I was going to do a video entry but the battery of the camera was dead so I'll do one probably Saturday. Anyways, today turned out to be a good day (at least thus far). I went to the consult that is required as part of the intake process for Callen-Lorde when you are interested in transitioning. At the end of the session (about 30 min or so), the therapist said that he felt I knew where I was going, was well aware of the risks involved (emotionally and physically) and that I shouldn't have any issues with transitioning. He also said that it's very likely that my next visit with my primary doctor there I will likely get my T prescription. This highlights again the importance of owning yourself, who you are and where you want to go. I have no qualms that this is my path and I feel very confident about the person I'll become. Granted I still have the occasional worry. I'm not invincible, no matter how much I try to polish my armor.

I was reading on one of the LJ groups this morning about one person who transitioned and after 15 months on T, still did no pass. That worries me a bit. I don't pass now unless people don't quite look at me right. But I'm hopeful that perhaps since I'm likely peri-menopausal, that I'll respond well to T. This would mean letting the company and family know about what to expect sooner than anticipated but it will have to be done. After my meet up with the therapist today I realized that I have never been so happy in my life as I am now. I truly feel alive and know that this is the path for me. I don't feel ashamed of who I am or where I'm going. I actually feel confident of the person I am and the decisions I make. I may not always make the right decisions but at least I know they are my own decision and not based on what others want me to be. This is a very liberating feeling to have right now.

And more than anything.. it is mine to own.

Now, if I could just find the wardrobe that'd make me look good, I'd be set. Anyone wanna play "Queer Eye for the Trans Guy"??