Happy Birthday

Today is another first for me. Today, I turn 51. Alone. I'm a twin less twin. It hurts as baddly as his death did.


Arnie and I always hated some of the questions *singletons* asked us, so we sort of skated by, by saying we were the same age, and leaving it at that. We were not identical. In fact, we were night and day.Bad enough our parents labeled us *good twin* and *bad twin*. He handeled our twin issues better than I did. < he'd tell me because he was older, or because he was my brother > things like being seperated for the first time in school, and then as adults. Then when I found my identity, Indeed, It is a special bond. It's so hard to explain. Sometimes I have pain. Sometimes, I have profound peace. I am definitely LOST. It's very confusing, almost as if half of me is gone........ it is my mortality that stares in my face. I know this, the road will be alot longer with out him.


forever a *singleton* now