sweetboi2

What is worth working on? Who is worth the effort? When is best to let go? How do you trust again? ....ugg and the questions continue...so hate this stuff...

So we work together....this makes me a wreck at times....i found myself not thinking about you at times today....this is bizzare for me....I am actually losing feelings for you....not in a bad way but in a good way....recieveing so much positive attention from my friends and even people who dont know me has really helped...keepin busy and focusing on getting my mind heart and body together is a prescription to heal....my weeks are full...and have nothing to do with you...i feel freeeeeee lol I ...

There used to be a time I would have never imagined being without you. Today I resisted all urges to call or txt. Its the game you know well and play better than anyone I think I have ever known. I am sure in the back of your mind you are wondering, not if but when I will text you or try to call. As painful as this is...it wont be me contacting you anymore. I am reopining my world again. Damn me for letting this get to this point....and Damn you for taking all the advantage...

You asked why today and I didnt hold back, I spoke my truth and your reply was very much what i figured it would be....total emphasis on what I am doing wrong...no acknowledgement of how I feel...nor any answers to questions I had of you....its so convenient to only answer those things you choose to answer and discuss only those things you find easy to deal with...at this point i just want to move on and become better...i see now that its limited with you...and always will be...you dont have the ...

you said good morning today, as we normally have done for a while, it seems you dont see the shift in me, this time, letting it roll off your back and avoiding all the hard questions arent working. yet u dont see this. a fear of losing control is what you see. i serioulsly doubt that really has alot to do with me. its so strange how being around you makes me feel so incredibly alone sometimes.