
http://www.realdoll.com/maledoll1.asp

skeereddirt

it may "seem" onesided to you.....

but this thread is my way of posting to my Daddy.....my daily thoughts....

and it doesn't require hys posting back to me.....

not that i owe you an answer or anything......... .......

but Happy Halloween to ya .....

ya don't skeer me!

[justbutch]

SBD....

I just have a question....one question.

How long have you and 'Jay' been together?




Just the Butchermyn

[queenofsmirks]

it may "seem" onesided to you..... but this thread is my way of posting to my Daddy.....my daily thoughts.... and it doesn't require hys posting back to me..... not that i owe you an answer or anything......... ....... but Happy Halloween to ya .....
ya don't skeer me!

Actually, it seems rather unhealthy. People who want to "write down" their daily thoughts usually use a diary rather than posting to a public forum. I don't know how your partner feels about it, but if he needs this much public adoration from you, then I sense a serious ego and self-esteem problem. And if HE doesn't need it, why do YOU feel the need to post it? People who blather on about what they have usually do so to cover up their insecurities and lack of what they really do have. Seek help, sweetie... this is really beyond anything that qualifies as a "healthy" relationship.

[SweetBlueDiva43]

i find it amazing everytime when individuals feel compelled to get their thoughts on paper...whether in private...or in a thread in an online forum.....

what i choose to do is healthy for me.



What you choose to do is your choice.....

thanks for visiting this thread....it was interesting to see your thoughts and feelings here.....

[sweetslildevil]

I agree with Queenofsmirks
I have seen you defending your relationship with this Jay several times, although I do not know Jay, I do know Hy never defends hymself, or backs you, weird

[jenstar]

"pant pant pant pant"

"meow"

!!!<KABOOM!!!>!!!

[aprettydress]

dear sweetblue & jay,
you make my day
i wrote you these lines
while eating pork rinds.

and here's the rhyme-scheme:

aabb

-dress

[JetBoy]

Dear SweetBlu and Jay

I don't know you.
I don't know if I want to know you.
I do know that I don't want to read a daily journal for either of you.
Perhaps a blog. Save the bandwith of B/F.com.
I personally DETEST these ongoing love letters from hell!
If you gotta make it public then you'll share the break-up and I'm tired of those too.
Everyone, please, stay single and jerk off in the bathroom.
Write about that on the bathroom walls!

[Eve]

Dear public lovers/breakers,

Please know that I *love* watching. It's hard to get all that stuff out there so drama-watchers like myself can follow the story. I appreciate all you do for folks like me. How else can I get my fix?

And here's a poem for dress:

Dear Daddy Dress
my room is a mess.
Your love is amazing
like enchiladas.

~Eve (who's not talking about the occasional heart-felt letter, those are cool ... but the continual journal of love? they lead to journals of hate later on. And those, my friends, are my bread-n-buttah as a drama watcher)

[dirtywhiteboi]

there once was a sweetbluejay
I made her out of clay
place her on a window sill
the cat knocked her over and broke her bill.

the end

poeticdirt

[Daddy Rhon]

This member is invited to create threads here, just like everyone else. Stop picking at her for your own amusement.

[TAZMO]

Please know that this "relationship" is no longer.